03/20/2026
By Natural Process
By Rebecca Otte, JDPSN
Recently, I had a conversation with a young man who has been practicing Zen for some years and is quite sincere in his meditation practice, but he had been finding himself floundering. “Why am I doing this?”, he asked. “I’m tired. My body hurts. And nothing seems to be happening anyway. Why should I bother?”
Once there was a sick man, who went for help to many doctors, but they only spread their arms helplessly - they were not able to help him. At last, he found a person whom we usually call a wise old man. This man was an herbalist. He said: "I can help you. Not far away from here in the forest, in the mountains, grows a medicinal plant. If you only look for it according to my instructions - patiently and carefully - you will surely find it and you will be healthy again". So this man, feeling very happy, set off to look for a plant. At the beginning he was alert, patiently and carefully looked around. But as time passed, he became less careful - he noticed a lot of interesting bushes and a lot of beautiful rocks and stones and slowly, slowly he forgot about the instructions of the herbalist and finally forgot why he had come to the forest.
Our practice can be like that. When we first come to Zen, we are often excited about a chance to have our questions answered and our wisdom to grow up. We want to be enlightened or become kinder or become less anxious. But once we get into the core of practice, gradually the excitement wears down. Like the sick man, we stop looking for the medicine we need so that gradually we forget why we came to practice in the first place. It is at this juncture that many people just give up, thinking that there is no medicine in this forest of practice.
This wanting something from practice is a mistake that is at the heart of our disappointment. One of the basic teachings in Zen is to “let go”. This “letting go” is surrendering our wants and desires, our opinions and biases, our ideas of what should and shouldn’t be and we do this over and over in our meditation. For a long time, it feels as though nothing is happening, but, by natural process, this “letting go” transforms this “I, my, me” life into a life of greater compassion.