04/12/2026
Where were you when I so desperately needed you? When I needed to share my thoughts, pain, hurt and needed that shoulder to lean or cry on?
I looked for you, but you were no where to be found or heard from. I called, it went to voicemail, I texted only to get no response. When I achieved goals in life that appeared to be out of my reach, needless to say, not only were you not there, but there was no congratulations or recognition or encouraging words from you.
I stood, gave, sacrificed and allowed you to be first no matter how much I felt like giving up and walking away from everything. Where was care, concern, compassion, respect and kindness?
Where was I when you needed me? A phone call away and always available. Simply put, where did the genuine love go, was it real or temporary? I searched over the years trying to rekindle memories of what appeared to be love, but I couldn’t find it because deceptive love was so prevalent. You choose outside beauty, rather than exploring the heart. Behind the heart, you discover there are serious problems that never surfaced before you you became unequally yoked with pretense love.
Then I realized that, somehow or another, it wasn’t love lost, but the love was put to the test.
Many times, I started to give up, but love would never allow me to. Several times I would have turned my back, but love said, don’t do it. Other times, my heart said, why do you continue to sacrifice for others who don’t deserve it? And I heard, love whispering in my ears, because of the heart I have given you.
This is why you can’t. Love was never meant to be CONDITIONAL. And those whose love towards you is conditional is NOT love, it’s tolerance to gain whatever is necessary at the moment.
Where did love go and how can I find it? Herein, God is saying, you left your first love for superficial love. His love is UNCONDITIONAL. It the message, God is saying, when mother, father, sister, brother, children, grandmother, grandfather, grandchildren and friends walk away, let you down, never celebrate your accomplishments, are unwilling to give and sacrifice for you as you have done, I am He who will pour out my love on you and celebrate you through spiritual and professional exhalation, that man my know that, you are loved by Me and I have NEVER forgotten your name, pain or sacrifices.
Just something placed on my heart. Hopefully encouraging, empowering, enlightening and inspiring to someone whose heart feels overwhelming with hurt, pain and despair.
