23/12/2025
THIS IS IT!
For as long as I can remember I’ve felt a presence inside myself, an awareness that I wasn’t alone. It was always more real for me than anything else. I never understood it, it just was.
For the big things in life, I always followed this intuitive feeling. With time, I learned it was pointless to go against it as it was always right, and that’s how things were going to end up anyway, so why go fight it? Even though I knew it wanted me to be happy, I’d often go against it on the small things just because I didn’t want to do it. ‘I’ wanted to win.
One day a Couch Surfer guest introduced me to Paramahamsa Vishwananda. Our meeting was marked with overwhelming feelings of friendship and recognition, we even cried. He told me that his guru had sent him to the Netherlands.
I’d never heard of a guru before, so I was intrigued. After listening to him for a few days, I thought, ‘What are we waiting for? It’s only three and a half hours to drive to Shree Peetha Nilaya. Let’s go.’
As soon as I saw Guruji, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of intense love, compassion, and safety. I instantly felt like I had a purpose and a sense of belonging, and I wanted to know more. It happened again in my first darshan and I felt, ‘Yes! This is IT!’ I knew at that moment, that Paramahamsa Vishwananda was the one who had been guiding me all my life.
Initially, I was after a peak spiritual experience, but soon I began to realise that there was something even greater. I kept following the feeling and found myself back where I started. I’ve come to recognise that inner presence as God’s Love. My intuition told me to do as much as I could to connect with this Love. Eventually, it led me to become a monk and to dedicate my life to serving Guruji because He is that same Love.
The more I connect with this Love, the more my mindset changes, and I feel connected with Guruji and God. So now I do it more and more, even with the small things. Because when I follow my intuition life is just easier, more peaceful, and better!
Kanaka Das
- Germany
