05/10/2026
FROM THE PASTOR’S DESK, 10 MAY 2026
When I was a little girl, I wanted to birth ten babies and adopt 25 children. I LOVE BABIES. However, I had PSOD (Polycystic Ovation Disease) and, a little before I was 40, my uterus started dying. For three days and two nights I was in excruciating pain. On the third day I couldn’t take it anymore.
When the doctors discovered what was wrong, they had to operate. They weren’t sure what they would find, and so, wanted me to sign the legal forms in case a hysterectomy was necessary. I would not. It turned out that I was too sick for a second surgery, I hadn’t given consent, and they thought they could give me a little time to get stronger (and become convinced to have the hysterectomy).
I thought it was the next day after my exploratory surgery. It was two days later; my temperature was above 103 and rising, my uterus was dying and killing me as it died. I wanted to die. I was alright with it.
The Lord had Deacon Annie Frances Kimber, Chair of Board of Deacons at Grace Baptist Church, in Mount Vernon, NY to call me ( a miracle because I’d had the phone turned off because even my eyelashes ached). Annie Frances said “B.B., your
uterus has already died. You must not die as well.”
And then, Jesus visited me. It was pitch black, warm, and Jesus was holding
me in His arms. I couldn’t see anything in the velvety blackness, but, I wasn’t afraid. Jesus had me. And then one of the most consequential moments of my life happened. I did not want to live if I could not have children. But, Jesus ASKED ME to
live. He asked me to “please live.” There were things He wanted to accomplish with my life. And He promised, that He would give me children after His own heart. “Just trust Me.”
And so, I trusted Jesus, and lived. I had no idea how He could make good on His promise, but, I trusted Him.
Turns out that pastoring is spiritual parenting. And I have so many children. None of them born of my body, but, they are mine just the same. Just as Jesus promised.
On this Mother’s Day, remember that there are many ways to become a mother. You
may birth children physically. Or, you may, like me, birth them spiritually, by way of the
love of GOD, running through you to offer motherless children, broken adults, lost sheep babies, teenagers, angry, lost broken adults to learn from your love for them, that GOD loves them. You are the proof—GOD sent you to demonstrate that very love.
MY LORO AND SAVIOR DOES NOT
LIE! Trust Him. I did. And I do. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY, however GOD gives you children.
Blessings,
Pastor Brenda