01/01/2026
Listening to the voice of the soul amongst the cacophony of other voices - the ego, the mind, the emotions, trauma responses, conditioning, patterns...
The voice of the soul is quiet - you have to listen
The voice of the soul is patient - it has no urgency
The voice of the soul speaks concisely in the present tense, it has no unnecessary fluff.
The voice of the soul does not argue for or defend itself, it just speaks its piece and waits quietly, until you listen again, and it does it again.
The soul's purpose is a living thing - a vibration, it cannot be written down in a mission statement, it will not be pinned into anything fixed. It must be allowed to move and evolve and pivot.
The soul doesn't care if your mind understands why it is going the direction it is, only that it is the aligned direction. The mind likes to have a story to hold on to, and as long as your mind's story and your soul's direction are aligned, it will be quiet. But as soon as they diverge, it will begin to speak, and the mind, so clear in its mission, will not like what it says. It will argue and resist, find all the reasons why changing direction doesn't make sense, or is dangerous or wrong. It will be very convincing.
It precipitates an ego death, a dissolution of who you thought you were and where you thought you were going.
This can take a day or a whole lifetime to re-align yourself. It can happen again and again and again.
And I doubt sometimes - am I listening to the right voice - the other voices can be very sneaky in pretending to be the soul - and yet this is the voice from my training, through ISTA and Highden. Did I learn to listen to the right voice? When I hear criticisms of those schools I can feel the parts of me that want to be defensive and justifying, so I don't give in to those and I hold open the door for the possibilities, maybe the teachings were misguided or incomplete. It's possible. But all I can do is keep listening, keep discerning, keep trusting.