05/08/2019
I am so grateful right now. I have really been going through some things physically, mentally, and financially for a long time now. I have been suffering in silence ashamed of my situation and my status. It was like everyone was on a rise but me and everytime the further I try to climb up the further dowmward I fell. I went into a deep depression contemplating su***de on more than one occassion. I even questioned my faith. I wondered if God ever had a plan for me. I got so depressed that I didnt have an appetite. I guess that was a blessing in itself because I didnt have the finances to even buy a candy bar. I was sent to 3 behavioral health facilities and one 3 times because doctors felt that my depression was so severe they deemed me suicidal. Though I was there I have to admit that I enjoyed being around those that were deemed "crazy" than those that declared themselves sane.
Though I am still going through I have a new attitude, a new perspective and though most of the thanks goes to God I cant help but to thank those He gave a word to for me at the time I needed it most. So thank you Pastor Dier Hopkins of New Directions Ministry in Hapeville, Georgia and Pastor Rickie Rush of IBOC (Inspiring Body of Christ) in Dallas, Texas. I dont think they know just how instrumental they were in getting me back on track. God knows. I am also thankful for all those who kept me lifted in prayer.
