16/03/2019
I THOUGHT SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS!
When she suggested that we spent the time, (just both of us) in the fellowship Secretariat to wait on the Lord, I THOUGHT SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS
When we held hands in prayer and spoke in tongues of men and angels, (kaka,gbagba,sinsinkokoma...) I THOUGHT SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS
When Ill take her out time after time (for lunch and dinner) so we could discuss strategies on how to win souls over a bottle of malt... I THOUGHT SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS
When I will celebrate her birthday and sponsor the cake buying, inviting friends to come and dine, I thought, SHES SPIRITUAL, " SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS"
When Ill visit her room alone and decide to be the cook and server, (being the best male cook on the planet), I thought, this is normal caring, SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS
When Ill call her through the night (from 9.45pm - 2am) speaking about the fellowship and modalities on how to move things forward especially in the sisters' wing, I THOUGHT, THIS IS SPIRITUAL BUSINESS, SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS...
When we chatted, and I'll call her name's like My dearly beloved, (as though it was Paul's Epistle to.the Galatians) My Champion, (as though she just won a gold medal), Sweetheart OF THE KINGDOM, Golden baby of God, Hah! I felt it was normal... She was as Spiritual as a FIREWOOD, SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS...
When I decided to assist her with money to handle her semester's fees cos she had just hinted to me that she had deficiency to cater for that need, I thought, aah, this is BROTHERLY LOVE, SHE DOES NOT HAVE FEELINGS...
_When Ill counsel her all alone, under closed doors, but in the CHURCH OFFICE, about her troubles with suitors, I THOUGHT, THIS WAS PURELY "your marital welfare is our concern", no strings attached, SHE'LL FEEL NOTHING ABOUT THAT..._
When she'll tell me "that I was the only one she could confide in", I was so prould that Ive become such a "weightlifter"... SHELL HAVE NO ULTEIROR FEELINGS
When I return from.my usual travel out of town and buy something for no one but her, and Ill hear her say "Sir, you're everything to me" I thought, This was just a word of appreciation, SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS...
*When I will want to take pictures with her and will wrap my hands about her waist as though one was tying drywoods, I felt this was Normal, SHE HAS NO FEELINGS...!*
When I will place my hands on her shoulders at private counselling moments only to tell her "SISTER TAKE HEART, IT IS WELL!", I NEVER KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS...
But then...
When she saw me sit with another Sister (my cousin sister) that brisked in to church on Sunday and she will not reply my greetings afterwards, I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS ...
When I shake hands with or smile at other sisters before it was her turn, only for her to walk away and not wait for her own shake, I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS...
When she calls my line at our usual time and discover that it was currently busy ( because I had to address some issues I had with my dad,) and she'll send a text that read "HANG OFF THAT CALL NOW, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU"... I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS...
When I will not call her for a while and then call her afterwards only for her to hang off the call and send a reply text, "I THOUGHT YOU CARED", I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS...
Worst of all...
When I called her to tell her of my wedding arrangements, and she replied, GOD FORBID!, and hung up the call, I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS
_When she sent me.a text that read "I REGRET THE DAY I.MET YOU", I was amazed to say "SO SPIRITUAL PEOPLE ALSO CAN ALSO HAVE FEELINGS"?
More so...
_When the pastor, asked if anyone had any reason why this people should not be joined in holy matrimony, and she sent an anonymous note a day after to the pastor saying that she saw me having an affair with someone, (a person I only will meet if I had lived in Jupiter), I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS..._
When myself and my fiancee were placed on a 3months check and Balance discipline by our church leaders just one week to our nuptial tie, owing to the unknown note sent by this Secret spy... THEN I KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS
When she later sent a text to me on my wedding night telling me that HER GRIEF WILL BE MY UNDOING FOREVER, I NOW KNEW SHE HAD FEELINGS...
_How I wish I defined our closeness earlier..._
_How I wish I could Discern that SPIRITUALITY AND CARNALITY can be mixed up in one basket ..._
_How I wish I knew that one is first a WOMAN IN FLESH before A WOMAN ON FIRE..._
_How I wish I always had the need to uphold some principles that curtailed my relating with the opposite s*x..._
How I wish I never took for a ride the fact that a Woman will always be a Woman, even when she was speaking in tongues or praying with fasting...
How I wish I was wise enough to have operated on an open air policy in my relating with ''sisters of God''...
*How I wish I laid hold on a correct relationship-wisdom literature all the time while I took dating to mean caring...*
Now I have to bear this third-party Thorn at this integral stage of my Marital life...
Now I have to battle with a alternate prayer point for God to settle my nightmare after her own estate, so I can be free from this imprisoning Guilt of being a heart-breaker
Now I have to "appease the gods" that are resident in my wife day after day so she might believe that I am not cheating on her...
*Now I have to share my story with as many as I could meet so they will not make the same mistake I made...*
Friends, SHE ALSO HAS FEELINGS!!
*Brothers, DON'T TOIL WITH IT...*
*Sisters, DON'T TRADE WITH IT...*
*Unknown Writer*