06/03/2026
Does sinning hurt your heart? It does mine bad! I live my life here on Facebook everyday and I have been chosen to teach and preach to others but you know what I fall short every single day. No matter how hard I try my flesh gets the better of me sometimes. Then why do I do the things I don’t want to do and don’t do the things I should?
This situation with Shyanne has really got to me since Friday. I wasn’t gonna talk about this on here but now I’m being led to. Shyanne didn’t make varsity or junior varsity softball after our hitting the whole team this year. Only striking out twice in almost sixty ABs. She started the year off smoking hot batting right at .700 most the first half of the season. Hit a small mid season slump then picking it back up at the end of the season. Hitting .509. She out hit the whole team. Probably all three teams at Alexandria. She loved this program and she has been dumped for no reason. Not because of her work ethics or how she has played the game for sure. Because I know how hard she works! She is a lock down first baseman and has become a great hitter and I am so proud of her. I’m not on here to down anyone at Alexandria this morning but I do want to apologize publicly to Brooklyn Barnett and her amazing little girl for the words that came out of my mouth last night at The Diamond Dugout . I will not repeat those words but I’m sure it will spread like wildfire. I know better but sometimes no matter how hard we try the flesh gets the better of us. I know better! And I was wrong and I’m sorry to anyone I hurt because of this.
My daddy heart has been hurt! When you see your daughter that has worked so hard start crying when she is hitting having to stop hitting because of the tears it makes my daddy heart very mad. I would do anything to take that pain from my kids. To be told no for no reasons other than the obvious really hurts when both of us put our full trust in this program. She would have run through a wall for this program. But life goes on and she is more determined now than ever! I’m so proud of both our children. We are overcomers and we will prevail in the end.
So I started this ministry for people to learn from my mistakes so I can’t run from this one either. I was wrong! But I do want to us my humility for the spreading of the Word of God. I fell to the SCHEMS of Satan last night. Scripture says he’s like a roaring lion ready to pounce. He seen an opportunity to get to me last night and I let him win. But why do we do the things we are not suppose to do? And not do the things we know we should? Paul says it best in………..
Romans 7
Nasb 2020
14 For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am fleshly, sold into bo***ge to sin. 15 For I do not understand what I am doing; for I am not practicing what I want to do, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 However, if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, that the Law is good. 17 But now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin that dwells in me. 18 For I know that good does not dwell in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. 19 For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. 20 But if I do the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin that dwells in me.
Verse 14 says our flesh has been sold into the bo***ge of sin. So we live in the flesh but we are told by God to walk by SPIRIT NOT BY THE FLESH. Paul continues on to say, “ for I do not understand what I am doing.” I mean is the great apostle Paul writing here. You know the one who was killing and jailing Christian’s before he met Christ Jesus. And now he is a child of God and He is still sinning. But why? Why does even Paul still sin after seeing the risen Messiah on the road to Damascus. Because our flesh has a sinful nature. It’s been sold into the bo***ge of sin since the day man fell to sin. Then Paul says why do I not “practice” what I want to do but do the very thing I hate. Which what we all should hate is sin even though we are all guilty preachers and pastors included. Yes even yours at whatever church you may attend. There’s only one exception and He is coming back very very soon! So if I do the very thing I don’t want to do I agree with the law. So we agree with the law which is sin? Yes! The law tells us what sin is! So the law is good! We should all know that good does not dwell in us. No matter who you are or how hard you try your not perfect not me or anyone besides Jesus our Lord. So if I fall to the flesh and to the law it is the sin that dwells in me? Yes,Still no excuses for none of us. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. So the willingness to do good dwells within us all if we have been baptized in the Spirit. But the doing of the good I want to do eludes me. For my Spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. That’s why we must put on the full armor of God everyday. We must cover our flesh from the fiery darts of the enemy. My armor was pierced last night and my sinful flesh cried out in pain. The hurt I felt I wanted others to feel. And I’m wrong for that! No excuses! But please remember we all fall short from time to time no matter how hard we try to cover our sinful flesh. Paul continues and says,” for the good that I want to do, I do not do it.” Again the great apostle Paul here saying this. The he says,” but I practice the very evil that I do not want to do.” We all even auk fall to the flesh. For if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I am no longer the one who is doing it, but the sin that dwells in me.
This world is an evil place. It’s a dog eat dog world. I know when I’m wrong now and it eats at me to disappoint my Father. But I am man enough to say when I’m wrong. I know I’m my old life I wouldn’t have gave a crap who I hurt! Especially now! My opinions and my voice would have been made known by everyone. Again I am sorry for my sinful ways which we all should fell sorry for that. I apologize most of all to my Father whose name I represent. I. Sorry so long but I must continue this……
Romans 7
21 I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. 22 For I joyfully agree with the law of God in the inner person, 23 but I see a different law in the parts of my body waging war against the law of my mind, and making me a prisoner of the law of sin, the law which is in my body’s parts. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin.
Paul knows evil dwells within him. Do we? Are do we think we are Mary mother of Jesus? Oh by the way, was a sinner too! Paul says,”for I joyfully agree with the law of God in my inner being. That’s where the Spirit dwells so of course our Spirit agrees with the law. The Spirit of God is the law! The Holy Spirit is the One that tells us if we are breaking the law. So Paul says he joyfully agrees with the law in the inner being. If it wasn’t for the Spirit that dwells in us then we would just go around feeding our flesh and living like savages. Wretched man that I am! My body wages war against the law of my mind. I am a prisoner to sin! We all are! Who will set us free from ring a prisoner of war? HAHA! THANKS BE TO GOD THROUGH JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD! MY MIND SERVES THE LAW OF GOD BUT MY FLESH THE LAW OF SIN! OUR FLESH IS EVIL! WE MUST BE TRANSFORMED BY THE RENEWING OF OUR MINDS (ROMANS 12:2) LIKE PAUL SAYS SERVES THE LAW OF GOD! IF WE SERVE THE LAW OF GOD IN OUR MINDS THAT MEANS WE CORRECT OUR MISTAKES. THAT IS A FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT. SIN HURTS AND SO DOES CORRECTION. ITS LIKE WHEN WE FIRST START WORKING OUT AND WE ARE REALLY SORE, BUT AS WE WORK OUT THE MUSCLES GROW STRONGER AND THE SORENESS GOES AWAY. SO ARE WE BUILDING THE MUSCLE MEMORY OF THE MIND? WE MUST SO WE CATCH OURSELVES BEFORE WE WRECK OURSELVES. BUT EVEN WHEN WE DONT JUST KNOW THANKS BE TO GOD WE HAVE BEEN SET FREE FROM THIS BODY OF DEATH.
ALL IN ALL I PRACTICE RIGHTEOUSNESS EVERY SINGLE DAY! I PRACTICE ON BUILDING THAT MUSCLE MEMORY OF THE LAW OF GOD. SO WHEN THE FIERY DARTS OF THE ENEMY START SHOOTING MY WAY I CAN HOLD UP MY SHEILD OF FAITH. I CAN WEAR MY HELMET OF SALVATION. KNOWING I AM WRONG BUT ALSO KNOWING I HAVE BEEN DELIVERED FROM THE BODY OF DEATH. AMEN!
AGAIN I APOLOGIZE FOR MY ACTIONS AND I TRULY TRULY LOVE YOU YOU ALL!
