09/02/2026
When my daughter arrived, a friend asked me if I thought my heart could love someone or something that quickly and completely. I had to chuckle a little, simply because it has pleasantly shocked me how much I have loved both my children the instant I held them. Because they are both adopted, I haven't had the 9 months of gestation to bond with them, to imagine them, to speak or read or sing to them. With both kids, we received phone calls that we had been chosen to parent. What followed suit was a blur of driving, paperwork, nerves, excitement, and a little (ok really a lot) of oh my goodness, we're going to be parents- we have no idea what we are doing!
Sometimes I think about how God must have felt when He decided to make mankind. The excitement. The anticipation. Did God have nerves? Did God go through a little bit of "what am I getting myself into"? These are fun things to hopefully get to ask God one day. But what I do know is the moment God breathed life into Adam, His heart had to have burst with joy and full-on, head over heels love. I think of how many times mankind disappointed, turned away, even rebuked God and yet He kept sending prophets to bring His people back, until finally sending the perfect lamb, Jesus, God's own son, to reunite us with God through the crucifixion. God has loved us so fully, so unconditionally, throughout the history of mankind that He has never stopped looking for a way to bring His people back to His loving arms.
Whenever Liyah grabs my finger, I smile. It's her way of communicating to me, "Mom, don't go. I need you here. I love you. I miss you. You're my safety blanket". Over the years, I've pictured reaching out and holding onto God as my anchor, but when Liyah held my finger this time, I had a new thought- this is how God also holds onto us. He reaches for us and once He has us, He is not willing to let go. His love for us is so great, His grip so tight, He is incapable of leaving, of forgetting us, of turning His back on us no matter what we might say or do. His love knows no bounds and has no bottom- it is truly unconditional and unstoppable.
My last post was about those who are struggling- in our community, in our homes, maybe it is us ourselves. For those of you who are unsure where life is going, know that the anchor holds. God is there. He is still holding you with those all-powerful arms and nothing in this world can make Him turn lose. Rest into Him. Ask Him to carry you, one step at a time, until you can carry yourself. Rest knowing He will never, ever turn you loose.
St. John's UMC- No Judgement Zone