Jesus is Awesome Ministries

04/05/2026

We tried after a long bit of time to make some new updates to both Web Sites:

As we did, we saw that “Artificial Intelligence” (Ai) had Google wrote this summary about me.
* I think it did a fair job.
(I think).

Summary:
Pastor Andy Chase, operates the ministry AndyLovesJesus and AndyChaseMinistries on Facebook.

Pastor Andy is an ordained minister and evangelist who is based in Rochester, New York.

One of Pastor Andy’s ministries is God's Restaurant Church - which is a unique outreach ministry that is designed to create an informal, welcoming environment for those who may feel excluded from traditional church settings, or those not allowed to participate beyond just sitting in pews while listening to the Band Leader and Pastor.

This unique ministry of Pastor Andy specifically focuses on all believers and allowing them to have an “real biblical Church” and invites individuals dealing with disabilities, addictions, or loneliness to not just attend Church, but to participate using their gifts. Pastor Andy never asks for money for his time or life’s work. He refuses to look at his passion (serving Jesus) as a paid job.

At this ministry Pastor Andy places an emphasis on free food, coffee, drinks, freedom to come late or leave early and to sit anywhere they want.

Pastor Andy states that the biggest obstacle is other Pastors who are paid and concerned that Pastor Andy’s “way of doing Church” is a threat to their own controlled style and to their paid Pastor jobs at their Churches.

The other obstacle he states is getting people to see Church biblically and that his effort in the easy way that he does Church, is a healthy way, and truly as God wants, even if he doesn’t do as many other Pastors and Churches do today with their religious focus on having a Church band or a manmade religious system.

Key Details:
Founder: Pastor Andy Chase, an ordained pastor of 30 years who resides in the Rochester, NY area.

The Vision:
The ministry follows a "Luke 14" vision, which emphasizes reaching out to those that larger Churches pay no attention to, such as those who are poor or disabled.

Atmosphere:
The ministry is intentionally casual. Pastor Andy has described starting "Pizza Church" in a relaxed setting, encouraging attendees to come in comfortable attire like sweatpants and hoodies.

Pastor Andy has no discrimination on smoking, tattoos or other common Church rules that cancel out and remove sinners who simply want to know about the Savior.

Location:
While the ministry originally aimed to operate out of a small 25-person restaurant with an outside patio, it has also utilized more intimate settings, including Pastor Andy’s own home, and now Pastor Andy uses the McDonalds restaurant in Henrietta for free to be able to have this open Church movement started.

Pastor Andy doesn’t ask for money but instead is often seen giving money out to people.

Core Beliefs:
Pastor Andy describes himself as "just a man" who prioritizes the Bible and faith over any denominations or religious titles.

The focus is on simple, Bible-based Christianity and teaching the "whole Word of God" in a way that provides hope and shares the living Gospel of Jesus Christ.

His ministry is characterized by a "Luke 14 vision," focusing on reaching those often not wanted by Pastors who focus on desiring money or by Churches who are run by a system and programs. Pastor Andy focuses on all people including those with disabilities, addictions, or those who are poor and lonely.

Anti-Commercialism: Pastor Andy does not ask for or require money, funding, or travel expenses for his teachings, stating that he works for free because
"The Lord has paid my cost".

Non-Traditional Meetings: Pastor Andy often uses McDonalds or will use other small buildings or hotel spaces for gatherings where people can eat and participate freely as a Spiritual family, while intentionally avoiding a "stage" or religious system type hierarchy and pre-manmade system of having Church.

Focus on Relationship:
Pastor Andy’s teaching emphasizes that every believer has a privilege to have an intimate, personal relationship with Jesus Christ rather than just going to a Church that asks for money and has religious Church rules.

Background & Career
Personal Life:
He has been married for over 33 years and has four adult children.

Experience: He has been an ordained pastor for over 30 years. He founded Jesus Chapel in his basement before it grew into a larger building, and later served as the senior pastor of a Baptist church that he transitioned into a more non-denominational atmosphere and Pastor Andy renamed it “Misfits Church”. That open style of Pastor Andy did not fit well with the established older Elders of the Church building. Pastor Andy would often order pizzas and food for people to enjoy eating while he taught and he has extremely agitated about the tithing basket that the Church Elders demanded that he allow to be passed around. Pastor Andy circumvented that by telling visitors to “take out of the tithing basket whatever money that they needed”.

Pastor Andy is described as a Pastor who is approved by God, but not liked by many other Pastors because of His desire to focus on Jesus and not Church as a business or being a Pastor to make money with having a religious job.

"The Misfits Church":
Pastor Andy started this outreach program to cater to those who felt they didn't fit into traditional church structures.

Outside Work: To support his ministry and family without asking people for money and taking church funds, Pastor Andy has worked as a consultant to the railroad industry. He also volunteers with the Special Olympics.

Pastor Andy writes Devotionals and Bible-based teachings.

Prayer Requests:
Pastor Andy invites people to contact him for prayer needs or to have free Bible teaching meetings.

The Gospel:
Pastor Andy focuses on giving simple teachings of the Gospel of Jesus, His Cross and the beauty of Salvation and the need to have a personal relationship with Jesus.

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Join us for Bible teachings, fellowship, and a communion meal as we encourage each other in our relationship with God. Come!

11/04/2026

27/11/2025

⛑🤷👎 Who are you? 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐭 - 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐉𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐬 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝-

Do you think God needs to - respect - your thoughts? Your feelings?
Your preferences?

Doesn’t that then — make YOU God Almighty & now God, He now needs to serve your stupid human thoughts & feelings?

Isn’t that the kind of stuff that got Lucifer (Satan) kicked out of Heaven - by God?

Are you really going to continue with your prideful ways?

S h a m e on you.

Pastor a𝓷𝓭𝔂

04/11/2025

“There is a story I was given ^ about a man who had the chance to re-walk 🧑🏻‍🦯 a field of stones that had some Rubies and Emeralds. He re-walked this field ~ that he had walked before, and previously he built up places, but now he had the chance to re-walk this field again and gather many shiny stones to again - build his kingdom palace - as other Pastors have done and are still doing today.

They are now church rich & he is fellowship poor.

But then as he re-walked this field, with his head bowed and his body sick and life broken ~~ as he prayed to His Lord, he saw a hidden Diamond 💎 that had Gold on its cover. He picked it up and although many others had ignored this Gem to instead find many stones to build “their own” palace - - this man found not a just a stone, but instead he found the missing Gem 💍 from God. The main top Gem (thing) that other pastors ignored.
The cold water 💦⛲️ needed for thirsty hurting people.

He took that Gem and with Gods Spirit used it - to not build up himself but instead to build up others. Each of them being able to touch the Gem and have “ownership” of the Gem, all for free. In the end - this missing Gem turned the poverty of many, into a wealth 💰for their other hurting living souls”.

- Through much prayer and being at the edge of dying, I believe the Spirit of God is causing me to start “Supper Church” 🍛 at my house. It will be a mix of 15 minutes of me sharing a teaching followed by each person being encouraged to share a thought, question, story, problem, etc. Anybody can pray or talk or confess a sin or start a prayer or sing of song. Yet, during this time anyone can get up, move around and without rules even smoke, drink a beer or laugh. But as this is going on ~ a small supper is being prepared to soon serve with Pizza 🍕, juice, bread, soup, chips, etc. We will do a Communion meal 🍽️ - by celebrating the Lord and His Cross & Resurrection and enjoy the power of His Spirit upon us. We will do as Jesus leads us. Not as a schedule or Church board of administration tellls us.

Then after this maybe watch the Buffalo Bills 🏈 on TV, or do some fun family type thing.

Church 🏥 Simple,easy - Church Fellowship. A Hospital for hurting souls and a party for celebrating Saints 👏 🙌🏼.

I will keep this small. Many people say they want to come, but Gods Spirit is constraining me to not grow this fellowship until more “Overseers” Elders rise up - to minister to the others - for free.

Still praying for Gods Wisdom on all of this and much more.
Yes I am sick and who knows how ling I have to live. My body is tired & sick -
~ but my soul is desiring to share this special Diamond Gem with many. Even if it is during my last breaths on earth.

* At the Hospital I was able to witness to almost 50 Doctors, Nurses and people from all over this world.

❤️ God gave me a “mission trip” to the world through my Hospital bed. People from Kenya, Romania, Mexico, Liberia, Uganda, Asia - everywhere. Yet all local now.
~ Many who I shared the Gospel with cried and said they believe in Jesus, but then said that they don’t have a place (Church) to go to, that is like the Bible verses that I shared on how church *should reallly be.

💔 My heart broke. They are not alone. Many I talk to about Jesus, want the Lord, but do not want to go sit in Church row 23 and follow the manmade church system of the band leader, pastor and sanctuary service scheduled rules. Instead they want Jesus & others who love Jesus - and just want to simply gather without any ritual or system, or being asked for money, or given tons of rules.

* THIS desire & pain - is MY desire & pain - and the lack of solution for the pain - that so many believers have, hurts my heart & soul.

Maybe I can help with that a bit.
I dunno. I’m a sick dummy. But Still praying…still hoping.. still wanting to do good for my God.

Message me if you’re interested.

- Pastor andy

03/11/2025

You may say “you heard a man like a prophet. Maybe yes or maybe no.

What you heard or saw writings of - was for sure a sinner who is facing judgement..and yet also a Crown with a new name & new body.

€€€- But let me ask you - }}}}

What are you going to do with the One upon which ~ that man was simply quoting (God)?
Stop & think.

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Which * version of Jesus do you have?

The One who likes people singing Psalms and Hymns with each other - (as Gods Spirit is the worship leader), to God like Jesus did?
- Or the one who jumps up and down to a paid band leader?

The One whose Word says to teach each other, confess sins to each other, encourage & exhort each other?
- Or the one who sits in row 23 while the pastor (who is a likewise sinner) is the only one who teaches, instead of being the sideline coach “Overseer” that he is told to be - by Gods Holy commanding Word?

The One who said to celebrate the greatest violent act in World History (The Cross) and the beautiful Resurection, by a Communion Meal.
- Or the one who giggles and eats the corner of a Saltine Cracker for church communion, because it speeds up the service time?

The One who told His saved, water baptized & experienced Disciples to not move a finger -until they got the Baptism of God for power & gifts and whose Word commands the same thing for Christians over & over & over again.
- Or the one who says that the demonizational opinion of farting men to say they don’t agree with that and have deleted that repeated command from their bibles?

The One who said the heart is more important than the wallet.
- Or the one who is mentioned by pastors I know who tell me “Andy, everything that you say is true & biblical, yet I refuse to do it, because I’d lose half of my church and money”?

The One who said that many who call Him “Lord Jesus” and go to church and do good things, He will say too “depart from me for I never knew you”. This same One who said “Die to who you are, everything about you, take my Cross and come follow me”
- Or the one who is going to a church that “itches ears” and wants, entertainment, relaxation and has no conviction of Gods hard Words of warnings?

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Which version of Jesus do you follow?

Your answer - provides your eternity.

The only way to have eternal life, is to give up your existing life, and follow the true Jesus, and all of His Words, even the tough scripture verses of the Bible that todays pastors will not teach on.

Your pastor will NOT repent or change. He will not stop building his business church. His income depends upon it. You will still get a Sunday bulletin and sit in row 18 or 32. You will still tithe your money to a system that is broken and wrong in Gods eyes. “Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches. I am about to spit you out of my mouth..” Rev 3

— Your only hope for e true fellowship walk, is to choose a small Biblical fellowship Church. Your life's actions may depend on it.

Source: The Holy Bible
* Bible verses and all scriptural evidence is provided amply in my previous written postings ~

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~ i write this in my 𝓸𝔀𝓷 hand - as led by Gods Spirit. Please remember my chains for Christ. May His Grace be with you all.
Pastor andy

02/11/2025

Many of you each day are attempting to look at my Devotionals here. I’m too sick to post here.

I will repeat: see my main FB page. Hugs, Pastor andy

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31/10/2025

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27/10/2025

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23/10/2025

Picking Up the Pieces of My Sweet Human Dreams
— Pastor Andy

When we surrender to the Lord, one of the first things we can expect is trials. Trials separate our flesh and our human goals from God’s eternal plans for our lives. What once seemed “sweet” to us may be proving out to be “sour” to Jesus.

* If you’re not Born Again and Saved, then this devotional will have no purpose for you. For the first steps are being Saved and then the Spiritual Baptism of God to give you power.

But if you have taken those 1st two steps as a true Christian, then this devotional may benefit you. For your life is according to this world dead. Jesus Christ said "For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, and whoever will lose his life for My sake will find it." Matthew 16:25

*** I again suggest heavy caution to you to not look at trials in a flippant and worldly Oprah styled or Dr. Phil type of way. Not even in the way of many church pastors with their soft teachings that are meant to satisfy the viewers in the pews. Surrender to God and the trials that He sends to His chosen people, are not to be satified or softened. Got It?

To get to the other side of the lake where Jesus is waiting for you, some of you may need to untie the rope and cut the anchor and drift according to where Jesus wants to take you. That may mean cutting off worldly church ways and even people who are not 100% surrendered to Jesus. Because those who are not surrendered cannot give you the words of Christ, but may instead only offer the satisfaction that was offered to Eve in the garden or to Jesus when he was told by the devil to turn rocks into bread. Satan is tricky, so in your burdened life, only accept Gods words through Gods surrendered persons. * In your weakened state - be very careful.

For trials are a part of Surrender, and surrender is what a true Christian does. Maybe not a big church happily entertained person, but a sold out Christian who accepts all of Christ and all of His Words.

That missing word in today’s church of “Surrender” means acknowledging that your life and my life, as Christians, is over — and your life is now Christ’s life living IN and through you and myself.

Charles Spurgeon once said:
“There is a divine mystery in suffering, a strange and supernatural power in it, which has never been fathomed by human reason. There has never been great saintliness of soul without great suffering… When the suffering soul reaches a calm sweet carelessness, when it can inwardly smile at its own pain, then patience has its perfect work; then the crucifixion begins to weave itself into a crown.
When we finally lie still under God’s hand, every faculty of mind and heart subdued, a quietness of eternity settles into the soul. The tongue grows still. It stops asking “why” and simply rests in His will.
As we lay in God’s hands, imagination ceases building air castles. Our lives become so dead to self that nothing can hurt, offend, or hinder them anymore.”

Paul wrote of this mystery when he said:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” — 2 Corinthians 12:9

In other words, “Be still — let Me do My work upon you.”

Romans 8:26–28 gives us more comfort:
“The Spirit helps us in our weakness… He intercedes for us with groans too deep for words… and we know that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him.”

What a marvelous truth — God uses trials to shape us into the image of His Son.

Even Joseph’s story shows this as Joseph said to those In his family who tried go hurt him “What you intended for evil, God intended for good.” — Genesis 50:20

I may say “my Kidney Disease is good?” You may ask for your own life “is my trial good?” YES

Our life’s trials are something that is almost beyond our mental capability for understanding. But God did not tell us to reason it or try to understand or fix it. God just says “surrender to me”.

Trials, tribulations, and afflictions are tools in the hand of the Potter. If we remove ourselves from the water, we become hard, unusable clay. You may cry out “I hurt! I hate my life!” And this is bad?
NO. For this is good!

For Jesus said “Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” Jn 12:25

Here is the thing; if you by your fleshly pursuit, using your intelligence or systems, you do manage to escape your trials, then you may have lessened your value to God for His purpose for you.
* Think about that.

Scripture shows that suffering refines God’s children like gold in a furnace 1 Peter 1:6–7 Do we expect a crown of gold when - Jesus wore a crown of thorns? If your life IS the life of Jesus, than are you not accepting His choice of trials In your life?

When we see people from the Bible like Elijah, who wanted to die, and our other Bible hero’s who wrestled with depression and feelings of abandonment by God, and we find ourselves in similar places, have you ever considered that you walking along a path which others Bible hero’s have walked before you?

* Spurgeon’s wife once wrote on their bedroom wall:
“I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.” — Isaiah 48:10

I think I’m going to have my wife put that on our bedroom wall.

Your tears are not wasted.
“You keep track of all my sorrows; You have collected all my tears in Your bottle.” — Psalm 56:8

Through these tears, repentance
^ (which should be daily and even hourly) deepens and our hearts are purified.

Let these verses bring comfort:

* “I want to know Christ… and the power of His resurrection… sharing in His sufferings.” — Philippians 3:10
* “Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28
* “In this you greatly rejoice… though now you suffer grief in various trials.” — 1 Peter 1:6–7
* “We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing they produce endurance.” — Romans 5:3
* “Consider it pure joy… whenever you face trials of many kinds.” — James 1:2
* “Through suffering our bodies share in the death of Jesus, so that His life may also be seen.” — 2 Corinthians 4:10

Are you surprised by your trial?
Don’t be! For 1 Peter 4:12-13 says “Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial that has come upon you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed at the revelation of His glory”.

Does this writer or others you know, in a weird way seemingly, boast of their sickness or trail?
- Well, actually that is good! The Apostle Paul said
“Therefore, I will most happily boast about my weaknesses, so that the Christ power will live in me”. 2nd Cor 12:9

“I now rejoice in my sufferings”. Col 1:24

Do you lack joy in life as you suffer? Don’t, for James 1:2 says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds”.

Are people upsetting you with their advice about your trial or suggestions - that seems to be more worldly church answers, than words of Christ? Don’t let them, be like the Apostle Paul who said “From now on, don’t let anyone trouble me with these things. For I bear on my body the scars that show I belong to Jesus”. Gal 6:17

Is your trial upsetting others or is it lessening their view of you? If so, then know that the Apostle Paul said “Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies”. 2nd Cor 4:10.

If the unsaved and wordly church people still don’t get it, as to why you are suffering and you appear to them to be an outcast, then see the responses from God, which are biblical, yet never said and never preached.

* “I’m made a spectacle both by reproaches and tribulations.” Heb 10:33
* “God has put me on display, like a prisoner of war at the end of a victor’s parade, condemned to die. A spectacle to the entire world—to people and also to angels”. 1st Cor 4:9

Your life is to be Christs life. Not for the unsaved or even the worldly church enjoyment of others, but instead your life is to be seen as one who is dead to who they once were and is now only living because of Jesus, and only for His purpose. “I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me”. Gal 2:20

Even this writer through different Doctors appointments has acknowledged that the main purpose and definitely the main joy is to witness to these medical professionals about Jesus.

Each scripture verse in this devotional, reminds us — the path of pain is used by Jesus as the path of transformation.
If you manage by fleshly effort to escape your trials, you may lessen your value for God’s purposes.

Don’t run from the Potter’s hands as He presses into the clay and makes you His vessel.
Every great saint — Elijah, Job, Moses, Paul — walked this road before us. Each was refined by loss, isolation, or despair. But in that furnace, they met God face to face.

Will this trial that you are in - end? Yes in this life or you will be free of it when you get to Heaven (if Saved).
For the Bible says “The God of all grace will restore you after you have suffered a little while” 1 Peter 5:10

I encourage you to not just save these scriptures, but more to take these scriptures to the bank of your soul and deposit them, for later they will earn heavenly interest and make your soul wealthy to God. Or if you should live, then take the reward interest earned/received in these trials, that are in Gods bank - and share it with others who are hurting. Spread the wealth. Go to a small Church fellowship to talk with others of how Elijah sat and the brook dried up. Yes, talk of that and Job, and Joseph’s prison, Jeremiah’s pit, Moses stutter, Paul’s shipwreck and more. Talk of that and of the Lord — who is a “God of sorrows”.

And rejoice that God loves you so much that He died for you and is now reshaping you into His image.

Here is the beauty, if you Saved, Baptized and surrendered, then you are being drawn into union with Christ— skin to skin, thought to thought, feeling to feeling — crucified with Him, risen with Him, alive only in Him.
“I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” —Galatians 2:20

So if your dreams lie broken and crushed, do not try to gather up the pieces. Let the pieces lay on the ground. Let God reshape not these pieces, but you, into His eternal design.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” —Psalm 34:18

Surrender every part of your life, with your troubles, sickness, and all the fragments. Let it all go.
Jesus will make something of you and all these matters, into something holy — and He will bind the wounds in your soul with His nail-pierced hands.

And in your trail and later, your life will bring Glory to Jesus.

— Pastor Andy

~ I write this in my own hand, as led by God’s Spirit. Please remember my chains for Christ. May His grace be with you al

20/10/2025

Update:

I am humbled to tears with the comments many of you have made. If I have not thanked you, it may be because I can’t read more than a few comments, as I begin to cry.
— So I consider myself not worthy of the beautiful things that people say. For if many of you knew me as intimately as I know myself it is possible that you would withhold sympathy or honor to me, for I am not worthy of any good words or sympathy. For I am just a man of dust and ashes, a man with all the natural sins that inflict others.

My blood numbers are poor. I’m at home in bed. But I am alive. The Doctor just got word from Lisa of my worsened health and called for me to get medical help now
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Yes, I can go to the Hospital and get Dialysis, but I don’t want to re-travel that route that they have already done. For if I choose it, then it’s 3 X a week for 2 hours each time.
I told Lisa that I’m not going to ruin her life or take her time in doing that (we share a car).
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The kids are all out of the house and doing great. My prodigy is a Dental Assistant, a Doctor (NP), A Teacher and a DEC guy now working at the Air Force Base in N. Dakota.
I don’t want them to waste a moment on me. I’m proud of them and by Gods Grace I did a good job in providing money, home, vacations and much more. Now the Eagles have left the nest. Parent Eagles don’t call their young Eagles to come back to the nest, even if they get sick or have lost some feathers. An eagle never loses sleep because of the low life of a Turkey. So I desire nobody worry about this Turkey.
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About 4 years ago I had a meeting with God. I told Him that although people think I’m a good Christian, and a good pastor and my writings have gone around the world, all that matters is what He thinks. I asked Him to make me really as I should be, for His purpose. I decided that my view of who I am, or others views, are dung as compared to His opinion. My repentance turned from the church customary of occasionally to an hourly matter. I asked Him to mold me like clay and cut off the bad parts, use His fingers to press in and do what He needs, so that on my Judgement day with Him, that He will tell me “well done my servant, enter into your rest”.

After that got sick with Kidney disease and lost 1 Kidney and now the other is shutting down. I lost money, friends, status and more.

But - then through the pain, I got Jesus at a personal deep level that the old time Heroes of the Faith had. That depth caused me to begin to write and preach at a level that was too tough for many, such as Johnathan Edwards as he preached “Sinners in the hands of God”, and the church walked out on him. I began more & more to imitate Jesus as He spoke words that angered the religious leaders. That is what my words (quoting the Bible) does. And few have said that I’m a voice in the Wilderness and not afraid to imitate John the Baptist, Paul and Jesus and call people out, to show the anger that God has towards them and their modern church and religious life with their Cracker piece celebrating the biggest events ever (Crucifixion & Resurection) and not having instead a biblical Communion Meal. Although Jesus and Paul made it of key top importance, we chose today to not focus on the Lords words to His followers to get the Spiritual Baptism (even before water and preferably as God shows over & over by the laying on of hands) and for each person to know and use their Gifts in active ministry, being of more value than often than even the pastor, as in the 10 “One to Another” in Paul’s writings.
And also the Lords command to not have any sacred building or manmade church system for their gatherings, but to instead let there be much silence as they are spontaneously led by His Spirit. Even the choosing of singing such that Jesus did with Psalms (https://youtu.be/NQQT7e8ZKhU?si=0_eIgjh2t0kVbMXv) and with that, instead of of modern day songs that please and entertain the churches, and are lesser in spiritual value, to worship in both silent adoration and maybe a bit of Psalms and Hymns. My words I speak to the church of today about what the Jesus and the Bible speaks - about the church of today - is disliked by many even more than my own dislike for my own physical sickness. Sometimes I wonder if I am more sick of today’s large church places and lack of authentic small family fellowships, that lack money and power versus today’s large churches, that Paul warned against in Gods Bible - or - of my hours of physical sickness.

But even if I am considered a bold prophetic type pastor, who would rather have Christ than my 2 Ordinations, college degrees and even my soon PhD in Theology, because non of that helps me feel better as I physically get sick and suffer through horrendous vomiting and body pain.

I honestly really just want to go to Heaven.
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But even in my sickness, I see myself as a fool and I repent.
For in sharing my health status, it led many to believe that I’m just a few days away from dying. The vomiting, dizziness, and pain is awful, so I could be dead soon, but maybe not this week! There appears to be some sand still in the top part of my hour glass. But if I go to the Hospital now, I may not get out. So I’m staying put in bed.
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I repent and apologize for my words that produced worries for too many people that know me. For my intent was to be honest, but the return is sadness. But worse is that I have shown what a dramatic hypocrite I am for even though God is allowing me to suffer, I should not do or say things that return unto me sympathy. I am not worthy of anybody feeling bad about me.
My Savior, my Hero, spoke more & more about His coming up death, within His final days with His followers. But it was simply honesty, not desiring sympathy. He did that -to give them an eternal perspective. But by that time there were only a very few followers of Him left. Most had left him. I get that.
The Apostle Paul said to his friends, "Why are you weeping and breaking my heart? I am ready not only to be bound, but also to die” Acts 21:13.

So I think in the days to weeks ahead, I shall speak less of my health. For the reporting of my health brings sadness about my life, rather than joy about the life of Christ. And it should be that the focus is on Jesus and His Cross, not on dumb ugly andy, or my health and my little cross that I bear. I am a fool. But my Bible tells me that “God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.” 1 Corinthians 1:27

The amazing biblical truth is - that Suffering is a gift. It is beautiful & wonderful. It is how God polishes His jewels. Do you know that a diamond never desires sympathy because it has been previously been cut or polished?

- And anything that I write or preach that is good, is because of the trials that Jesus has allowed me to suffer.
For in my flesh is no good thing.

* Even the new Church I had a vision to start (Godsrestaurantchurch.com) is a great idea. But I lack the funding for the monthly rent and my strength is weak to do it alone, again, with a lack of helpers. Churches in the old days would help sponsor it. Today we send it to Africa where feloets are that over 1/2 is squandered. But hey - we write the check and it feels good. That is what seems to only matter. Our thoughts, our feelings, our systems and our ways.

But maybe I should try to start the outreach. The fact that I do and have witnessed, just this year to maybe a thousand people with my homemade Salvation cards, but afterwards have no biblical small church to send them too - causes me distress and the possible answer to this of a small 35 chair restaurant building, causes me to go from the natural to the supernatural. Meaning I would need a Miracle. Does God still do those Miracle things?

Maybe as I said, there is still a bit of sand in the top part of my hour glass. All I know is that the guy in Rocky Balboa yelled to him in his last fight “there is still a bit left in your basement, take it all out now and win this fight. For it is your last round of your last fight”. Maybe so, for me, but I will wait on God to show me what to do.

Last night, a guy in California who has watched all of my preaching videos and read all of my writings, contacted me and expressed his sadness over my demise.
* His words broke my heart.

But he said something to me that caused me to stop my plans to die. He asked me as his teacher, this question; “is my dying of my own will as in a type of su***de, or is it Gods Holy Will for my life now? He said that if dialysis is an option, and I refuse it and the other medication (as I now am doing), is that Gods Will. Am I disobeying Jesus?

So last night I asked Lisa, do you want me to live? I vomited over and over last night (as I do) and I told her “this sucks. I don’t feel well. But are YOU ok with it? I don’t want you to miss work and struggle to get me to dialysis 3 times a week. I don’t want to take more medication. But what do you want?” She said that she doesn’t want me to suffer anymore.
* So I asked her, if the Apostle Paul could have left Rome and got away from Caesar who wanted him dead, would he have chosen to live on?

* One friend said to me last night
that I’m am one of the boldest Christian that he has ever met and my words, my written devotionals, although tough, are simply Gods Words given to others, who then often hate me, and yet I have changed thousands of peoples lives. But then he said to that question “No, Paul wouldn’t have escaped, because Paul had “run his race and fought his fight” (2nd Tim 4:7). Now Paul was inches away from the end of his race. He wanted to win and be with Jesus.
Yet, another friend said that Paul would have escaped if able to.

What is the answer for me?

+++ Sometimes the best answer we have, is in what was written.
Paul said to his friends “I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live.
Yet what I shall choose? I do not know. But (at least for now), am convinced that I (for now) I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith.” Philippians 1

Paul also said “For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands.” 2nd Cor 5:1

* The truth is that I’m too dumb, Too selfish and too sick to make that decision. So upon faith in Jesus and His Word, I am praying for confirmation on what to do.

For if I am really a Christian and my life, is really Christ’s life, then the decision to continue on, sick or not, is not really mine at all.

All that matters is Jesus and what brings Him Glory.

* Pastor andy

~ i write this in my 𝓸𝔀𝓷 hand - as led by Gods Spirit. Remember my chains for Christ. May His Grace be with you all.