12/06/2025
This is my new bible named “the Clear Quran series “ English only series. Another vibe read. Thank you Lord for finding me these materials that keep my going. I was never a strong reader but here lately anything that has the bible in it I will ready. The power of word keeps me going. Even when I do t feel like it I still pray on my knees at least 3 times a day just praising him and being thankful for all of my family. It’s exhausting worrying about who’s do in what but that wears me down so I pray and 9 times out 10 & my answer is in front of my face. God has humor to so I laugh on things that I are I my face and still pray and say “thank you lord” sometimes we don’t take little for granted. Just think there are people with no homes, no families, some of them just have the clothes on there back. Point plank of f you ever watched “Bruce Almighty “ u might look different in a light. Be kind always and spread the world. We are ALL people struggling and do doin our best to give what we can. U never know a strangers story until you approach them even just to say hello. They just surprises me how people don’t wave and stuff the way they used to people are out for themselves and I understand that but you know life still needs to go on and we still need to smile and know that you know God‘s got us. We’re just we’re struggling right now but we can all make it together. Just be kind and read your Bibles. I’ve read six of them all different kinds Jewish you know just all different Bibles. I’ve heard them all and they also have the same message as that Jesus is coming he’s coming soon. He’s actually here. He’s here in human form so that’s why we should need To look at other people not because of their clothes of their shoes or their money or their car. we just need to look out for each other. That’s all that matters if you see someone struggling with a sign sure give them a couple dollars or whatever but just know that it’s going towards the Heaven for the that’s what Christians are supposed to do. It’s a struggle. It’s a struggle no doubt you know especially now we don’t have some of the benefits anymore, but that’s OK. God‘s got us. I pray every five minutes for everyone my friend my family my children, my husband it’s exhausting. I just need a vacation. I read my Bible every day throughout the day and it helps. Keep me going. I’ve had the same Bible for the past like 15 years 17 years I’m not sure I’ve had it since I was married the first time which I’m glad that we have a good relationship with his wife and their children and everything like that. I really am happy for him and I’m happy too with my husband . Maybe it was just meant to be. It’s just I have a time where it’s like God are you mad at me for getting a divorce? I never wanna go through that again even though I do love my children’s father and his new wife Aimee and Mr Strutz stuff. I love all of them because everybody’s doing good and as long as we work together, it all works out . We are dysfunctional family and we love it. At least I think I do. You know it’s funny how the older you get the wiser you get I think I’ve always been pretty smart but things that I’ve went through has definitely learned me a lot. The most important thing is, I’ve brought my faith with me everywhere I went. And people have looked out for me, thank the Lord Lord, I pray that you just continue to keep rich and the people that need you I do I try to do my part the best I can getting people to go to church getting people didn’t know the word getting people to testimony get them just to keep going life is not over. You know I was thinking about my friend Curtis and he lost his wife and I can only imagine what that would feel like yeah if she was my best friend and then I miss her every day she taught me so many things about depression and anxiety, and how to keep my hands moving because the cramp in the middle of the day.  children are the future. Keep them and hold them into young men and young women. We will all be bosses. We are all smart people. We just have to use the capacity in our brain to know what’s right and what’s wrong and how to keep going. You know my daughter a long time ago put sticky notes all in my car seeing how much she loves me and how much I have to keep going and how much I’m strong. I have this sticky notes all around my room to keep me to keep going to not think about anything else but to think about my kids and that’s all I think about is my kids every single day every minute it may not seem like it but it’s just it’s hard. It’s hard when they’re busy with all their sports and it’s like the only time I get to see him as if we go out to dinner, but I feel like that’s not enough. haley‘s at JMU and I hope she’s doing well if she had to cut me out to focus on school then that’s fine. I still love her and no matter what what she you know does I wanted to know that she’s with me every day just the same. It was my boys. I think I’m worried about them and I think about you know Kim and Brandon and Craig and Aimee. You know if I wouldn’t have a support system with them with them. I don’t know what I would be they they keep me straight and they keep me you know being able to go to places and hey, you need to be here at this time you cause I know my situation I go to sleep and I forgot everything. I don’t know exactly what it’s called but it’s it’s simple like I can have a good normal day and then go to bed and completely forgot everything the day before I mean, it’s it’s serious. That’s the reason why I see a nurse psychologist. I see you a shrink I see because we don’t know what’s going on. What happens when I go to sleep . And when I sleep, I don’t even I don’t even dream anything I’m just like dead to the world ❤️💍🏡💋HUSBAND 💋🏡💍❤️ says that you know I could sleep through a fire alarm and that’s not good anyway I just want to give a shout out to my children and Kim and Brandon and Aimee and Craig for help me along the way. I don’t want to make this about me. I just want my children to know that I struggle every day just to keep my head screwed on because I’m just frantic not really frantic but just need to get my story out if I can get my story out and be completely blunt I would cause a lot of of us you know either video or we’re all just trying to do our best from our feelings from the past have gotten over my past it took me a long time to do it, but I’ve gotten over it. Everything that’s happened to me has been either taking advantage of or didn’t know what to do. Me and my husband I went through a lot and that’s what I think has made us stronger as a team. What grade is we’re getting ready to start the restaurant here in the next few weeks so I’m gonna be the front hostess I believe so, but it’s gonna be in Hampton out by that I think it’s by the Air Force anyway that’s not for now. I just had to get that off my chest Haley Daniel Nolan mom loves you. I’m very proud of you. Hope we get to see each other soon. Love always mom 
