19/10/2026
๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฆ: ๐ฅ๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ข๐ก๐ฆ & ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ข๐ก๐ฆ
I have grown to know a lot about myself, but there is still so much I am discovering. My journey of self-discovery will never end until I breathe my last.
What I was, became the hunger for what I am becoming. And just when I was about to build myself a comfortable tent here, my taste buds changed, inspired by the One whose life I live. Now, what I am becoming has become a springboard for what I will become.
Today, I am 43 years old, and I find myself reflecting on the journey so far.
This birthday is even more profound because it coincides with my ordination. It is a deeply significant convergence of life, calling, and consecration. As I mark another year of existence, I am also embracing a deeper expression of responsibility to the One whose life I live and whose instructions I desire to follow.
I do not know the extent to which my life has been a blessing to my world. I am yet to possess the physical and material possessions that many consider evidence of arrival in destiny. But beyond what I have or do not have, I can see the faithfulness of God woven through every chapter of my story.
I am deeply grateful for my family, siblings, children, elders, mentors, helpers, supporters, mentees, teachers, enemies, and loved ones. I am grateful for the ministry and the environment that raised me, shaped me, challenged me, and contributed to the person I am today. Every encounter, every lesson, every open door, every resistance, and every season has played a part in this ongoing journey of becoming. Even those who stood against me have, in their own way, contributed to the lessons I needed to learn.
One thing has become increasingly clear to me: every time I obeyed, I won; every time I drew back out of fear or lack of faith, I lost.
So, going forward, I have made a decision: I will take more steps only as I am instructed. I would rather move at the pace of divine instruction than run ahead in the strength of my own understanding. I would rather trust the One who knows the end from the beginning than settle for the comfort of a destination He has not ordained for me.
At 43, I am not claiming to have arrived. I am celebrating the grace to keep becoming.
I am a work in progress, a steward of divine deposits, and a vessel still being shaped for the Master's use. My past is not my final definition, my present is not my permanent address, and my future is not mine to dictate.
I am becoming, and what I am becoming is preparing me for what I will become.
And now, my only prayer is this:
Lord, as I launch into the dark by Your Word and stop chasing after the tools I need, may much more than the tools chase after me, according to Your Word.
I choose to pursue Your voice above the resources I think I need to fulfil Your assignment. I choose to follow Your instructions even when I cannot see the entire path ahead. As I obey You, may Your provision meet me on the way, and may the resources required for the assignment locate me in the place of obedience.
I receive a hundredfold of all that I have lost and will lose as I follow Your voice. Let nothing surrendered in obedience be wasted, and let every sacrifice in the pursuit of Your will yield fruit to the glory of Your name.
Amen. ๐
Happy 43rd birthday to me! As I step into this new year and embrace the significance of my ordination, may I never become so comfortable with who I am that I lose the hunger for who God is calling me to be.
Lord, keep me listening, keep me obedient, and keep me moving only at the sound of Your instruction. May my life be a blessing to my world, my ministry a faithful expression of Your heart, and my journey a testimony of Your faithfulness.
The journey continues. The becoming continues. The consecration deepens. And by His grace, I will finish well.
