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03/26/2026

I saw the Grand Canyon for the first time when I was about nine, and I remember thinking it didn’t even look real — like someone had painted it and just dropped it into the earth.

I went back, and I’m happy to report… it still looks like that.

But this time, it hit different.

Because somewhere between being a kid and becoming a woman who has wrestled with faith, questions, and the weight of real life… I found this strange, steady comfort standing there. Like — the world can feel chaotic, my faith can feel stretched thin some days, but then I’m looking at something that massive, that intentional, that intricate… and I’m reminded:

God is not small.

If He can carve something like that — something that leaves you speechless — and still think to give us simple joys like charcoal fires, burgers, and melted chocolate dripping off a graham cracker (not pictured, but man were they tasty)… then He’s not intimidated by my questions. He’s not overwhelmed by my “what ifs.”

He’s big enough for all of it.

03/18/2026

The more I study the Bible, the more I see how theology has been used to hurt people. That is not the heart of God. When we started XII Church, our goal was to meet a generation of young people where they were—relevant, authentic, and real. But as I studied Scripture and pursued my theology degree, I grew disenchanted with church as we know it. I noticed that when people asked hard questions, doubted, or pushed back, they were often excluded, ignored, or mocked.

God isn’t afraid of questions—so why are we?

XII Church has been laid to rest, and a new community is emerging. A community where questions are welcome, faith is explored without shame or judgment, and the process of seeking truth is honored. I don’t have all the answers, and I won’t pretend that I do—but I will walk alongside you as we discover them together.

Welcome to DCNSTRCTD.

03/18/2026

Deconstruction is what happens when the version of God you were handed no longer aligns with the truth your soul is experiencing. It’s the intentional dismantling of inherited beliefs—questioning what you were taught, challenging what doesn’t hold, and separating God from the systems that misrepresented Him. It’s not rebellion for the sake of rebellion… it’s a refusal to keep pretending.

Time for an undoing.

02/17/2026

We stand with the survivors and lift our voices on their behalf, as Scripture commands: “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves” (Proverbs 31:8–9). We believe you. We honor your courage. We recognize the cost of telling the truth when powerful systems try to silence it, yet God reminds us that “nothing is hidden that will not be made known” (Luke 8:17).

We affirm that every person involved—abusers, traffickers, buyers, enablers, and protectors—must be brought into the light, for “the Lord loves justice” (Psalm 37:28), and “He will not acquit the guilty” (Nahum 1:3). No wealth, status, or influence places anyone above the law, for “God shows no partiality” (Acts 10:34) and “justice must not be perverted” (Deuteronomy 16:19).

We urge the public to seek truth, not rumors, remembering that “the truth will set you free” (John 8:32). We encourage everyone to consult the official records from the United States Department of Justice and to hold leaders accountable, for “righteousness exalts a nation” (Proverbs 14:34).

As a society, we are measured by how we protect the vulnerable. God calls us to “defend the oppressed, seek justice, and rescue the weak” (Isaiah 1:17; Psalm 82:3–4).

So we choose survivors.
We choose truth.
We choose justice.
And we commit, by God’s grace, to walk humbly and do what is right—always (Micah 6:8).

12/26/2025

It’s amazing what you’ll notice when you actually pause and look out the window. But seeing what you’re passing by requires effort. It requires intention.

That’s why Scripture tells us to set our minds on the things of God (Colossians 3:2). To set something isn’t passive. It’s a deliberate choice. It means deciding—on purpose—to pay attention to what God is doing, to who He is, and to where He’s moving.

It doesn’t just happen on accident.

If you’re not intentional about setting your mind, life will rush past you. God will be working all around you, and you’ll miss it—not because He isn’t present, but because you aren’t paying attention. It’s like driving down a street filled with incredible art, beauty, and meaning, and never noticing any of it because your eyes are fixed straight ahead, on autopilot.

What you set your mind on shapes what you see.
What you fail to set your mind on, you will inevitably overlook.

And if we want to see God at work—really see Him—we have to slow down, lift our eyes, and choose to look.

07/02/2025

NEW SERIES STARTING: LOVE LETTER FROM GOD

What if the Gospel of John wasn’t just a book—but a handwritten love letter from God to you? Not rules. Not religion. But a raw, intimate, eternal declaration of love—spoken in flesh through Jesus.

Join us as we open the most beautiful love letter ever written and discover just how deeply, personally, and intentionally we are loved.

God’s Love Letter to You | Week 1 of “Love Letter” Series | Gospel of John SermonIs the Gospel of John more than just scripture? What if it’s a handwritten l...

06/30/2025

Throughout history, love letters have captured hearts—Napoleon’s passionate words to Josephine, Johnny Cash’s devotion to June, Beethoven’s immortal beloved.

But the greatest love letter ever written? The Gospel of John.

It’s been a long time coming, but this week we are FINALLY kicking off Love Letter From God.

06/24/2025

Some of y’all are out here in the comments section like the Sons of Thunder and Peter with his sword—ready to call down fire or chop ears off… all in Jesus’ name. 😅⚔️👂

But let’s be real: Jesus didn’t clap back. He healed the man Peter wounded. He corrected with truth and love. He didn’t need all caps or sarcasm to make a point.

Colossians 4:6 says, “Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt…”
Not, “Let your replies be savage and self-righteous.”

We can disagree without dishonor. We can correct without cruelty.
Because at the end of the day, we don’t just represent our opinion—we represent Christ.

So before you post that hot take, pause and ask:
Is it true?
Is it kind?
Is it necessary?

05/31/2025

I’m a church kid. I grew up going three to five times a week — Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, choir rehearsal, youth group — you name it, I was there. The church raised me.

But in my 20s, my life took a hard left turn. I didn’t just walk away from faith — I ran. Not from God, but from the version of Him people handed me. From the God I was taught to fear. From the conditional love that was labeled “Christlike” but felt like control.

When I found my way back to faith in my mid-30s, I had to unlearn a lot. Toxic theology. Patriarchy. Colonialism. All things I had been taught in the name of Jesus. And I’m still undoing some of it. Healing isn’t instant — it’s layered. It's slow and sacred.

Over time, I’ve come to know Jesus for myself. And what I see in Him is not what I see reflected in much of the American church today. Jesus is a voice for the marginalized. He meets people at the margins. He flips tables. He feeds people. He weeps. He’s radically invested in humanity.

So let me be clear — when I say “church,” I’m not talking about the bride of Christ. I’m talking about the American religious machine — the large, organized, politically-entrenched institutions masquerading as the body of Christ while wearing a cloak of self-righteousness.

I’m not talking about the everyday people I know who quietly live out the love of Jesus — those who serve, who give, who show up with compassion. I’m talking about those who say they love Jesus and claim America is a “Christian nation,” then vote for policies that rip food from children's mouths.

You don’t get to say this is a Christian nation while upholding systems that contradict the teachings of Christ.

I’m sharing this because I want to be honest. If you follow XII and you’ve noticed the silence — this is why. I’m tired. Tired of church culture. Tired of the white church narrative. Tired of being part of a system that says it’s here to heal but ends up hurting.

God hasn’t released me from the call. I’m still here. But He and I are in deep conversation about what it means to move forward in a way that actually reflects Him — His love, His justice, His heart for humanity.

03/17/2025

Empathy is not a sin…