06/22/2026
GRATITUDE
It's been a while. Life has been busy. Chaotic. Exhausting. So, I took a break from writing.
In that break, I read a lot. Studied a lot. I spent a lot of time seeking God's guidance, wisdom, and direction.
A lot can happen in a year.
There was a new job title and greater responsibility. There was the heartbreaking loss of my daddy and learning how to navigate all the "firsts" that followed—Veterans Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas, his birthday, Father's Day. There was helping nurse my sister back to health. My son graduated from high school and tech school. I stood in a courtroom and faced the woman responsible for my father's death. My daughter got engaged.
And that's just the big stuff.
Looking back, I can see God's hand through every moment. Not because every moment was easy, but because He never left me in the hard moments. Psalm 34:18 reminds us that God is close to the brokenhearted. I have experienced that truth firsthand. In the moments when grief felt overwhelming, when tears came unexpectedly, and when I wondered how I would make it through another difficult day, God was there.
What I have learned through it all is how to navigate my emotions without letting them navigate me. I have learned to hold tightly to hope and faith. To pray more. To spend more time with the people I love. To forgive, even when forgiveness feels impossible. To cling to God's mercy, grace, and unfailing love.
I have also come to better understand the words found in 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18: "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances." Notice that Paul doesn't say to give thanks for ALL circumstances. He says to give thanks IN ALL circumstances. Even in grief, there is gratitude. Even in loss, there is love. Even in heartbreak, there is hope.
Today, as I look back over the past year, I am trying not to focus on what I have lost.
A year since I heard my daddy's voice.
A year since I received one of his hugs.
A year since a simple good morning text lit up my phone.
A year since I heard him drive by with his music blaring.
Instead, I am choosing gratitude.
I am grateful for the years I had with him. For the love we shared. For the memories we made. For the lessons he taught me. For the example he set. And most of all, for the peace that comes from knowing he is with Jesus.
The grief is still there, and some days it feels heavier than others. But I am learning that grief and gratitude can walk hand in hand. I can miss my daddy deeply while thanking God for the blessing of having him in my life. I can mourn what was lost while celebrating the promise of eternity.
The past year has reminded me that life is fragile, but God's promises are not.
When life changes, God remains.
When our hearts break, God remains.
When we face challenges we never expected, God remains.
And because He remains, we can rejoice, pray, and give thanks—even in the middle of life's hardest seasons.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed.”
Psalms 34:18 NLT
“Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NLT