09/08/2026
The writer Barbara Brown Taylor had to deepen her trust in God, as she stepped away from pastoring in an Episcopal church:
By the time I resigned from Grace-Calvary, I had arrived at an understanding of faith that had far more to do with trust than with certainty. I trusted God to be God even if I could not say who God was for sure. I trusted God to sustain the world although I could not say for sure how that happened.
I trusted God to hold me and those I loved, in life and in death, without giving me one shred of conclusive evidence that it was so. While this understanding had the welcome effect of changing faith from a noun to a verb for me, it was an understanding that told me how far I had strayed from the center of my old spiritual map.
Like any other map, mine had both a center and an edge. At the center stood the Church, where good women baked communion bread, ironed altar linens, and polished silver that had been in the church family for generations. Parents presented their children for baptism, and those children grew up with dozens of church aunts and uncles who knew them by name…. These people at the center kept the map from blowing away.
As it turned out, the edge of the map was not all that far from the center…. All we had to do was step outside the Church and walk to where the lights from the sanctuary did not pierce the darkness anymore…. There were no slate roofs or signs to the restroom out there, no printed programs or friendly ushers. There was just the unscripted encounter with the undomesticated God whose name was unpronounceable…. These people at the edge kept the map from becoming redundant.
According to the Bible, both the center and the edge are essential to the spiritual landscape, although they are as different from one another as they can be.... There is life in both places …, but they are so different from one another that it is often difficult for people … to agree that both places really belong on the same map. Much that is certain at the center is up for grabs in the wilderness. [1]