Journey of the Violet Flame

03/05/2018

"Fear and Lightworking, Part II"

Goodness, a quick three years or so. Fortunately, these are insights that tend to deepen or expand with time.

I once asked a fellow Traveler "Why aren't there more of us?" I felt, at that particular moment, powerful and brave and most importantly, centered. It seemed impossible to me that many others weren't in that same space, weren't also embarked on their various (numerous?) manifestations of Lightworking.

Here I am, some five years or so later after having uttered those words, understanding the answer to that question. Or at least, an answer that I think will resonate for those with a similar experience:

Fear. Fear of failure. Fear of ridicule. Fear of poverty. Fear of disappointing others. Fear of disappointing yourself. And for me, perhaps the strongest of all - fear that I'll have picked the "wrong" path, that I spend my entire life moving in a direction that wasn't somehow correct.

I name these fears. I compassionately acknowledge their power in myself and in others. And I firmly move past them, with the understanding that I'll return to them as many times as I need to before we part company for good.

Keep Walking, fellow travelers. The alternative is unliveable. I may have never met you, but I love you nonetheless for your courage.

05/18/2015

"Fear and Lightworking, Part I"

When we set down our paths as lightworkers, we are faced with our own fear. We also have the opportunity, inevitably, to sample the fear of those around us, both our intimates and acquaintances. Many of us are told we're "crazy" or "delusional". Often, this voice yammers inside ourselves, where it is most difficult to dislodge.

I know in my bones I'm on the right path for me at this time. I know that despite the difficulties, the set-backs, the moments of doubt. I have recently met so many of my brothers and (especially) sisters who are facing down similar challenges. The most insidious aspect of fear is that it distorts our connection to Source. The very clarity so vital to all modes of lightwork becomes almost impossible to sustain when fear twists in our gut or chatters away in our minds. It's important to remember at times such as these that, thankfully, the great majority of fear exists solely in those self-same minds. While dangers in the environment may be real, our task is to transform anxiety to vigilance. Vigilance motivates us, gives rather than saps precious energy.

The nature of the Violet Flame is transmutation. I set my intent to transmute fear into awareness, and a heightened clarity.

03/19/2015

A Primer on Tarot Suites

Pentacles: "The Here and Now"
* Direction is North
* Element is Earth
* Sometimes read as financial and health matters, but really anything to do with physical, manifest reality.
* "Lowest" vibration

Swords: "The Life of the Mind"
* Direction is East
* Element is Air
* The truism is "Swords are thoughts". Also encompasses logic and strategic thinking.
* Second "lowest" vibration

Cups: "Emotion Within and Emotion Between"
* Direction is West
* Element is Water (you're shocked, I know)
* Represents our inner/private life, and also the relationships we have with others
* Second "highest" vibration

Staves: "Creation and Intuition"
* Direction is South
* Element is Fire
* Represents our creative process, as well as connection to Source. May also indicate the occult or esoteric knowledge.
* "Highest" vibration

Questions?

03/19/2015

"Compassion and Violence in the Realm of Pentacles (aka 'The Real World')"

As almost all Seekers, whatever their stripe, I have contemplated the place, necessity, and illusion thereof that physical violence has in our world, and its relationship to compassion. For those who don't know, I have taken human life before, while serving in the Navy overseas. Far from a crime, my country lauded me for me. Over a decade has passed, and I still experience what psychologists term "cognitive dissonance" when I open those boxes in my psyche. Of course, the Violet Flame spares no part of us, not when we bring it in to transmute our souls and aid us in our quest to attain a higher vibration.

There are, of course, many schools of thought, many developed by those far wiser than myself, about karma, compassion, and conflict. What I am examining is how those things come about here, in the realm we experience our manifestation. I see no difference between the physical and the spiritual, no really, merely differing perspectives in different moments.

Do I believe the acts I committed were "good"? No. How about "justified"? I was (I believed) serving the country that I loved in an honorable fashion, so in that sense, yes. I had agreed to "protect and defend" our nation of my own free will (Free Will), and since I developed an abiding sense of honor around age 15 I have strived to meet my obligations.

In the sense of being in alignment with my spiritual values, absolutely not. There are times and places I would be willing to take sentient life; in a foreign country, on an ill-advised mission that was motivated out of, at best, misunderstanding, and at worst naked greed, is not one of those times nor places. In fact, in my role as a Guardian, using superior strength to destroy that which is trying to simply live its life is anathema.

How can one's ethics and one's spiritual code be so far apart? Is that a defect in me? A conflict of interests I haven't thought through sufficiently? Or perhaps there is a wider, more systemic issue at play here.

I will continue to reflect and observe.

03/19/2015

"What is the Violet Flame?" - A First Pass

The "orthodox" answer, if such a thing exists in fringe esoteric study, is something along these lines: "The Violet Flame is Spiritual Alchemy in action." [From http://ascension-stgermain.com/violetflame-article.html]

Well, yes. And I want to give full respect to Troika for articulating the sentiment eight years ago. Still, since I seem to have "inherited" this aspect from my Twin Flame, I've gotten a whoooole other perspective. Much of that I'm still in-process over and about.

For example, what is the nature of transmutation? Is it noticeably different from the act of transformation? Far from semantics, these kinds of questions are essential if one is to focus and employ the Violet Flame for real, tangible effect here in the material plane.

The Violet Flame is Spiritual Alchemy in action. Its purpose is to TRANSMUTE denser feelings, actions, deeds, karma, etc. into a higher vibrational frequency, which helps prepare us for our Ascension.

03/05/2015

I don't intend or expect to have many privy to this page. It's not particularly "secret", just an aspect to my current reality that I don't feel the need to self-edit or monitor much. My spiritual experience has undergone some serious shifts in the recent past (as much as linear time exists). It's helpful to have a place to put some of that down in writing, virtual or otherwise.

03/05/2015

Apologies for the "Church/Religious" categorization. Apparently The Book of Faces doesn't yet have an "Esoteric Studies" category.