24/10/2024
October 24,2024
After I woke up this morning, As per my daily routine I worshipped my Lordships. Yesterday I brought a new flute for my Lord so I offered it to him. I wanted to offer it to him on some special day. Later after bathing the Lord I began reciting Prayers, Yashomati nandan, Damodarastakam, Gopi Geet then I remembered words of Vrajsvasi friend(born in Moradabad, married in Sri Vrindavan Dham) once she told me that I should recite Sri Radha Kripa Kataksh Daily( mainly for getting a good groom for marriage) somehow I recited Sri Radha Kripa Kataksh. Though my mind was shouting aloud, how long will you continue to recite all these prayers, can't you see it's getting late. Still I managed to recite all the prayers and conclude my service.
Later on I turned on my WhatsApp, I saw the news of HG Damayanti Mataji leaving this world. This news left me broken and guilty. Tuesday and Wednesday was supposed to be my week off. A group of devotees had travelled to Vrindavan Dham from Moradabad for a one day trip. Initially I had decided to go with them so that I could have the last meeting with HG Damayanti Mataji. Though we were not very close,I still knew her to be a very nice devotee and dedicated servant of Shrila Gurudev.
But later on I thought instead of going to Vrindavan, I should spend my time studying. Thus I cancelled my plan. Unfortunately though I didn't go, neither did I study much. I wasted most of my time and I missed the opportunity to meet HG Damayanti Mataji for one last time at least in this lifetime.
My heart was filled with guilt 😔. Also later I realised that it was Bahulastami day and Krishna made me an instrument and accepted his new flute on this day as well as he inspired me to sing Radha Kripa Kataksh without me realising the significance.
Krishna made me an instrument,I just wish he would always continue to let me act as per his divine will.
Thank you Krishna
Hare Krishna
