10/26/2019
From my daughter: I recently saw a friend post a quote about grief. It said,” Grief never ends, but it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith... it’s the price of love”
I remember when the weight of today was so heavy that I couldn’t even move. I kept hearing that time eases the weight but I couldn’t imagine what that looked like. I think it’s important to remind those who carry grief that it doesn’t end, but it does change. You never forget but the weight isn’t as heavy. I’m not very good with emotions, and I felt like staying in grief was weakness, and I did loose faith for awhile after we lost Haylee. There are so many things that you go through with the loss of a child that you can’t possibly prepare for. But there is no greater love than the one between a parent and a child. And no greater appreciation for that love than when a parent loses a child.
I have a beautiful 2 year old daughter, my rainbow baby, Olivia. Although she doesn’t look a thing like me, every day I see that she was sent here by Haylee for me. She is my ride or die and I have so much comfort knowing that Haylee is in heaving watching over us.
I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be. 🎀💕