07/16/2023
12 years..... 12 years is a long time to some. A lot can happen in that time. Most people will go on and forget what was going on, how they felt, who they were with. I say most people.. 11 years .... I remember.... and God forgive me, I will never forget. July 16th holds a special place in my mind. It was this day, I found Jesus. I didn't know it at the time... but He had saved me from Hell.
I didn't know a lot at this time. Just pain and anger.
July 16th is the day I should have died... but I didn't . Thanks to the good Lord above I survived. Most have forgotten... I cannot. Jesus has taught me love, compassion, and the power of forgiveness. He led me to a wonderful woman who has never doubted me, nor left my side, even when I pushed her away. I give Him all the credit and glory for me to be here today, to my kids who have grown so much. To everything, I give Him the glory and the honor above all.
Its this day, I tend to stay quite. My mental stability requires it. I stay quite all day and my fantastic wife understands and rubs my shoulder in compassion. God, thank you for her. Thank you for my children. Thank you for my life….. she doesn’t expect credit for anything, but she is Gods gift to me, and to the world… even if most don’t see it. I love you Karen D***s.
This is hard to write about. Due to the planning of two individuals, you know who you are, 12 years ago, my life changed that day... The pain, the suffering, the fear….. we continue to survive. This is what we must do... Adapt, Survive and overcome. Even to this day, the pain and scars remain..
Those of you who have forgotten, or fail to care, or simply are waiting for us to die... We survived.... We still draw breath, We are saved by the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords who has granted us life EVERLASTING.
As the years past on, more continues to come out of the events of that day… those loved ones that I held so dear, so close, simply had their own agendas and never really cared. Fake compassion and concern bled thru just like I almost bled out… if it’s one of you reading this… I feel for you, and your self centered ways.. I pray for you….. you showed me and everyone who you truly are and who you truly care about.
So today... on a day of sadness and suffering. I choose to Thank God, Our Lord Jesus Christ, My wonderful beautiful wife... My children... all 5 of them... Daddy loves you all very much. and because Jesus chose to let me live, I will continue to love you each and every day.
Photos are from 11 years ago.... I cannot remember everyone who helped out that day... the Deputy, the Paramedics, but know that I thank you for it... and Praise God that you were there.
Never take anything for granted. This whole mess that I have to live with for the rest of my life, I found that those responsible and those helping, still today, those responsible…. You have to live with what you did or are doing too. You get to share this nightmare with me, with us.
I have found salvation thru Jesus Christ, who gives me rest, who has taken this burden from me, and allows me to keep drawing breath. You can have the same. Just ask Him.
Keep praying everyone, keep pushing, make it up this mountain and get ready for the next. The battles come and go. They are far from over but in the end, we know who is winning this war. All Praise and Honor to my Lord Jesus Christ!!
