09/08/2026
ECCLESIOLOGICAL ETCHINGS
September 8, 2026
I felt alone on my walk this morning—not lonely, but alone. There was no sense of forsakenness by God, just a walk with my own thoughts, questions, concerns, fears, hopes, and joys. My faith tells me God was there, but unlike most of my walks, it didn’t include what I can only describe as a friendly conversation with God. A thought frequently crosses my mind: how well do I truly know myself? Our faith encourages us to embrace humility, and Jesus emphasized that those who lose their lives for Christ’s sake will find them (Matthew 25:16). While this truth holds significant weight, I grapple with the question of whether I can truly lose something I don’t understand. Could there be alternative motives, insecurities that unconsciously steer my actions, or an ego that desperately craves validation? There are most definitely layers of my life I have yet to explore, and buried between those layers is found unacknowledged influences that hinder any real attempt to lose my life for the sake of Christ. Maybe there is a process by which we lose part of who we are, and in that relinquishing, we discover another layer to the proverbial onion that is our lives. And with that, another opportunity.
Thanks for hanging out with me, Good and Gracious God, whether I acknowledge you or not. In those discerning moments, I pray for wisdom to better see who I am, and with that, to understand what compels me and what constrains me. I feel as if healthy self-reflection will only bring a stronger and more life-giving relationship with you. Amen.