27/02/2024
So, I am going to drink a bunch of beer and take a sleeping pill.
No, that isn't su***de, but a rest. A break better easier than legs.
I have a very active dream world. And my dreams have been very instructive lately. I record them on video but don't publish them. I have sometimes utopian dreams. I have been lucid dreaming since 1985. Lucid dreaming is a way to live more now, even if you can't live longer. If you try to improve your dream world, you will benefit.
Unfortunately, I will wake up again.
I will again live in a world where people s**t in clean water. Their food comes from poisoned unsustainable systems. Idiocracy in action. (movie reference.) People unable and unwilling to think rationally. People without empathy for the outgroup and so desperately seeking approval for their ingroup. They will kill for approval. Not personally, people pay other people to kill for them. Then they can pretend they don't have blood on their hands.
Thank you to the donors who kept me online. I would be offline without you now. You are keeping me barely alive.
I will try to be more coherent and serve you better. I will make videos on composting toilets, and when systems fail, you will build them to avoid s**tty problems. I have designs for cool projects mixing old and new technology. I want to build them. I would like to find people to trust to work with, but I have severe trust issues. I am experienced.
And thank you to the person who lent me a battery since my solar batteries failed. Thanks. I would be offline now if it were not for you.
I want to live in some simulated Brian Matrix where people are not bigots. No more Demopublicans or Repulicrats. Please stop enabling them.
There are so many life coaches and activists and gurus and politicians, and non-profits, religions, ... Jeez, so many more to insult, sorry if I forgot you,... and they do nothing good. I know you think you try.
Most people are trying to lie to you with their social media. They say how successful they are. I am not. I could be if I gave up my values and visions, but I do not pretend. I am not popular.
I won't be flying around in private jets or showing how I live a consumer lifestyle. That is the opposite of my goals.
But yeah; "Get a job" is very good advice." I might.
And I have some great software ideas, some of which could make a lot of money. I am open to doing that and even partnering with those who can get them done. I am not a purist.
What I think is not welcome.
I am a dirty old hippie on the street who you would spit on and tell to get a job. And maybe you are right. I did update my LinkedIn profile, and I might give up on you and do that. That is my easy path, but there is blood on that path. I understand if you walk if. I am a fool not to. I will play the fool. I will die the fool.
But I am not dead yet, so I will try to do a better job for you.
I read what you write and I know what you don't want to say. You are not happy and you need salvation.
There is no magic bullet, maybe, But after 20 years in the forest I do have a menu of solutions.
https://www.patreon.com/bosquevillage
