04/28/2026
From my Journey 12/2025
Lockstep with you my Heavenly Father, not looking to the left or to the right, lockstep with you, not ahead of you, nor lagging behind, but lock step with you. I am in a battle, a battle for the lives of those around me, little ones who do not know the sacrifice of my obedience…nor the cost of their disobedience. It is for these little ones that I must lay down my life …This is in many ways my Gethsemane, the place where I surrender all of myself to the mockers, those who criticize, abandon and despise me… just as Jesus “for the joy set before Him endured the cross” I must endure… Heb. 12:2
Being the leader is not a position I would have chosen, I have always believed that I would rather be the soldier than the General, yet it seems God is not playing to what I think my strengths are, but to the places that causes me to humble myself before Him (and others) the place where I cry out for help and fall on my knees, the place where I am abandoned by those who were supposed to be my friends. The place where I humble myself and acknowledge that I cannot do this in my own strength. And still, I am the leader, handpicked by my Father, I must hear and obey the Word of my Commander...I must obey Quickly! My failure to hear His instruction could cause major delays, or worse many casualties. Not since I lost Nick, have I felt so inadequate to navigate the turbulent waters surrounding me, attack on every side, emotionally, physically and financially how do I guard and protect the very ones who are opposing me? (welcome to Gods world) Even those who would champion me (Peter cutting off the ear of the soldier) My friends Ceci and Dana, they are those kinds of friends. Paul said “I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound… “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me…” Lock step with you my Father, lock step with you, I will not stumble or fall, Lock step all the way, I must remember what looked like a Great Victory for Satan, the betrayal, the beating, the crucifixion and the death of Christ was Satan’s greatest defeat…often what looks like our greatest loss is our greatest gain.
Love is an act (action) “for God so loved the world…He gave”