11/11/2025
Jenn says,
So before I️ came to know the creator I️ would get high take pills and drink like there was no tomorrow. I️ thought doing these things would take away all my problems and stress. Yea it did while I️ was high but once that high left the problems doubled. The pain was still there and the guilt continued to build up. These pills were given to me freely so I️ took them. Once I️ realized that 3 pills didn’t do anything it escalated to 5&6. For me that still wasn’t enough I️ wanted more. I️ would mix the pills with liquor not realizing the side effects. I️ would sleep all day and ready to be back at it again. It was all fun and games until you don’t remember anything you done. I️ was depressed and didn’t wanna have anything to do with anybody. I️ wanted to be left alone stuck in four walls just me myself and I️ . This guilt let to wanting to commit su***de. No one knows and if my family is reading this it’s cause I kept it inside for so long. I️ couldn’t make ends meet and wanted to end my life. I️ was being tormented by the lies of the enemy and being deceived into believing everything he told me. It was in 2015 when I️ rededicated my life to the Lord. Then I️ felt peace in my heart. I️ felt a big weight lifted off my shoulders and there was no more monkey on my back. Still depression would come and the more I️ tried to overcome it the heavier the weight became. I️ didn’t understand anything at that point & till this day I️ still don’t. I️ thank the Lord for getting my attention because it was then that I️ began to have this relationship with him like never before. It was then when I️ began to cry out to him and having faith knew he heard me. It wasn’t until I️ opened my mouth that he begin to move behind the scenes. Yes I️ believe in miracles cause it’s only by his grace that I️ never overdose. It’s because of his mercy that I️ was given a second chance. I️ am believing God for something big in my life and I️ will continue to seek him. Mockers come but it’s ok. Ppl say I’m always at church but who cares. I️ don’t live to please man but God. When this miracle comes then maybe just maybe you will see that I️ serve a God of signs and wonders. A God that loves me so much that he chose me and didn’t allow me to give up. He said I️ am the apple in his eye so I️ take everything he tells me and I️ run with it. No devil in hell can stop the blessings that the Lord has. I️ went from staying at different places to having my own place . From having to ask ppl for rides and depend on them to having one of my own with no payments. It’s all cause of his grace and I️ will not take his glory. He deserves all the honor glory and praise.
