09/12/2021
13 Years ago our lives changed in a matter of minutes. We wake up to go to school and suddenly everything developed into a parents worst nightmare. Calling an ambulance, doing CPR, waiting for the ambulance and the ride to the hospital with God's hands on the wheel along with the driver. Watching my friend, the paramedic in the back try to work miracles to save our son. Me praying out loud in the ambulance "God please don't take him". A hospital full of Dr.s and nurses fighting for his life. People standing in the ER praying. Our parents, son and daughter on the way trying to get there quickly. Finally, Glen and I making the decision for him to be a donor because we felt that is what he would have wanted. The night before---normal, fun, full of love-- just another day in our family. The next morning---our worst nightmare. A brain aneurysm had taken our sweet Mackintyre. Our boy so full of life with so many dreams. Dreams that would make the world a better place. It had taken all the love he had to spread to everyone he met. It took a little brother, a grandson, a great grandson, uncle, nephew, cousin, friend, student and our son. Our lives forever changed. Anniversaries like this we never expected to deal with. A life that we could now only guess what Mackintyre would be doing and imagining all the things we have missed out on. An emptiness that never goes away. Only faith and a strong support system can carry you on this journey. A journey you would wish on no one. It is a fine line between feeling angry and cheated and knowing that he is in a better place not having to deal with the worlds troubles. You remind yourself that this is only temporary because God was a huge part of his life. You life goal has changed. The only goal is to make sure you are reunited when your days are finished to a permanent everlasting life with God, Mackintyre and your other loved ones. This is our journey. Every day and every night remembering this one day in history. The day your life would never, ever be the same. Some days you take on his fire and are determined to change the world too. Some days you feel like your final days can't come too soon. A rollercoaster always. As we grieve today, we remember the little boy with a big dream. A church he was determined to build and all the steps that led up to that. Grandparents and volunteers that made that dream come true. We will never know how his little church has impacted so many across the world but we do know some of that impact. Even 1 person impacted is good. Though we have to live with a life unfinished, we are proud and celebrate our son, his dreams and his kindness to others in the short time we had him. Next time, we will never have to let go. Remember to hug your children, raise them in the spirit of God and tell them you love them often. Life can change in a matter of seconds. Thank you to all of you who continue to hold us together year after year. We have made this journey with your love continually lifting us and keeping Mackintyres memory alive.