05/10/2023
Based on Esther 2:1-11
***Devotion: The Hidden Self***
Do you have a public identity as well as a private one? You know… the face that you show to the world and then the one that you save for when you are with close friends, or family, or maybe you even just save it all to yourself? I think a lot of people do it. To the world we want to look confident, strong, powerful, caring, loving… you know, all of the good things! But sometimes we feel like there are parts of ourselves that we feel like the world will not accept or that we ourselves are ashamed of for one reason or another.
In our reading from Esther today, we hear that Esther actually has two identities. To the Persian world, she was known as Esther which was actually a Persian name for “Star.” But she hid her true self, her Jewish self, from much of the world. Only those who were closest to her, including her adopted dad, knew her as Hadassah.
We aren’t given any hints in these early chapters how she felt about that hidden identity. But we do know that she was instructed to hide it from the world.
The great irony is that it was her hidden identity that perhaps would not have been accepted by the Persian world that made her such an important figure in scripture. That which the world would not accept is in part what will make her a hero later on.
Maybe you have parts of you that you are unsure what the world will think of. Perhaps there are parts of you that you are unsure if others will accept. But know that God knows the fullness of who you are—and how does God see you? As yet another child of God that is claimed and loved.
The truth is, sometimes God uses the authentic, hidden parts of who we are to do wondrous things. None of us are perfect, and yet God calls each of us to love one another as God first loves us.
***Prayer***
Lord God, some of us do not let our full selves be known by the world. And yet you know us and claim us. Remind us of Esther’s story and how you use the hidden to perform the miraculous. Help us trust in You and walk in Your ways.
Amen.
***Learning about Esther 2:1-11***
If you want to dig in deeper, I invite you to open a Bible and follow along with my notes. If you have any questions, feel free to reach out and I’ll do my best to answer them!
Verses 1-4 picks up the story from chapter one. The decree from King Xerces (Ahasuerus) that all men shall be masters in their own household and that he himself shall seek a new wife after he was previously enraged by his current wife’s disobedience has gone out to the land. Now, as his anger abates, he realizes that his earlier decree now has consequences. While he had sought an answer in his anger… there is a hint of sadness in the first verse that now he must follow through and never lay eyes on Queen Vashti again. But his servants remind him that not only did he say the former queen shall no longer be by his side… but that he would seek out a new queen! They hatch a plan to gather all of the beautiful young virgins from across his vast kingdom that he may select the one that pleases him most.
Verse 5-7 introduce us to Mordecai and Esther. The Hebrew is a bit ambiguous as it tells us about Mordecai. Depending on how one translates vs 5-6, Mordecai is either at least 115 years old as he himself had been among the first captives from Jerusalem or else he is the descendant of those first captives—potentially 3-4 generations removed from Jerusalem yet still definitely connected.
His name, “Mordecai” is actually a traditional and very common Persian name in that time just as “Bob” is common for us. Persian names for the Jews was not uncommon as the Persian empire worked to strip them of their old identity and make them fully Persian citizens. But many Jews of the Diaspora (those who were taken out of Jerusalem and into Babylon captivity) held both a Persian name AND a Jewish name. The Persian name was the one that most of society would know the individual by. The Hebrew name would have been known to a much lesser degree… but remained a connecting point to their faith and true self. We do not have a record of Mordecai’s Hebrew name, but we do have one for Esther.
The name Esther itself is her Persian name which comes from the Perisan word for “Star.” Her Hebrew name, on the other hand, is “Hadassah” which is based on the Hebrew word for the myrtle plant which was used in a variety of Jewish blessings and was considered a plant that represented God’s righteousness. While Esther’s “Star” persona is revealed for the world, she will keep her Jewish heritage and identity a secret… thus we get this sense even from just her names that she secretly carries God’s righteous blessing with her. This hidden righteousness is what inspires today’s devotion.
Another interesting point in verse 7 about Esther is that she was adopted! This woman, who will be queen and a bringer of God’s justice/righteousness for the Jewish populace, started off as an orphan that was raised and cared for by her older cousin, Mordecai. And Mordecai, rather than simply taking a guardianship over Esther does indeed take her fully as his own daughter. He takes on the pains of others with compassion and, later, we will see Esther responding in much the same way. This is a powerful reminder of the difference one supportive adult can make in a child’s life.
In verses 8-9, Esther is selected as one of the beautiful young virgins in Xerces’ kingdom to be brought to his harem. Immediately, she finds favor with the person in charge of the harem (a eu**ch). While I will say more about it in the next devotion, Esther gets put on the fast track onto a 12 month purification and beautification process as well as receiving 7 maids of her own choosing to wait on her. The level of luxury that is afforded this potential queen while still only a girl in the harem is extraordinary. It speaks to the incredible wealth of King Xerces.
Verse 10 is VERY important. While many scholars argue that Esther hiding her Jewish identity would be difficult to imagine, it is important to the overall storyline that this side of her remains obscured. It also adds to the understanding of God being at work even as the larger population does not see nor understand where it is coming from.
Finally, Verse 11 shows Mordecai checking in on Esther every day. This is first an obvious sign of his continued affection and concern for the well-being of his adopted daughter. It is also a reminder, however, that despite Esther now being within the Persian King’s harem, that she is still connected to her people and to her God. Just as God has not abandoned the people of Israel in their captivity, God has not abandoned Esther in hers either.
Check my previous posts for the first two devotions and watch for more to come! And, as I said, feel free to ask questions!