04/03/2026
Friday in Holy Week
Jesus feels abandoned
Mark 15:33-35
When it was noon, darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon. At three o'clock Jesus cried out with a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?" which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" When some of the bystanders heard it, they said, "Listen, he is calling for Elijah."
Reflect
Jesus quoted the first lines of Psalm 22 at a time when he felt most abandoned by God. Feelings of abandonment can profoundly shape us as when infants fear their mothers have left them. It can take years of therapy and adjustment to learn to trust. As we grow older, we might feel abandoned by friends or those whom we love deeply. And of course we know that the elderly can sometimes feel abandoned, and they are correct. However, some of Jesus' friends and family were near. Still, he felt abandoned spiritually--that God had forsaken him. This can feel just as disconcerting as any abandonment. Sometimes it will cause once faithful believers to begin the process of religious deconstruction, which can lead to a full spectrum of faith ranging from atheism, agnosticism, to nomadic wanderings, to fundamentalism. Needless to say, it can be a painful, confusing, and frightening process, and just as with those who misunderstood Jesus, those around someone religiously deconstructing can often misunderstand what is happening. In the end, however, the process of deconstruction that began with a sense of abandonment can lead to a more certain foundation of individual being.
Pray
I am not alone despite my feelings of abandonment.