Beauty for Ashes Women's Ministry

12/09/2025

FROM MY BIBLE APP:
WHEN YOU DON’T RECOGNIZE YOURSELF ANYMORE

There comes a point in every woman’s life when she looks in the mirror and quietly asks:
“Who am I now?”

Maybe it came after your kids grew up, or after the divorce. Maybe your title changed, your confidence shifted, or your reflection no longer matches the way you once moved through the world. Maybe you’ve outgrown a version of yourself that once felt like home.

Today, we’re naming the quiet grief of identity loss. Not because you failed, but because you’ve evolved. And when you evolve, some things have to fall away: roles, routines, relationships, and even the language you used to define yourself.

No one tells you that purpose might start with disorientation. No one warns you that healing can feel like heartbreak.

But God is not confused by your transformation—He’s the Author of it. From Abram to Abraham. Sarai to Sarah. Simon to Peter. Throughout Scripture, God consistently calls His people out of old names and into new ones. He rewrites identity as part of His purpose process. But we often forget that transformation doesn’t always feel triumphant—it sometimes feels like grief.

Because some things don’t die all at once. Sometimes, they fade slowly:

The woman you were before the diagnosis
The girl who believed without hesitation
The version of you who didn’t need extra time to heal
We carry shame for grieving these versions of ourselves. But hear this clearly: Your grief is not a sign of rebellion; it’s evidence that you’re healing and in transition.

Your “old self” was never the enemy.
She was the survivor.
She was the protector.
She was the best you knew how to be.

But God is inviting you into more and more often begins with loss.

This isn’t regression.
It’s release.
A sacred letting go of who you had to be, so you can become who you were created to be.

Sacred Step

Take time to journal through this question today:

What identity or role did I once wear proudly that no longer fits, and why is it hard to release?
Give yourself grace to answer honestly. You are not broken. You are being rebuilt.

And then pray this aloud:

God, You see the version of me I’m quietly mourning—the one who felt sure, secure, steady. The one who didn’t feel so stretched. I bless her for getting me this far. But I release her into Your hands. Make space in me for the new thing You’re doing. Help me not to confuse loss with failure, but to see it as the evidence of transformation. Even when I don’t recognize myself, remind me I am never unknown to You. In Jesus’ name, Amen

10/22/2025

I don't know who else this is for but it's definitely what I needed this Morning.
God Bless You 🙏🏽

10/13/2025

BREAST CANCER JOURNEY
My Pathway To Freedom

For many years now, people would always say to me “Wow you look great.” My answer to them would be “its the Jesus in me.”
He taught me Truth and Discipline.
Becoming Christlike has been a task for me because I had to learn to put to death my flesh and we all know the flesh don't want to die and will never obey God.
I came to the true reality that either I’m going to worship God in spirit and in truth or I’m going to continue in denial and defeat. Daily I am putting to death the “old man.”
I am a wife and a mother of 6. Recently one my daughter went home to live with Jesus. May her soul rest in peace.
Most importantly, I am a woman of God.
I’ve been walking with Jesus for 30+ years and have encountered lots of ups and downs, I’ve been in the valley and been on the mountaintops.
One thing that I was taught while growing up was “take God seriously and don't play with Him, I was taught that if you weren't sincere about giving your whole heart to God, then stay out there in the world, but when you’re ready to be serious with God, ask Him into your heart to be your Lord and Savior.”

I am also a recording artist. I feel God have place music in my heart to write and sing, when I write and sing songs to the Lord, the exhilaration I feel in my heart of being secured and free is my pathway to freedom, to deliverance, to healing and wholeness because I can expose the deepest and most intimate areas of my heart to God that I can’t reveal to anyone else.
I’m ambitious and creative. I love people genuinely. I love interacting with them, encouraging and uplifting them in any way I could.
In 2015, I was diagnosed with stage 2 lymphoma breast cancer.
In my mind it was like unbelievable.
I cried; “Lord why did You allow this to happen to me? It brought me to a place of truly knowing God intimately.
I took Bible Scriptures regarding healing and would post them on my bedroom wall next to my bed and read them daily.
My mind became illuminated into God divine truth. I began to understand the Love and Power of God. His thoughts of me were peace. I began releasing to God my inner fears and doubts and concluded that God is the Maker of my body and if He decided to heal me on this side or the other side, I was alright with it.
I couldn’t heal myself. I had to get to a place in the Lord where material things didn’t matter, status in life didn’t matter, money and fame didn’t matter, but what mattered was that I was connected to the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.

I did asked Him to heal me and it seemed that was all God was waiting for me to ask of Him.
I believed Him for my complete healing. So I went on this journey to find that place, that secret place in God that I needed to be and remain.
God begin to show me myself and what He purposed for me.

He completely healed my body. I've been cancer free for 10 years now.
God did not heal me just because He can. He did not deliver me just because He can. But God has me here for a purpose and that purpose is to spread the gospel of Jesus Christ.
I realize that my life has purpose. I’m not here just to exist or just to blend in with the world, but I’m here as a true follower of Jesus Christ to spread the good news to people that they may see the light and come out of the realm darkness and begin to walk with Jesus who is the True Light. He’s the Way, the Truth, and the Life. He died to give us Eternal Life.

10/10/2025

How Desperate Are You For Christ?
What are you willing to give up to become more like Him?

10/09/2025

The devil sought out to delete me, but he couldn’t because God has already Approved me 🙌🏾

10/09/2025

I’m Alright in CHRIST!

10/01/2025

07/28/2025

Morning Prayer and Intercession

06/14/2025

I said to God, Father I don't judge anyone. I don't know these people-I can't say if they know You or not-He said to me-”But you know their fruit.”
💡

06/06/2025

Listen, when God approves you, when God say Yes, it doesn’t matter what anyone else says. You may have been going through a season of barrenness, but the time will come when God says to you, its your Time Be Fertile!

05/29/2025

OVERWHELMING VICTORY IS OURS 🙌🏽
This is a day of Victory, Declare Victory over every evil force that comes to try you. We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual wickedness in high places, therefore take up the whole armor of God that you will be able to stand in the evil days.
These are the evil days, however, God has given us Victory!
Stand and Fight and in the Power of God!