10/06/2023
September 2023 newsletter
Hello Friends. It is a privilege to be able to address you once again. I am presently in Costa Rica but hope to return to the U.S. in about a week. During one of my trips into the jungle, I had the unfortunate circumstance of acquiring an unwelcome resident in my gut. We normally take great care to avoid such circumstances, but sometimes it is simply unavoidable. The resultant disagreement between the previous long-standing residents and the newcomer was an incongruity in the extreme. So much so, I found it ill-advised to venture very far or very distant from the commodities of the house. However, due to the amount of time I found myself sitting in thoughtful contemplation, I was able to give some considerable reflection as to the content of this letter. I pray it becomes apparent.
It has now been 30 years since we were granted nonprofit status from the federal government. My first trip to Costa Rica was in 1989. Invited by a friend to go for a week and help with a project in which he was engaged. Similar, I thought, to the previous year when the same friend invited me to help with a project in Jamaica. The similarities ceased when I boarded the plane to return to the U.S. I was drawn back to Cost Rica time and time again, inexplicably, until in early 1991 God showed me that my calling was to the jungle of Talamanca and its people.
In 1993, you (the donor) became involved. It was a turning point of tremendous importance. One that I completely failed to realize at the time. The truth is, I did not have the spiritual capacity at the time to realize or understand it. Before your involvement, God had confronted me one evening unexpectedly and delt with me in no uncertain terms about my relationship with Him. His only direction to me, “Go home.” Get up, leave the job I love, that I had studied hard for 3 years to get and all the security it held and go home with no further instruction. The voice of God is compelling and without hesitation, the next day I resigned my job and prepared to go home.
My first couple of years of coming to Costa Rica were all self-financed. I’d work several months in construction and then off to Costa Rica. Work a couple months, then off to Costa Rica. Everything was just great. I love working, so no problem there. And on top of that, I didn’t have to depend on anybody. You know, I’m a good red-blooded American, self-sufficient, pull yourself up by your bootstraps, self-made kind of man. I had plowed my way through college twice. I had done things people didn’t think I could do. So, my natural attitude was, “Just point me to the problem Lord and turn me loose.” He could have pointed me to the problem very easily if He had just dropped a mirror in front of me. I had not yet totally arrived at the understanding there is nothing God needs me to do and what He required of me was simply nothing more than obedience.
God began to open my eyes to His calling for me. The more my eyes opened, the more my ignorance was revealed. Maybe some help and guidance would be in order. I wrote every pastor I had supposedly been shepherded by from the age of 15. Not even one offered any guidance, in total my supplication was ignored. God laid before me the question, “Are you going to trust me or men?” As I mentioned, this is where you entered the story. With the nonprofit established, I concentrated on ministry and left the finances to God. In the early years we would do fund raisers in an attempt to encourage donors, they proved minimally successful at best. Over the years the donor list would grow and contract, the names on the list always changing. God was teaching me to trust Him. Walk towards the thing that is sat before you. You don’t have to know why or how. In fact, you can’t know why or how. That’s the point. That’s what is required for faith and trust to grow. Faith is the evidence of things NOT seen.
For thirty years, every month has been the same. What comes in each month by donation is spent each month on previous commitments, current ministry or new outreach. There is no such thing as a rainy-day fund. Besides, in ministry, every day is a rainy day for someone in need of help or comfort. So that you might have some context as to the depth of our active donor list, the following is the number of donors per month from the past year:
September ’22……………………13 individuals…………………0 churches
October ’22……………………….7 individuals………………….1 churches
November ’22…………………….11 individuals…………………1 church
December ’22…………………….12 individuals…………………0 churches
January ’23……………………….10 individuals…………………1 church
February ’23………………………9 individuals………………….0 churches
March ’23………………………...11 individuals…………………0 churches
April ’23…………………………..8 individuals………………….0 churches
May ’23…………………………..12 individuals…………………2 churches
June ’23……………………………7 individuals…………………0 churches
July ’23……………………………10 individuals………………...0 churches
August ’23…………………..……12 individuals…………………0 churches
It is by no means a large group of people from which to draw resources. But I believe asking the seemingly impossible is God’s favorite thing. It is truly eye-opening when one sees what God will do in response to obedience.
I hope to be clear in what I am trying to communicate. Admittedly, I have at times been accused of being somewhat obtuse in my reasoning, an occurrence which I am trying to avoid. I am most grateful for your participation in this ministry. Your support of this ministry has been multiplied into aid and comfort and ministry to multitudes of people. The sum total of which only God is aware. But here is what I’ve discovered. God did not need me in Talamanca. The people of Talamanca did not need me to come here. The ministries that were already present and those that came after my arrival did not need me to come to Talamanca. The primary beneficiary of my being in Talamanca is me. Why might you ask? Because it was an act of surrender and obedience in the face of impossibilities and illogic. Follow along with me please.
At the age of ten I recognized my propensity for sin. I came to understand such as a 10-year-old can, that Jesus had come to earth and died to pay for my sin. I embraced that fact and as the years past, I slowly accumulated knowledge as to what that meant. What I failed to grasp was that I am a slave. In our culture, that word carries nothing with it but negative connotations. Slavery is very bad. Slave masters are worse. Then, one day I was reading Paul. He said that we, who trust in Christ, were slaves. That we had been bought with a price. Ok, if I was bought, from whom was I bought. Well, I had belonged to Satan because of the power of sin. Christ paid the price of that sin through his death and set me free from Satan’s chain that bound me. But Christ bought me. I now belonged to Him. He is now my master and Lord. I became in essence chained to Christ. I was set free from Satan, not set free to my own devices. I was now bound to Christ. That is where freedom truly exists. But we don’t always recognize that at first.
When my boys were little. We often flew back and forth between the U.S. and Costa Rica. Every time we went through an airport, I had a little harness and leash I would put on each one of them. I’m sure some people would think I was cruel to have them trussed up like little dogs. But I knew the great anguish we would both be feeling if they got separated from me, even for a short while. It was for their good pleasure though they didn’t know it at the time.
Whom the Lord sets free is free indeed. What wonderful words. Some take that to mean we are free to decide our own way. To reason out what is best for us. They take it to mean we are free to choose our own way to serve our Lord. They will decide what they’ll give, where they’ll go, what they’ll do, how much they’ll risk and how much discomfort they’ll endure. I suppose that way of thinking is fine if you believe that God doesn’t really care what you do, as long as you do something. Erroneous thinking in my opinion. In fact, the night God confronted me in Virginia Beach, His question to me was, “Why have you never asked Me what I want you to do?” When Paul lay blind on Strait Street in Damascus, God sent Ananias to restore his sight and to tell him what great things he was to suffer for the cause of Christ. God has a plan for each of His children.
The last thirty years have been difficult no doubt. But what I’ve wanted to demonstrate is that it is difficulty with purpose. So that by the chain that tethers one to Christ (The Son who purchased us), one might be pulled closer and closer into a relationship with Him. Bonds of relationship aren’t strengthened in ease and comfort. Bonds of relationship aren’t strengthened by having your will bent through circumstance. A slave can resist the chain and fight against it. A slave can accept the purchase in fact but deny it in principle. A slave can try to go his own way. But the one thing, the only thing that brings true freedom to a slave is pure obedience to his master. Do you want to be bound in relationship with Christ as a brother? Do you want to know freedom from fear and worry? Do you want to smile when surrounded by and assailed by injustice? Then the prescription is obedience. It is all God ask of us. Be obedient. But obedience is a choice. Many people won’t ask God what He desires because they don’t want to have to make that choice. But there is no greater joy in this world than asking, listening then obeying. Regardless of how logical or seemingly ridiculous, easy or seemingly impossible, obvious or far-fetched the command. God’s intent is to grow your trust and faith in Him. To make you fit for the Kingdom.
Our work of constantly endeavoring to be a good Samaritan to whom ever God brings to our path continues. And it continues with joy and enthusiasm. Thank you for your most welcome support.
May God’s richest blessings ever be upon you.