Fresh Anointing Ministries

12/24/2021

Why I Grieve My Special Needs Child at Christmas

I’m embarrassed to admit that, you know.
I am.
I love my special person in a way that I never knew possible, but still, I grieve.
Have you ever loved someone that you didn’t know?
I have.
He’s beautiful, wonderful, and amazing.
He’s all those things and I work tirelessly to see that the world sees him as I do.
Perfectly perfect in the very way he has been created, a circle in a world of squares.
The trouble is, sometimes I forget.
Though I long for acceptance, I struggle to accept.
Though I long for inclusion, I struggle to include.
Though I long for the flinging of expectations, I struggle to relinquish.
Never more than at Christmas.
Perhaps it’s the traditions that highlight the differences of my youngest child.
Perhaps it’s me, stressed and rushed, prepping and primping.
Perhaps it’s him, the little boy who thrives on the expected and a daily schedule.
Maybe it’s just everything.
Maybe it’s the not knowing.
I want to know what he wants for Christmas.
I want us to sit by the fire and watch the Grinch.
I want us to talk about Santa and leaving him cookies and carrots for the reindeer.
I want us to sit at the Christmas Eve service and not worry about leaving in the middle.
I want him to be giddy with the thought of gifts that will be left just for him.
My biggest heartache is the not knowing.
I want to know this precious child better and I don’t.
And, that has to be okay because it is our real.
This year will be the one of casting aside the what if’s and should have been’s and embracing the what is.
I won’t pretend that grief doesn’t jab my heart, but I won’t let it rule the day.
I’ll shed a tear or two, grab my coat and when he asks to swing, we shall walk to the playground and I will notice his joy.
Maybe I do know him, after all.

04/07/2021

Proverbs 3:5-6
New International Version
5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

03/05/2021

04/10/2020

So often as a Christian I find myself saying to myself, be strong, show your hope in Christ, be a light to others.... but unfortunately everyday is not always bright and shiny, sometimes I feel broken and weak, even shattered. I’m not posting this for a pity party, this isn’t about me needing anything, but to share. This is only so people realize these feelings are not a sin. I’m posting this for those that need to realize, we are allowed to have these days also. That doesn’t make you less of a Christian, it makes you human.
He is strong in our weakness, He will pull us through, He will will carry us.
I believe this and I know this,
but it doesn’t stop the sadness from loss sometimes, or the disappointment on how things may be going.
Remember you are ok to have feelings, even the weaker more vulnerable ones, It doesn’t mean you don’t trust God, it doesn’t mean you are lacking as a Christian. Give it to God, have a good cry, let Him hear your heart, let Him restore your peace and rest In him.
This to, God has, He will never leave us or forsake us. He loves us.
In His hands.

02/02/2020

When all Hope seems gone and you’re finally all out of strength, maybe,
it’s time to be still! Stop getting in your own way.
The Lord said, He will be you help you in Time of need; The thing you need to do is be willing to actually let Him have it, ALL OF IT, when you hold on to it, your saying it’s ok God, I have got this.
However, when you Turn it over to the Lord, He will fight for you!!!!!!
He only wants the best for you.
PRAYER WORKS - TRUST & BELIEVE
A LITTLE FAITH GOES A LONG WAY.
Matthew 17:20
Jesus said, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you”.

12/29/2019

Written by Pastor Denny

05/31/2019

He is strong, when we are weak, He can and will take care of us and our circumstances. Yes, I do believe that!

05/13/2019

Always be in God’s will and timing.
His season choices are what is best for you.
Keep pressing forward, keep worshipping, keep the faith, it’s coming.... He always finish what He starts, He never leaves or forsakes, He is your provider.

04/21/2019