04/26/2022
This is a meditation for those who are looking at massive changes (especially finals and graduation) in the coming weeks. If you're feeling overwhelmed, know that it is because you are starting something new, and God is walking with you.
"I keep finding myself back at the beginning, which, oddly enough, is always new...I am still working my way out of many strange and distinct patterns, still unlearning several survival methods that try with all their might to hold me back...Each time I feel the old tightness, the worry, the existential unease, I know that something that I insist on doing is just not working. These days, I take any fatigue and depression t mean that I've traveled the same road one too many times. When I catch myself in some ideation or fantasy about giving up, or some desperate feeling of loneliness, I wonder what lie about myself I am making up. I wonder what I am forgetting.
There are, and there will be even more, days when we think we have it figured out. Days when we don't remember what was so hard about it all. Days when we are sure that it will be perfectly smooth sailing from here on in. And then, just like that, it falls apart again. Do I want to use the word fail? Fine. Fail is just another four-letter word that we vilify. I intend to fail as gorgeous foundation, fail as wind behind me, fail as the growing wild, fail as glowing ember, as starting point, as flickering lighthouse. Sometimes you think it's all over, when in fact you are standing at the edge of a new age. Old practices and patterns fall away because they must. They leave when it is time, and it is always Time."
- Yrsa Daley-Ward
The How
[Image description: A light blue photo with the faint image of a large rock coming up from the bottom. There is a little sea gull sitting on top. These words sit on the sky area - "Sometimes you think it's all over, when in fact you are standing at the edge of a new age. - Yrsa Daley-Ward"]