09/13/2018
"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it?” Luke 15:4 (NIV)
Totally Alone.
I think we’ve all felt this way at some point in our lives — whether it’s the result of circumstances beyond our control or isolation of our own choosing.
I remember an incredibly difficult season in my life when I found myself pulling back from everyone. Even my closest friend. She knew I was going through a really hard time, but she couldn’t get me to talk about it.
I was slipping away from deep conversations, making everything way more shallow than it should have been. I texted instead of calling. I made excuses for why we couldn’t connect.
And before I knew it, I woke up one day feeling more alone than I’d ever felt in my life. I kept smiling and saying things like “I’m fine. Everything is good. Doing well.” But while I was smiling on the outside, I was screaming on the inside, God, where are You? Probably a better question would have been, God, where have I wandered off to?!
This makes me think of Jesus’ parable in Luke 15:1-7, where we find today's verse: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it?” (v. 4)
Have you ever wondered how that one sheep got lost? Was he willfully disobedient? Did he think, Man, I don’t like the direction this shepherd is taking us; this is a better path, I’m out of here.
No, I think in reality it went more like this …
He started eating some grass, and while eating thought, Wow, this grass is pretty good. The pleasure of immediately satisfying his desire got him off track, and he found himself not paying attention to the other sheep around him. And then suddenly he looked up, and he was alone. He probably had no idea he was off track. He may have been out of sync with the others for a while, but he really had no idea.
I have a feeling that’s how we all get lost sometimes. We find ourselves a little discouraged or distracted, and we just start to subtly slide away. We start sitting on the back row. We miss a few weeks of church. We don’t sign up for the next small group study. We make excuses, and then we find an exit. A way out. We take a step, then another step, and then before long we look up and wonder, How in the world did I get here? And, Where are all the other sheep?
That’s exactly where the enemy wants us — alone. Alone with our own tangled thoughts. Alone with his whispered lies that start to sound more and more like truths. Separated from the very people who could speak courage into our deep places, flirting with discouragement and defeat. Separated from friends who could let us stand on their faith when our own gets a little shaky.
The enemy knows if he can isolate us, he can intimidate us. Confuse us. Deceive us. And ultimately, make us believe the safer paths in life are ones apart from God and our friends who serve God.
Maybe you’ve found yourself completely alone. Maybe you’ve wandered off course — willfully, or slowly and steadily with, out even realizing it.
The Good Shepherd will come and find us no matter how we get lost or how far we wander. In the midst of our wilderness, He pursues us, calls out to us, brings us back to the fold and lovingly takes back the lead in the journey. Because He never intended for us to do this life alone.
You will find God waiting with welcoming arms no matter how far you think you've run or wondered off it's just a moment cause aren't you you don't have to be alone!