Recover Loud

07/04/2026

Sometimes the hardest thing to admit is that you need to get back to where you were.

Over the last few months, I've tried to build things my own way. Recover Loud has always been close to my heart, but somewhere along the way I lost sight of the mission God first gave me.

The best season of my life wasn't when I was trying to build a brand or manage social media. It was the 13 months I spent serving God every single day. During that time, I wasn't worried about likes, followers, or trying to make the perfect post. I was simply serving Jesus and loving people.

The truth is, I'm not very good at social media. I tried to do it all myself, and I let it distract me from what really matters.

So today I'm making a change.

I'm stepping back into ministry with a renewed heart. I want my life to be about serving God, serving people, and pointing others to Jesus, not chasing attention online.

If that means posting less and serving more, then that's exactly what I want to do.

Please pray for me as I take this next step. I don't have everything figured out, but I know the One who does.

"Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established." Proverbs 16:3

07/03/2026

'm man enough to admit that I struggled with addiction.

There are a lot of memories from those years, but one still plays over and over in my mind—the day my dad looked at me and said, "Get the f*** out of my house."

So I left.

I went to Salt Lake City, and later to Missouri because I had been told my brother Barry was dying.

Looking back now, I realize I was running. Running from pain, from addiction, and from myself.

But God wasn't done with my story.

By His grace, I found recovery. I spent 13 months at John 3:16 Ministries, where I began rebuilding my life one day at a time. Recovery wasn't easy, but it gave me a chance to become the man I was created to be.

Today, I'm not running anymore.

One of the greatest blessings God has given me is reconnecting with my big sister. After all these years, we're talking again, and I'm thankful for every conversation. I know some of my family in Idaho may not like it, but I'm choosing love over division. Life is too short to hold on to old hurts. I love my big sister, and I'm grateful to have her back in my life. No one is going to make me feel guilty for rebuilding that relationship.

The memories of my past still hurt, but they no longer control me. They remind me where I came from, how far God has brought me, and why I fight so hard for people who are still struggling with addiction.

That's why Recover Loud means so much to me. It's about letting people know there is hope. No matter how broken your past may be, your story isn't over.

God took a man who was lost, addicted, and running from everything, and He gave me a new purpose. Today I choose recovery. I choose family. I choose forgiveness. And above all, I choose to keep following Jesus.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." — 2 Corinthians 5:17

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07/03/2026

As I get ready to head to Florida, there's one thing that's on my heart more than anything else.

I hope I get to reconnect with my big sister, Samantha McFarlane Anderson.

I haven't seen her since I was young, long before addiction, long before I went to John 3:16, and long before God began changing my life.

Arkansas has been an incredible blessing. It's where I found recovery, where my faith in Jesus grew stronger, and where my life began to turn around. I had hoped to drive back to Idaho, but with the wildfires, I think that trip will have to wait.

Maybe God has a different plan.

Maybe Florida isn't just another destination , maybe it's an opportunity to reconnect with family I've missed for far too long.

Samantha, if you see this, just know I love you. So much has changed over the years, and I would love nothing more than to give my big sister a hug and catch up on all the years we've missed.

Life is too short to let time slip away.

I'm praying this trip isn't just about sunshine and beaches, but about healing, family, and second chances.

"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you." Ephesians 4:32

❤️ Love you, Sis. I hope to see you soon.

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07/03/2026

07/01/2026

Today I'm not writing this as someone who has all the answers.

I'm writing this as someone who is still in the fight.

The truth is, even those of us who encourage others have days when we struggle with our own demons. Recovery doesn't make us perfect. Following Jesus doesn't mean we never have hard days. It means we know where to turn when those days come.

Today, I need your prayers.

I refuse to go back to the life God delivered me from, but I also refuse to pretend that I'm never weak. The Bible tells us to "carry each other's burdens," and today I'm asking my brothers and sisters in Christ to help carry mine.

If you're struggling too, know this: you're not alone.

Don't suffer in silence. Reach out to someone. Pray. Keep fighting. One bad day does not erase everything God has done in your life.

Recover Loud has never been about pretending we're strong.

It's about being honest enough to admit when we're not.

Please keep me in your prayers today, and know that I'm praying for every one of you who is fighting battles nobody else can see.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." — 2 Corinthians 12:9

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06/27/2026

Freedom Fest has always meant a lot to me. I had hoped to attend this year, but I can't do that with a clear conscience.

In my experience, something happened at Cross Bar Ministries that I believe was wrong. I don't feel I should be expected to stay silent or pretend I'm okay with it just so I can attend an event.

This isn't about bitterness or revenge. It's about integrity. If I believe something was wrong, I can't say it was right just to make things easier.

I still love the people I've met along my recovery journey, and I pray God continues to work in every ministry that points people to Christ. But I also believe accountability matters.

Sometimes standing on your convictions comes with a cost. For me, that means missing Freedom Fest this year.

I pray for healing, truth, and reconciliation wherever it's needed. My focus will remain on Jesus and on helping people through Recover Loud.

"Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor." — Ephesians 4:25

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06/27/2026

This picture breaks my heart.

These are some of my brothers that I knew from John 3:16 here in the Harrison area. Today, many of them have found themselves back behind bars.

When I look at this, I don't see criminals. I see men with names, families, and stories. I see people who are struggling and who still deserve hope.

From my own experience, I believe recovery doesn't end when someone gets a job or completes a program. Many people still need support, accountability, friendship, and a place where they know they won't be forgotten.

My personal experience with Cross Bar Ministries left me disappointed, and because of that experience, I cannot recommend the program. That is my opinion based on what I witnessed and lived through.

That's one of the reasons I'm working so hard to build Recover Loud—a place where people can continue to receive encouragement, community, and support as they rebuild their lives.

To every brother sitting in a jail cell today: Your story is not over. You're not forgotten, and as long as God gives me breath, I'll keep believing that redemption is possible.

"Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." — Galatians 6:2