06/23/2020
Dear Family and Friends,
Life sure hasn't slowed down since our last post, though so much has changed. We've been through a worldwide shutdown, so that sure changed things!!
My naïve world was given a shock when I saw all the evil and corruption and selfish gain all over the news and heard (and still hear about it) at work. It is easy to give into the seeming hopelessness of it when I don't check myself with truth. I have never felt so HEAVY and burdened until this year, and I even took care of my sisters when I was young. That was different, I suppose. God says, "cast all your cares on me for I care for you." I am learning to focus on what I can do and leave the rest to God in prayer.
I tend to be a little naïve at times, thinking that my safe little world will continue as it is. Also thinking that the world is mostly safe around me, that people aren't too bad, and that most people are fairly sane. Now that I write that, I realize how unbiblical my view is... The bible says that all people are sinners and have no good in them apart from God. Quick reality check!
Naivety can be a good thing, I believe, because I give people the benefit of the doubt. For example, someone is driving too fast, maybe their wife is in labor. Or, someone is rude when they take my order, maybe there's stress at home or they lost a loved one. I don't know.
My naive world was given a shock when I saw all the evil and corruption and selfish gain all over the news and heard (and still hear about it) at work. It is easy to give into the seeming hopelessness of it when I don't check myself with truth. I have never felt so heavy and burdened until this year, and I even took care of my sisters when I was young. That was different, I suppose. I know that God says, "cast all your cares on me for I care for you." I am learning to focus on what I can do and leave the rest to God in prayer.
Todd isn't naïve, he is a realist. He doesn't paint the world in lavender and pink for me, but he also doesn't dump all the bad news that he reads on me. He balances me, when my hopes in people and life seem dashed, by reminding me of truth. That has been a lot of what these last few months have been. I hear something in the news or struggle with family issues, and Todd reminds me of truth and why my joy can't be found in earthly things. God never intended us to be satisfied here, otherwise we wouldn't look for anything more, anything higher.
One thing that has been difficult this year is my work. I am still working at Centreville Schools packing meals. I truly enjoy working-there's something satisfying about a hard day's work done well, but there have been many situations that test my patience and make me check my heart. I am learning that there is definitely a time to speak up and a time to be silent. Silence is becoming a friend of mine while everyone around complains and the news gets worse and work is unpredictable. I cannot change my situation by complaining! My hope IS NOT in how bright the future here on earth looks or in my understanding of it because, if it was, I would have given up. Not on life, but on trying to work hard or even working at all. I do not ever want to be a quitter, and I believe that can be a testimony to others, sticking it through in the tough times.
I pray that God uses me at work to be a blessing and a witness.
Todd is working as a construction worker remodeling a home. His work didn't change at all because he only works with one other guy. He has been learning so many valuable skills that will come in handy if we ever do go to a mission's field. The skills will come in handy even if we don't, I suppose. This seems to be the job he has been most satisfied doing out of all the jobs he's had. I love to hear about the projects they have done when he gets home.
Another new thing is that we have ducks! They are called Khaki Campbells, supposed to be the best ducks for laying a lot of eggs so we got seven of them. We also planted a little garden out back too. We are slowly working towards self sustainability, hopefully.
It has been a year here in Michigan as of June 16th. I didn't expect to stay at this house for this long, and certainly didn't expect it to be our long term home. Todd and I have loved being close to my family. I have had so much time with my sisters that I truly could only wish for in North Carolina. I have gotten close to my dad and we have made so many good friends at church. I know we will miss it immensely if we move, but God always provides what we need. Only God knows what is next to come, so, for now, we are making this home: sewing curtains, planting flowers and gardens, making good friends with our neighbors.
We will see what God has next for us!
Until next post, God bless!