01/14/2026
Hey everyone.
It has been a while since I have posted. Life has a way of moving and flowing that can sometimes shift how you have to spend your time. Over this past week, I was looking for something in my emails and I came across this message that I wrote 11 years ago when I was working in funeral service. After my father died in 2014 my heart was being called to serve in the funeral industry. I tried for nearly a year to find a job opening to no avail. Just when I thought that I must have been hearing the voice of God incorrectly, and I had given up hope of finding a job, I received a call from a funeral home that I had applied to, asking if I would like to come in for an interview. I went, and I was hired on my father's birthday!
That open door began a journey for me that I will always cherish and be thankful for. That season of my life brought many wonderful blessings and connected me to countless beautiful people. These people include other funeral directors, hospice workers and volunteers, pastors, church members, cemetery workers, county and town employees, restaurant and business owners, nurses, doctors, people in deep grief, my beautiful co workers with loving hearts and many more wonderful people. It challenged me, taught me how to be fleixible and go with the flow, it taught me the ministry of presence, it made me face many fears, and it grew me in ways that I didnt even know I needed to grow in. And although there were also many days that had tears, some trials, and some moments that were painful, God had a plan beyond what I ever understood.
I have been reflecting upon many things over the past week as I reread this word and fondly remembered all of my years in funeral service. To those who may read this post who are pieces of that puzzle, know today that I love you all. I am truly thankful for every person that God connected me to and reconnected me with on that journey and season of my life. You all hold a very special place in my heart and you always will. To the ones who gave me that invitation to work with them, I say thank you from the bottom of my heart. To those that gave me a chance when others wouldn't, I say thank you. To the ones who encouraged me to step out from fear and try new things I say thank you. Thank you, for believing in me, seeing my potential, and loving me through my flaws too. Thank you for giving me memories and friendships that to this day, I still hold onto and cherish. With a grateful heart, I thank God for each of you and for that season of my life. I consider it one of my favorite seasons and praise God for all that I learned in those times.
Today, I felt promoted by the Holy Spirit to post this message here on the Father's house page for others to be able to read it. May this word be a blessing to those who need to hear it's contents. Although this message was first written 11 years ago and shared with a different group of people, I believe many will be blessed by reading it today. God's timing is perfect as you will soon see. Blessings to you all.
"Working in funeral service now, I need to have professional attire for calling hours and services. Prior to my interview, I wanted to find a black suit jacket with a matching skirt and/or pants that I could wear for funeral service days. I also wanted to dress for the job for the interview. Therefore, I actually went looking for a black dress and jacket. Since gaining weight after dad died, I don’t have much that fits now days.
I began at Dress barn and found a nice dress and skirt but I couldn’t find a jacket to fit right to go with them. I left Dress barn and hit every other store that was possible in the mall looking for what I wanted. I knew what looked good on me, what cut and style I wanted and needed. I needed a black jacket with 2-3 buttons in the front and the right length sleeves.
I found one other jacket that could possibly work, but it still wasn’t perfect for me. It fit nice around me, but only had 1 button and didn’t close like I like them too. I would have had to pin it to fit right. But I shouldn’t have to pin it to fit right. I contemplated making it work because I wanted to leave with a jacket, but after seeing the price that I would have to pay for it, $70.00, I decided that it was too high of a price to pay for something that wasn’t exactly what I wanted or the right fit for me. I would have had to make alterations to it to be right.
Discouraged, I went back to Dress barn to take a second look around. I knew what was there as I looked closely the first time but I thought I would see if I could make them work…..knowing that in actuality, it meant settling for something less than what I wanted. I tried on jackets with no buttons to keep it closed. It looked nice, but was not right for the job I was in. I found one that was ok but way too long in the sleeves. I found one right in the sleeves, and the right size, but only one button and needing to be pinned closed. Then…..they bring in one from the clearance rack that would normally be my size, in petite length, black, and with 2 buttons!!! Hallelujiah! This must be the one Lord. I started thanking God for helping me find the jacket after all of this searching and coming up short. I was certain I would try it on, it would be my perfect match and I could leave happy with the suit that I went looking for. I tried it on and the sleeves were perfect. They style was just what I was looking for. The first button fit good. Then came the second button. It was too tight in the chest area to be comfortable. On the surface, if you looked not too closely, my silhouette looked nice and professional. But upon closer examination, the jacket looked too tight in the back and my chest was definitely pressed in to fit. I was instantly disappointed because I thought I had finally struck gold and found the one for me. The sales woman came over and tried to tell me how nice I looked in it. She did see that it was a bit too tight but tried to convince me that it wasn’t as bad as I knew it was. She suggested that maybe I could move the buttons over a bit to give me some extra room.
Then, she even said that she knew a great seamstress in Adams that could MAYBE let the seams out in the back some so I would not have to move the buttons. THEN, she says, “that was a $72.00 jacket now clearanced out for $20!” $20 bucks began to sound really good to me knowing that most other jackets would cost me $50 and up. I then began to look at myself in the mirror and say “Well, it’s not so bad. I might be able to make this fit. Maybe I can get this altered to fit my needs.” I stood there for about 5-10 minutes seriously contemplating buying this too tight jacket (when I already have plenty of too small jackets at home in my closet), just because it had the qualities that I was searching for…..black, tailored, 2 buttons. BUT IT WAS TOO TIGHT! Even though it was not going to cost me much upfront, I had no idea what the consequence was going to be after the purchase to alter it to fit me and my needs. I didn’t even know if it could be done.
It was in this moment that I heard God’s small, still voice speak to me. “Put it back Sara. Don’t buy it. It is not the one for you. It is not perfect for you. Even though it appears to have what you are looking for, it is not the one for you. There are flaws that you are overlooking and trying to make work but it is not right. Use wisdom. Do not pay the price for what is not for you. Do not listen to the other voices trying to convince you that this could work. If anything is from me you will not need to convince yourself of anything. You will not need to make any alterations to make it work. It will simply fit like a glove because it is my perfect will for you.”
So, I said “Lord, I hear ya.” I walked away without the jacket. I knew that today I wanted the jacket, I even needed the jacket, but although there were many out there, and some even close to perfect, it still was not my time to get a jacket or else I would have found one. (The day before my interview with the funeral home that hired me, I went to Cato to look for a jacket and I found one that fit me perfectly and it was the last one in my size.) I realized that even though I may have wanted another suit, and I even may have needed a suit for my job, today was just not my day to find it. But there would be another day for me to find the right thing for me. God is always in control and perfectly on time.
Out of all of this, God spoke to me on the way home about how we must remember this lesson about all things in our life. So often we go out looking for what we want, and even what we need. Our eyes are so set on wanting to have it that we can easily look past the things that we know may be wrong with it, in order to settle on just getting what we want. This is wrong.
God will always give to us what is perfect for us. God will always lead us in the way that is His perfect will. BUT….we must also be willing to wait for his perfect timing. We can easily become distracted by what may appear to be our “perfect fit” but in actuality, it has flaws that we can clearly see. Often, we try to think of ways to “alter it” and make it work for us. This is where we need to stop and use wisdom. God will never lead us to do anything that is contrary to His word and ways. He will never give us something good, but then leave us in a place where we have to overlook something bad, or act like it’s ok when it is not ok. That is not how God works. All things must line up perfectly and fit right with His word or it is not God speaking, moving, or guiding us.
My suggestion to all of us right now is to evaluate our daily lives and where we are at right now. Only you will know for yourself how this message is speaking to your life today. For a reason that I may not understand, God opened my eyes to this scenario and message today and wanted me to share it with you all. Please……hear the message.
The point that God made today is that you may be looking for something. You may want something. You may need something right now. Before you there is something that seems to have everything that fits the description. You may even think that God has finally led you to the exact thing you were looking for/needing. But stop! There are things that you can see right now that do not add up to that perfect fit. Stop denying the things that are wrong. Do not turn a blind eye to the things that are wrong. Do not listen to the outside voices that are trying to convince you to make something work that has flaws that you can clearly see. You see it, you know it, but you are almost convincing yourself that the flaws are not that bad…and could maybe even work with a little tweaking and overlooking. NO. If you have to overlook something that you know is wrong, if you have to alter what you know is not right then do not proceed because it will come at a cost that is greater than you can see. Use wisdom. Do not proceed. Wait for God to provide you with the “Perfect fit” to your situation. If you wait for your day to come, he will lead you to what not only looks like the perfect fit, but it WILL BE the perfect fit with no alterations needed.
Blessings to you all today, and may God grant you peace, contentment, and faith while you wait for your perfect fit.
