12/08/2023
I received a card today and when I saw it was form my wife I immediate cried before I opened it up because I was happy to hear from ,, but while I read it I was even more broken!
Her card said she was cheering for me , then she went on to tell me my sickness was a result to sin and I've walked contrary to God and he's walked contrary to me! Wow!
She said she apologized for the hurt she may have caused me , but went in to scold and condemn me as if her wrongs were lighter than mine and if I have not seen the face of God! 😢
When someone is still tapping into your emails , messages, etc.... how is that Godly!
Because of my love, I was so happy to hear form until I realized this card was to opress me even the more !
Yet she haven't tried to have one conversation, but give my address to her lawyer and then send me a letter with our old home address on it to avoid her whereabouts when there's no restraining order in place at all and it says we can communicate as long as it's agreeable!
To write letter written was not a letter of compassion!
So I'm wondering what will God do about her and if he's killing me and others because of ours! Again, this sickness is not what's killing me , I made the choice because of stuff like this!
The note says that God does not make man healthy if he has bright his body to sickness by sin, neither does he fill man's pockets if he spends his money in extravaganza! I'm sure these are for a paraphrased Bible !
She tell me to accept sickness as a result to sin because he loves me enough to basically chasten me by killing me!
In one sentence she said she apologized without in collaboration on her wrong doings but on four pages scolded me!
Shes not my FB friend, so the people who carry her stuff can't be led by God!
If there was true concern, a call or some type of communication between us would have happened!
I know her whereabouts and hav never bothered her and have never said anything on here at all, but since I'm near the end , what else must I do !
Not one time in this note was any love or compassion shown but disdain !
No love, it was even signed, blessings!
Then it was signed,
Walking with renewed vigor , Purpose, and the love of Christ, Sasha!
Tell me how is that's possible when there's not one I use of love for someone you married but you have this awesome love for Latoya Powell who supposedly came into my church and saved your life ! That was out of order in all areas! For a leader to go against a leader and interfere in a marriage and not even consult brother party is not of God ! When I hit my wife off the floor , Powell publicly scolded me and told me that she should have stayed there but then the two connected after that service! My wife's life was never in Jeopardy as mine wasn't !
I was threatened by people , etc.... but whatever exposure anyone Antonio di , it's fine! It will not do any harm because I will be free soon.
I have never been one to damage one's character! Yet, that's been the motive here to destroy my name man's ministry and I know it's been cohersiin! These people that she counseled with never coherssd her it ever have a meeting with her husband accept the people from our reformation! Not one time did I forbid any of our people to talk to her but Saints told her no for talk to her own husband! I'm the one that was left with all the bills in the house , yet I was falsely accused of leaving her broke , yet the courts mandate me to pay money until the divorce is final!
No matter what has happened, there's no way if the table was turned, I would nit reach and hopefully see my wife before her life ends !
Dean Page was like family to me, yet My wife and some of the parishioners of my church was lured to his church and he never would have a conversation with me or even counsel us both together! Not one time! He didn't even tell me she was even or the members at his church, His family had to tell me !That hurt worse than anything, because we were very close , his children called me Grandpa! I reached out to him and he never agreed to talk, but how can a Friend and son figure allow themselves to hear one side ! This is what I mean from dying of a broken heart!
She said she's confessed her sins and the purpose of the letter was to make peace with me ! I can't see where there's any peace !
Please keep me lifted , the pain gets greater and greater !
Yet I will do the work my hands have been assigned til I take my last breath!
Again, what I thought was to lift me today just broke me ! ðŸ˜
Why won't people just met me due in peace ! Dying alone is tough enough !
Yet my Stand for God will not change !
