04/02/2025
Jeremiah 10:19 Woe to me because of my brokenness- I am severly wounded! But this is my intense suffering, and I must bear it. We're told in the Scriptures that he who tries to save his life will lose it, I believe that the last few days has helped me to understand that verse of Scripture. It's amazing how our battles with life can bring us so much clarity. You can truly be hated without a cause, I have never had anything to offer but what the Lord has freely given to us all who believe.
His Word, and it has brought me the greatest of joys and some of the most painful moments of life. The pain of feeling you're all alone and that there's none to come to your aid. But you're not alone, Jesus said of Paul, I must show him how much he must suffer to bear My Name.
This has been a very intense few days for me, the pain of being strip of all that you hoped had been to the glory of God. I found myself at my daughter's grave site, it's there where I feel as though I can cry out to my Heavenly Father without any feeling of shame or feeling as though I'm not trusting in Him. For the passing of Natalin Grace Martin stripped me and humbled me, for I had cried out for her to remain, for she was my strength, she showed me how to endure, how to find joy in the little things. It's at her gravesite where the Holy Spirit comforts me turning my sorrow into joy unspeakable. The third of this month will be 26 years of marriage to my lovely wife Melissa, today is 23 years we've been in our home, and yet as I write this I must fight the good fight of faith. The question I have is Father am I to keep fighting? If I have done anything to offend any please forgive me for that was not my intention, and if there's any who consider me a brother in Christ. I ask you to please pray for me and with me to have a clear conscious before God as we speak forth His Holy Word, that as always I may conduct myself honorably in everything and that I may finish the race set before me.
Gracious and loving Father, what great joy and inspiration it brings to my soul to realize your greatness, that as we come to realize that all of the things that your creation reveals to us of your awesomeness, we can come to realize that there's nothing too hard for You, You can truly do all things, the one thing You can't do is fail, Father may your faithfulness be the Truth that I walk on in this day and all the days You may bestow. In Jesus Name