06/08/2026
The call to fervent faith- being more like David
There are days when I genuinely do not I get myself, but God Loves Me anyway & I can love God deeply but still feel like a walking contradiction. I want to always be holy, surrendered, mature, and Spirit-led, but I also realize I am still very much human. One minute I can be worshiping with tears in my eyes, feeling the nearness of God, and the next minute I am distracted, overwhelmed, irritated, numbing out, or reacting in a way I wish I hadn’t.
It is honestly humbling how quickly I can go from “Lord, have Your way in me” to “Why am I like this?” That is why Romans 7:15 hits so hard. Paul says, “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it.” And honestly, same!!!
Paul was not writing as someone who did not care about holiness, he was writing as someone who deeply cared, but understood the war happening inside of himself. He wanted righteousness, but he still felt the pull of the flesh. He desired obedience, but he still wrestled with himself in rebellion.
This reminded me of how the book of Psalms feels like an emotional yo-yo it’s God for David… David did not always get it right either. He had deep devotion, deep emotion, deep worship, and also some very serious sin. He had high highs and low lows. He could be brave and faithful one moment, then broken, overwhelmed, afraid, or completely undone in another. But what stands out to me is that David KEPT coming back to God, and God NEVER stopped loving him.
David brought God the good, the bad, and the ugly worship. He brought praise and pain. He brought faith and frustration. He brought confidence and confusion. He brought repentance and grief. He did not only come to God when he had the right words or the right attitude. He came honestly. Even when his emotions were all over the place, he kept seeking the heart of God- this is what I truly desire!!
And that matters because sometimes we think spiritual maturity means we are never messy, never emotional, never inconsistent, and never struggling…But David shows us something different. He shows us that maturity is not pretending we are fine- It is learning to keep returning to God with the truth despite how we feel or what we’ve done. That does not mean our behavior does not matter. It absolutely does! Fruit, Repentance, Obedience & Growth Matter!!
But our struggle does not disqualify us from being loved by God. Our unfinished places do not scare Him away. The parts of us we do not understand are still fully seen by Him. Ad long as we keep coming back he will keep renewing us and refining us…
So my goal today is to try and be more like David. To be honest with God no matter how I feel, and keep trying to remain faithful regardless of the situation or circumstances….Because the God who never left David will not leave me (or you) either.