11/09/2016
MY MEDITATION INTENSIVE
I want to share my experience and what I felt for the entire day of the Swatma Bodh Meditation Intensive on 14 August, 2016 . I can`t share it on mic in front of many people, I feel scared, I have stage fear. I also want to get free of it and want to in public freely but don`t know why this fear always pull me back. Though I want to speak many things and completely express myself, but I always feel helpless in doing so.
The entire day of that Sunday which I spent in the company of Swami ji and Swami Maa ji was just amazing and very energetic, full of love, peace, serenity and above all blessed. I really feel very happy and consider myself to be very lucky attending this kind of Intensive and getting myself uplifted from the level of my being where I was before.
During the first session of the Intensive which began with very nicely explained spiritual talk by Swami maa ji, I was able to understand it completely. And after that there was a meditation session when I experienced many strange things, i.e. there was whole darkness which had surrounded me, and there was something like light forming some round pattern in between my eyebrows and fading again. This continued to happen for some time. I even saw a nice house when I closed my eyes. I don`t know whether it was my imagination or something else. I even saw myself sitting in meditation into that darkness. This happened for few seconds and everything turned to be dark again.
After that there was the Energy Awakening Touch by Swami ji on my forehead between the eyebrows and at the root of my nose. When he pressed there, everything changed again. The soft touch of peacock feathers was very beautiful which emitted a divine smell from it. After that there was a deep feeling of lots of energy overflowing within me from head to toe, but maximum intensity of the energy was in my head and behind my eyes. I got very stiff and was not able to open my mouth. My legs got more stiffen and I felt as if those were burning as I was sitting on fire. There was a lot of heat production in my legs. And it was not because of I was sitting in the same position for an hour or more. If that would be the case I would have experienced this before in earlier intensives also, which didn`t happen. I was experiencing this for the first time. I don`t know what was that but I was enjoying that feeling and was scared that my energy will run off !
During these things even I felt as if there was a spark of Blue Light, which just flashed once and gone in seconds. There was lot of energy in and around me I felt really good in the first session of the Intensive.
Now there was the second half session which began with the subject talk `Experience the Invisible in visible`. The topic itself had lot of meaning in it, and when Swami ji explained it in his words that was the most amazing description, and the talk itself was making us to see Invisible in visible. It was astonishingly beautiful talk I ever listened. I cried and wondered what I am doing in my life? I felt that there are so many other important and beautiful things to do in life.
I totally agreed with the statement of Swami ji when my doctor dad said that cells in our body have the life since very formation. Swami ji said that when clinically everything is fine and no abnormality is detected in the organs, still patient dies! Why? Because, the one who lived in our body, has gone. Yes, it is proven fact that something is there...some energy...through which we function in harmony with the life. For the first time I began to think that why I am becoming a doctor! Is it really worthwhile? I felt like I don`t want to be a doctor. There are other better things to do and know beyond this. I felt like to leave everything and engage in knowing the purpose of life. Even I felt that whatever Swami ji was saying was just for me, explaining everything for me indicating and showing me the right path how to deal with my day to day activities.
The experience that I felt in the second practical meditation session also was very nice and peace downloading within me. I was following my incoming and outgoing breath. Nothing was disturbing my peace, even the sounds which were around there. I was not bothered about those, unlike the earlier Intensives when I was scared and not able to meditate. But this time I was at peace within me, and still being among those strange sounds. I was watching my breath which was short and a bit faster than my normal breathing. Soon I was breathing rapidly, and after some breathing cycles I used to take deep breath again. And again I found myself in total darkness even more darker. I really enjoyed it and felt very nice and blissful.
I really feel that with the help of meditation and blessings of Swami ji, soon we shall be able to experience `Invisible in Visible. I seriously feel fortunate attending this Intensive, which not only is helpful in our spiritual path but in our mundane activities also.
I sincerely thank to Swami ji & Swami Maa ji for bestowing this opportunity to me and showing the true, simple and easy spiritual path for our well-being. I feel very fortunate to have them in my life as my mentor. Really I am feeling blessed.
Dr. Vaidehi Nagar
Surat, India
