Notes On A Page

05/06/2026

Shut the door
I’m going to be honest. I’ve always looked at Lot as less than, as corrupt, as a failure. He chose his home selfishly; he set up residence with the wicked and he became so like them that he offered up the innocent trying to appease a violent mob. He’s a biblical figure that I never quiet understood why Abraham bothered to intercede for. Until today.

While I saw less than, God saw righteous.
Not just created and loved but righteous.

Set apart, morally right, justifiable, virtuous – righteous. If that sits just a little uncomfortable for you, well you’re in good company, but wait there’s more.

2 Peter 2: 7-8 So there it was in black and white, when God looks at Lot he saw a Christian man, who set up permanent residence in an evil place. He saw a man alone, trying and failing to fight off the darkness that surrounded him. He saw a man trying to reason with the sickness of evil and being overcome by it. A man in need of rescue, not just from what threatened on the outside but from what was collapsing from within.

Does that resonate with anyone else?

Where I was once looking down on Lot, I’m suddenly looking in a mirror and he’s looking back at me. A woman different than the world around her, but still solidly living in it. One who tries to live as Godly but sometimes looks more like the world she lives in than the one she’s supposed to represent. A woman who occasionally finds herself blocking the door, reasoning with the vileness on the other side. When what she really needs is God to pull her back inside and shut the door.

Sometimes we need a rescue. Sometimes we sit down in a situation we think we can handle and the situation turns us, instead of us turning it. In those moments we need be brave enough to take the way out. Shut the door. Hit your knees. Regroup.

It's time to start asking ourselves...
Do I look like the world I live in?
Am I changing it, or is it changing me?
Am I negotiating with someone who can’t even hear me?
Is it time to be rescued?

Genesis 19: 1-10
2 Peter 2: 6-9
Psalms 34: 6-7

04/13/2026

Contend
Job is a man suffering. He has lived a Godly life. Not perfect. Not innocent. Not holy. But Godly. And yet, in every way imaginable, he suffers.
Job doesn’t simply ask “why”, he shouts it. Over and over again he pleads his case with man and with God, desperately trying to understand. To find relief or purpose or just any kind of reasonable response. And then he is asked the question, the one that stopped my reading in its tracks:
Why do you contend with God, when He (in all his authority) does not answer to you?
Why fight it when you can not change it?
God is God and you are not. Why can’t you just accept this is how it is now?
It’s a truth. God is El Shaddai, Almighty, he does not answer to Job nor anyone else. God’s will is supreme. Elihu did not in any way lie and yet his implication is still all kinds of wrong.
The word used is contend. “Why do you contend with Him”. It means to dispute, argue, plead, grapple (wrestle). Which brings to mind when Jacob grabbed ahold of God and refused to let go. Through the night and into the day he wrestled and fought, defying the demand to stop. Jacob held on. He persevered. And was praised for it.
What about Moses? Whose relationship with God was so strong he did not hesitate to plead, while standing between a rebellious people and Gods wrath. While refusing to move forward without Gods presence. While asking to see what was not within his right to see.
What about Jesus? Praying in the garden all night long. I’m willing but if there is another way, if this could pass me by…
See, the truth is God does not answer to us, he does not owe us explanations. But in his time and in his way, he always answers us. And that is an important distinction.
The answer to the question “Why do you contend with Him” is this:
Why would I not?
He is God Almighty, His will is supreme, if anyone is worth wrestling with it is God. Who else has the ability to help me as He can?

Job 33:13
Gen 32:28
Exodus 32:11 / 33: 15 / 33: 18
Luke 22:42

11/30/2025

“If we are faithless,
He remains faithful”

Allow that to resonate.
If I fail, he doesn’t.
If i stumble, he is steady.
If i don’t know, he does .
Dont believe? Thats okay, he is who he is .
This doesn’t depend on me, its not resting on my shoulders.
If I am faithess, he is faithfull.

2 Timothy 2:13

11/11/2025

“My conscience is captive to the Word of God. I cannot and I will not recant anything, for to go against conscience is neither right nor safe. Here I stand, I can do no other. May God help me. Amen."
Martin Luther

09/18/2025

Todays hard truths:

1) IF it is NOT Gods will, there is absolutely nothing I can do to make it happen.

2) IF it IS Gods will, there is nowhere i can run to stop it.

3) My God is merciful and he decides.

We do not always like Gods choices, we rarely understand his reasons, being told no hurts and those moments of silence are excruciating.
We do not always know his will.
But we do know his mercy.

So momma lay your prodigal at his feet
Wife lift that husband up
Child put those fears in a box
Daughter lay that illness on the alter
Husband that load you’re carrying, set it down
Son let that stress go

Whatever burden you carry, align that request with Gods word and lean heavy on his mercy. And know that he has you, even if …

Romans 9:16
Daniel 3:18
But if not, I will serve you anyway
Isaiah 43:2
Luke 22:42

09/11/2025

M.L.K.
J.F.K.
Cassie Bernelle
Abraham Lincoln
Jesus
There are others. So many others.
Men, women, children killed for an ideal. A belief. A thought. A way of life.
This is not new.
It is not political.
It has nothing to do with race.
It’s not even about the person killed.
They were not silenced for words, they were silenced for their influence.
Make no mistake, the target is YOU.
And the purpose is to instill hate.
To encourage fear.
To incite rage.
To inflict debilitating grief.
Anything and everything that turns you from the influence they sought to share.
It’s a tool used over and over again by the one who hopes to own our soul.
And when we choose those things, even temporarily, we allow that awful horrible action to fulfill its purpose.
Recognize who the enemy is and who it is not.
Ecclesiastes 1:9
Ephesiians 6: 12
Joshua 24:15
1 Corinthians 15:58
1 john 4:11

03/15/2025

“I’ve got you”

In John 13 :36 Simon Peter has a slight panic moment, not unlike a toddler who’s mom is walking out the door, “Lord, where are you going” . Then he questions Jesus “Lord, why?”and in verse 37 he makes a vow “i will lay down my life for your sake”. He’s a desperate man, the one he loves, the one holding everything together, is leaving and Peter cannot go. So he makes a pledge he cannot keep.
Peter is going to fail.
Within hours.
Jesus knows it (and kinda scoffs about it).
But here is where the script changes. Jesus says dont worry, you know my father, how about you trust me too. I have a plan. It’s going to take a little time but I will be back. I WILL get you where you need to go.

Like Peter, we panic, we question, we fail but we can lean heavy on savior who doesn’t .

John 13:36 - 14:4

11/02/2024

Exodus 1: 8-10
"Now there arose a new king over Egypt, who did not know Joseph"

He did not know. And he did not take the time to find out.
What follows is the same thing that always does.
An influencer used his platform to influence.
He grabbed ahold of what he did not know, pointed his finger at what he did not understand and incited fear into a crowd of people who did not take the time to reason it out.
Hysteria is what happened.
Enslavement of a nation.
Slaughter of innocents.
Genocide
Because a man with an audience spoke his fear outloud and convinced the crowd that that fear could happen.

We know that God tells us repetedly in his word "Do not fear" but I'm just begining to realize how many times he tells us stand still, be still, wait, listen.

Stop rushing toward that fear just because its the trending thing to do. Stop, pray, listen and know what others do not know.

"The Lord will fight for you and you shall hold your peace"

Exodus 14:13-14
Numbers 9:8
Joshua 3:8
1 Sam 9:27
1 Sam 12:7
2 Chron 20:17
Job 37:14
Psalm 4:4

07/25/2018

07/25/2018

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