03/04/2021
As with most people, I have days where my hope emanates from within the depths of my soul. And then days... where I wrestle with hopelessness. Today; I found myself down on the mat. Wrestling. And not very successfully.
God drew me to His Word. And specifically to Psalm 139. He spoke this Truth over me in a fresh way.
Psalm 139:7-12 (AMP) ~ Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend to heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in Sheol (the nether world, the place of the dead), behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the dawn, If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, Even there Your hand will lead me, And Your right hand will take hold of me. If I say, “Surely the darkness will cover me, And the night will be the only light around me,” Even the darkness is not dark to You and conceals nothing from You, But the night shines as bright as the day; Darkness and light are alike to You.
I love the way this section begins. With a question. God invites our questions. He wants us to process with Him. And not necessarily with flowery. Perfect. Scripted. Sentiments.
The valley of the shadow of death (Ps 23). Darkness. These are places where God shows up. Where He rescues us. Sits with us. Because these are the places where we often feel forgotten. Unseen. Left. Or lost.
"Surely the darkness will cover me, And the night will be the only light around me." (vs 11). This is where hopelessness resides. When the struggles and trials of life seem insurmountable. When hiding from God. And the world. Actually feels like a valid option.
I needed a reminder today. That while darkness feels like a profoundly lonely place. I am never alone. Even the darkness. My darkness. Is not dark to my God. And it conceals absolutely nothing from His ever watchful and loving gaze.
I will live. One day at a time. And believe that each day is a gift. Not because my circumstances have changed. Not because I actually feel any better. But because I know. That God will not only dance beside me in the light. But sit quietly beside me. As I wrestle with the blanket of darkness encircling my soul.
Dearest Masterpiece ~ Whether you are dancing in the light. Or sitting quietly in a place of suffering. Please know that you are not alone.