09/05/2026
An Alpha testimony—Speaking in front of people has always been one of my greatest fears. Whether it’s forty people or four people, I would get overwhelmed very quickly. So I asked God, “Why? Why am I so afraid? And if I must speak, what do I say?” Then God answered me by giving me food.
Whenever I am asked to eat, it always tells me that someone is thinking about me. Once, my Alpha leader told me the meatballs were really good. But then her jaw dropped when she saw me take only one small piece. You see, I don’t know how to eat when I feel sad or scared or, you know, when I feel like my heart is bleeding. But every time someone reminds me to get food, someone brings me food, or someone shares their food, it feels like they see me. It feels like Jesus Himself sits by my side, looks me in the eye, and says, “Before anything else, let Me love you first.”
A few days later, I arrived early at Alpha. But I was not yet in the best space, so I decided to step away. Then Jesus called me and said, “Come back. I have something to show you.” When I returned, the food was set aside, and everyone was finished eating. I didn’t really mind because I felt too gutted to eat. Then out of nowhere, somebody says to me, “Take this plate. This food is for you.” They even wrote my name on it.
Lord, how can I ever repay You for the love You give to me? Not only do You love me first, not only do You hold me when my heart is bleeding. You see me wanting to leave, yet I see You simply wanting me back. And then You say to me, “I will never run out of love for you. I have placed your name in My heart for you to know that this love that I carry is meant specifically for you.”
In the beginning, I could barely speak. But today, I stand in front of a crowd of over 400 because all must hear about the One whose love is perfect. The One whose love puts even our greatest fears to shame. The One who offers us His Body and His Blood so that we may never hunger and thirst again. The One whose name we proclaim. The One whose name is Jesus.
So I ask you today, what does your heart seek? What do you fear? Allow yourself to be fed. Allow yourself to be loved. Try Alpha.