27/09/2022
An honest conversation.
"I stayed away because I was beginning to hate you, I'm sorry but I had to. I was jealous of you, because it feels like you have everything, almost everything any girl could ask for. But not me, I always have to crack everything before getting anything and most times I don't even get it, and even if I try it's never like yours".
Non-fiction!
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Because I was permitted to make an awareness out of this, beautiful "settled" story.
Have you ever been in this kinda shoe, times when you honestly couldn't help but feel alittle bit jealous about somebody's life, cause it feels like they don't have any problem and their life is just perfect?!
Well sweetheart, that idea right there in your brain and heart are just the devil's ingredients for a bitter and jealous life.
Admire people! But please I want you to understand that no one has it all figured out, not even your Godly models, not even our fathers in faith or the Godly media personalities you look up to.
I feel really angry when I hear words from the above confession, Like do you really think this life is as perfect as it looks?. No doubts that we are HELPED by God, no doubts that this people have areas of life working perfectly and you are yet to figure out yours, but did they really wake up to a perfect life?.
The relationship you Soo admire, did you know what it took to finally have it settled, would you like to hear their stories of storms and uncertainty? The pain of sacrifices and heart hurts?.
You think they have a perfect family? How about you getting to listen to the story behind the fires you are seeing, what if they let you in so you'd understand that they had to sacrifice alot of things that would have broken you too.
You think she's just too intelligent, and everyone adores her? Should we tell you how she stays up reading her brain out, or Maybe we should tell you stories of her mother's fasts that led to Ulcer, or the sacrifices of her father , the price they paid before and after she was born.
Or we should list out the sacrifices she made on her knees, while men slept, she toiled grounds to replant, uproot and groan for a new reign, character, understanding beyond the emotions glued to FIRE and prayer.
What am I saying?
There's nothing you desire to have, according to God's will that you won't have if only you are ready to pay the sacrifices. Not too many people talk about their scars and wounds, but a lot of us have the habits of blowing our trumpets.
Behind ever desire, I want you to know that it has the potential of becoming jealousy, envy and hate untill you learn to also seek and desire the labour that brought the Favour, the sacrifices that pruned the sweet wine you see, the scars that birthed your HERO!
In an indomie generation, where no one wants to pay the price like those they admire, we have people full of hate and jealousy, the devil cages them this way so the multiplication of the power and possibilities that they desire would never happen.
People are paying prices and making great sacrifices. But you are too much in love with a t**h and stress-less life, alot of you are wearing tommorow's cloth now, eating tommorow food now and definitely would starve when tommorow comes. But then you'll be among the many others hating on people who walked with timings and seasons.
I love that you admire and honor people.
But each time you catch yourself asking why God loves them more than you, be responsible enough to go to God and also ask ; " what must I do too, lord"?
If they have it, you can too. But if your striving to have it is for competition and envy, again, you'll do all the doings and you'll only birth frustration!
You admire, and you also want to make Jesus smile, like they are doing.
This is the goal! Now pay the price too.
Ask questions, knock and seek.
BUT PRIDE!
Nataph Vida 💙🦋