29/04/2026
Chapter 80: Red Book by Venice Fourie
Acts 1:6–8
This passage reminds us that God works in His own timing and seasons, and that our role is to trust Him and rely on His strength, even when we don’t fully understand what He is doing.
The past few weeks have been a deeply emotional and spiritual journey for me. It hasn’t been easy—it’s felt like a rollercoaster with real highs and heavy lows, and honestly, not the kind you enjoy.
Being human, my emotions sometimes take over. I’ve cried, I’ve prayed, I’ve wrestled through it all, doing everything I know to do. But this morning feels heavier than usual. I’ve been dealing with something that, despite my spiritual growth, makes me feel like I’m not strong enough for this journey.
There are moments where it feels like God is silent. Like He’s not hearing me, not opening doors, and not giving me the strength I’m asking for. And in those moments, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed and even question what He is doing.
But then I’m reminded of His timing—His seasons.
Even though I’ve spoken about it before, even though I understand it, there are times where the emotional and drained part of me struggles to hold onto that truth. And that’s real. It’s honest.
Right now, it feels like God is stripping away everything—bringing me to a place where I have no choice but to rely fully on Him. To pray more, to seek Him deeper, to sit in His presence even when I don’t have the words.
Scripture reminds us that transformation is a process. We are being changed, shaped, and renewed—letting go of our old ways and stepping into who God is calling us to be. And sometimes, that process is uncomfortable. Sometimes it feels like breaking before becoming.
Even in the exhaustion, even in the heaviness—I still get up.
Maybe not with joy or energy, maybe not as my usual self—but I still show up for the day. And that matters. Because sometimes, faith looks like simply continuing, even when everything in you wants to hide.
If you find yourself in a similar place, know this: you are not alone in the struggle. Growth is not always graceful, and faith is not always easy. But even here, in the middle of it, God is still at work.
Reference Scriptures:
2 Corinthians 3:18
Ephesians 4:22–24
Even on the hardest days, choosing to get up and keep going is a quiet act of faith.