Lady Tiina Wilder of Chaol Ghleann

12/06/2026

Today is bright and sunny, and my daughter went with her Finnish church and small group mate to a prayer meeting in the Westminster Emmanuel church.
https://b4b.prayerstorm.org/london

This is an initiative of my 2013 SoE mate. SoE or a School of Evangelism was the brainchild of the late Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke. Holy Spirit gave him an idea to replicate himself as a minister, and this was the only such school in the United Kingdom.
[I saw him doing that in Orlando, FL and felt tempted to join. So, when he came to London, he asked every applicant to answer three questions. That was the entire application. Then he read these three answers provided by thousands of interested applicants by himself, and let the Spirit of God talk.... He did not ask for the references, but relied on the information provided by the Holy Spirit alone.]

Today I was more drawn to a similar prayer initiative in North London which is led by Colin Dye and his wife Amanda Dye. They used to lead the Kensington Temple church [which is today my home church]. https://www.instagram.com/p/DZSooEQIbEg/?hl=en https://www.instagram.com/p/DZb25y6oAWo/?hl=en

I met Amanda Dye a couple of years ago when I attended prophet Sharon Stone's Mentoring Day. We were told to form circles of four, and since my daughter was a known person to me, she went into a different circle. We had a free spot, and I saw a lady sitting alone in front of me. I invited her into our circle.

I saw a vision. God had blinded me supernaturally to her identity. In a vision I saw the greyed out torso of a man [it was a man for he wore the trousers]. (I understood he was related to the lady in question). Then I saw the platform, with the lady on it - this spoke of ministry, and more specifically that she was not just a pretty asset. God had made her into a minister in her own rights. [There was a third part, but this I have forgotten. I was not able to recognise her....until she lifted her cardigan and I could read from her name tag the name Amanda. At that moment my eyes opened and I recognised her.]

She was used by Holy Spirit to see something about me. She was supernaturally blinded regarding the content of what she had been shown. But she provided me a pointer, using a similar experience from her past when her intervention had helped save a ministry.

[I must say that due to the passage of time and challenges, I had grown faint. Still believing, still expectant to see what Holy Spirit was about to do about the promise I had once heard audibly, and then over three decades in spirit.

But I had lifted my hands and not given it over to God....but kind of buried it. - And you know how it went with the servant who buried his one and only talent. In my case, it was that one and only thing I had heard and kept hearing. I looked at my age and the cost. I did not really care for the cost. But money is needed and the cost had included certain monetary losses.

So, I briefly considered a kind of a turnaround via reinventing myself careerwise in 2022. I learned rather quickly that this was a wrong move. In fact, if I would have continued along this pathway, it would have meant a fast and premature death. I came close. - Which means that I have had to rebuild both my spiritual and physical muscles these days to reverse the damage it caused.]

Unfortunately [or should I consider it a fortune] a lot of work came in and took my time and attention. Due to the location of my home at the western edge of London [London is vast and it takes a while to make it to the named North London location] and the job deadline, I won't be able to make it to either of the places.

But my daughter who started off in a full-time ministry with me, living full-time at the premises, attending every possible bible school session, meeting and evangelistic event, waking up with all the others and going to sleep with all the others at the premises [which seriously stretched her boundaries as a toddler], and who spent the last year plus some stepping in for the former leader of their small group.....she is there today.

In July 1999 when we visited the British Isles [specifically the Isle of Mull, and the Isle of Iona where Christianity started in the United Kingdom], I spent most of my time in my B&B room, run by a family from the Campell clan, in intercession for this country for there was an anointing over me to do it. It was in the middle of the season which I spent in constant prayer, after having read a book, wriitten by Kenneth E. Hagin. He taught in that book for us to create our future via praying in spirit. In this book he used an example to illustrate what was going to happen if we yielded to the anointing upon us to pray forth our future.

He used an example of laying the sleepers of a rail track, for the train to run along it in future.

He also taught how to recognise our breakthrough and understand that we had prayed out our future via prayer. The jubilant notes spoke of the breakthrough.

It took me seven years until the release with the mentioned jubilant notes was there.

Today, the path created via prayer in spirit....has taken me to the UK, and according to what He has told me there is more ahead. For that part the supernatural is needed. It is something I cannot do on my own. And to be honest, I would not want to do it on my own. His way and His timing matter. And when He alone can do a thing, it is actually a good place to be at. For He is Alpha and Omega, and what He starts, He brings to completion. In His way. In His timing. As for me, all I have ever wanted, has been to follow Him.

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Yesterday, we were out and I spotted a book on a charity shop shelf - it was called "The Oxford History of the Biblical World". It captured my attention and my daughter bought it. It is a little different from my usual books which are focused on teaching. This is a history book which I am going to read with great interest.

04/06/2026

Ephesians 6:13
New King James Version
13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

The dream God gave you is not dead. It has been under sustained spiritual attack because the enemy read your assignment before you did.

There is a believer reading this who received a word from God over their life years ago. They walked toward it. Something happened. The finances dried up. A relationship fell apart. An unexpected setback arrived at exactly the wrong moment. The word began to feel like wishful thinking. They packed it away somewhere between disappointment and the daily demands of survival and quietly stopped expecting it to happen.

That is not a story about a failed promise. That is a warfare report.

Zechariah 1 records the prophet seeing a vision of the land at rest while Jerusalem lay desolate. The angel of the Lord responds with a declaration that God is exceedingly jealous for His city and exceedingly angry with the nations who are at ease over the destruction of what He promised. God does not forget the promise when the timeline gets complicated. He gets jealous over it.

The Hebrew word for jealous in that passage is qanna. A burning, consuming, possessive devotion. God does not release a word over a life and then shrug when the enemy intercepts it. He burns for the fulfillment of what He promised. The delay is not His indifference. It is the warfare between the promise and its arrival.

The word is still active. The question is whether you are still standing.

Comment HOPLON right now. This book was written to give you the spiritual warfare strategy to keep fighting through every delay and discouragement the enemy uses to make you walk away. I will send you the link personally.

Dr. Zac Breckenridge

04/06/2026

A church mate and a fine minister posted recently about an often misused verse which many in the Charismatic and prophetic circles have used as a basis to demand unquestioning submission. She was right, and she presented it from a right angle of view which made me want to like it.....but then again, having tasted of that cup, it made me think beyond these words and the recommendation to flee it at first sight.

It took me back to the beginning of my own path to ministry and how the minister who had founded the ministry which I initially joined just for I was a relatively new believer and did not know it any better. He approached me in September 1991 with the words, "God is calling you and telling you to leave all, and come follow Me!". I protested a bit, as I had just made a turn which had cost me my job and after a short season of being in between jobs, God had provided me the instructions which led me to another job.

The minister told me to go tell my new boss that God was calling me and I had to leave everything and go follow Him. [Which was what I did.]

That step meant that I joined the ministry team of the said minister right after the end of his first bible school. I remember my first meeting with the bible school graduates lined up with the local ministers speaking over them. There was also a Full-Gospel church minister under whom Holy Spirit told me to go at a later date. But on that day he ministered to me as well. I was at the end of the line and he saw that I had not managed to achieve much in my ministry walk overall.

[I had started off as a Lutheran. I read a lot of Bible and my reading increased especially during the months I had spent working for the transcendental meditation people. There was a pastor who visited their office with someone who wanted to have their name removed from the official list of the course participants. I was in the hallway, listening to what the pastor had to say. He mentioned the demons and the demonic, and since I had experienced my own encounter where I had clearly heard a male voice speak to me regarding the above....it left me thinking.....and this meant for me even more bible reading. Holy Spirit took me to a place where I read a lot of the Book of Revelation which is not usually the first place to read and understand the Bible as a young believer. I did not know God, but I was drawn close and I wanted to be at His side. So, Holy Spirit drew me to spot all the verses which spoke of Him and how the believers were as if sealed by Him.

So, when I joined the full-time ministry of the Singaporean apostolic minister....I did not have a lot of good bible teaching under my belt. Holy Spirit had used my bible reading and gave me an idea to meditate on the Our Father prayer instead of whatever secret word the meditation gurus had issued me. So, that felt safe. And after a few months of meditating on the words of the same prayer from the Bible ...the first cracks appeared and the light started to shine in. I was asked to translate a book on Alternative Medicine [which is rather common these days in the western world] and it was a perfect excuse to leave the active work at the courses of the transcendental meditation. I went to the country cottage of my mother and translated the book there, in perfect solitude while reading a lot of Bible where I was searching for an instruction not to meditate....

One day I came to a point where I no longer could continue translating the book. I stopped at half a sentence and returned the book. That also meant the end of my gainful employment for them.

I made a clean break which came with a loss of my job. So, it was a big deal that I had found another job.

But the Singaporean minister had accosted me in the middle of the hallway before his meeting....and I felt conflicted. I did not know much about prophesying, and I felt such tremendous gratitude that I had finally met the Third Person of the Godhead, His Holy Spirit. So, I went and did exactly as told.

My new employer was a half-brother of the Lutheran pastor who had been instrumental in my conversion. Thanks to this step of mine the two half-brothers who shared a parent had reconnected. My boss had just visited his long lost half-brother who had prayed for him. He had seen a vivid dream of black vipers crawling out of him and under this impression he told me that if God was calling me, I had to go....

The Singaporean minister's teaching was quite strong. First, I spent a few months as his mouthpiece, interpreting for him whenever the need. Then, it was time for me to attend his [second] bible school.

But there were a few questionables in his teaching.
One of them was about unquestionable submission to the authority or the leadership above us. And here is where the bible verse used by my Kensington Temple ministry friend came into play.

Now, it is easy to say from the roadside that the best course of action is to flee.

But we were already in it. And in such instance it is not so easy to make such groundbreaking turnarounds and drop it all. We are dealing with the people who have invested into following God, and in our case, there were quite a few relatively young believers who had joined the ministry. They came from every corner. I remember two Russian males. One was a tall man from the Dagestan mountain area in a Russian enclave. - To be precise, they were, in fact, not Russians but an entirely different people groun. - And the other was a smaller Russian man. They were very passionate. They shared a room and came out with an idea that they were the two witnesses in the Book of Revelation. It shows a bit about the various passionate people who had joined the school also from the other countries. How did they even hear about the bible school is a question....but somehow they had come all the way to be a part of it.

"‘Do not touch the anointed of God.’ A manipulative statement, used out of context, to enforce submission by misguided spiritual leadership. When you hear this. Run! Run! Run!" writes my church friend and a fine minister.

I know enough today to be appreciative of these words.
But.....
It is easier to present it from a theoretical viewpoint. But when inside a ministry which operates with such misguided teaching, it is not so easy to detach and go. It takes considerably more for the one invested in the work of ministry to just stop and leave.

So, it is true that there can be some manipulation and control and coercion in a Christian ministry. And it is similarly true that it takes far more than just a few words of warning to get the people who have invested into the work of ministry to just stop and reassess, and leave it all......

This is the work of the Holy Spirit inside a believer which leads them to take their following steps.

Some of us [in our ministry team] went to minister in other places. A lovely couple from our beginnings lived and worked nearby in the southern England [and today they are in the United States]. They were in a charge of a church on an Estonian island and returned there, and Holy Spirit took them on along their journey with Him. The husband went and attended RBTC in Tulsa, OK and they as a family unit were a part of a Victory Church in the same city.

We are all in our places today. But then.....even if the going got tough, it was not so easy to just pivot.....You had set off on a journey and you meant business.

When my bible school had a split.....I sought the face of God [or His instruction for me, personally] and He instructed me to stay put and graduate from the bible school which had been taken over by the Assemblies of God team all the way from Modesto, CA. So, I did as I had heard in spirit. I graduated under their leadership and got their graduation certificate. It meant that for the rest of the school time slightly different instruction was provided.

Holy Spirit took me after this to a Christian rehabilitation ministry for the recovering addicts in the middle of the Everglades in FL.
[The Singaporean minister who felt betrayed by the ones who had not followed him across the border to his next ministry place in Russia....held it against me that I had not followed him there, and the sight of me going over to the States made him assume things which were untrue....as if the Pentecostal church which had been used to set up a court case against him had awarded me with that which was not the case.]

Later....after my American season and months of ministry in a RBTC grad team.....Holy Spirit showed me the way forward, once again. He showed me the people in the ministry of the Singaporean apostle who had set up the work and asked me nicely [He did not use a commanding tone, but presented this as an option for me. He used the words, "Would you do it for Me?" and I had no heart to do any different.] if I might consider going back there.

I had spent over a year outside this ministry and I had learned a few things which were taught different.....so it took me by surprise. But Holy Spirit responded to my arguments about the wrong teaching and told me that these people were on fire....and He could do something with it. That settled the argument for me.

Now, I was asked to publicly repent that I had left their ministry, from the platform. Which was only a small price to pay....for Holy Spirit had specifically instructed me to rejoin the ministry. So, I went through this procedure of public repentance from the pulpit, and life went on.

The Singaporean minister did not fully trust me, but he had integrity enough to at least consider doing it, and treated me as the others [although one of his daughters seemed to remember the fact that I had left their ministry.....decades later, when Holy Spirit had brought me to England, so, go figure, it must have felt as if a betrayal for their family at the time to leave such lasting impression. And no, this is not the way how a healthy ministry should operate.]

But at the centre of all the above was......what God had in mind for this fiery and utterly dedicated group of passionate believers whom the Singaporean minister had raised for the work of ministry. And He nodded at them as a sign of approval. He saw good. He saw them as someone whom He would have been able to use to run with the fire.

So, coming back to my fine church mate minister's words on the false teaching of submission.....and the advice to flee it..... She was certainly right to point it out, as such teaching does not adhere to the freedom in Christ and His heart behind His sound teaching.

While the above is true, there was still something superior about this bunch of people, and God smiled at them. He looked all the way past the bits of the teaching which was not so fully together. It, surprisingly, did not bother Him. He saw the thirst and the hunger, and the passion. And He decided that He could do something with it

So, it is always not so clear cut. If everyone would have fled that ministry .....it would have collapsed and been no more.

God's heart was not in having this ministry collapse and shut its doors. His heart was geared on helping lift them up, to a higher ground where they could see more, and understand Him better.

He saw the promise where many outliers saw a problem.

Eventually, His thought matters.

He was all for building up, and not pulling it down.

He was all for providing a greater degree of freedom which came via His Word.

So, that is a different take.

And at a later date, we all went our individual ways, the way Holy Spirit led us individually.

This chapter did not end with a collapse, but with enlargement and expansion and lifting up and building up. And eventually, it left a good and permanent trace, and helped bring about a change for the better. This is the Heart of God who does not seek to destroy [although some things need to be rooted out] but build and restore and renew.

02/06/2026

I found one of the remaining photographs from the nineties when I led a smaller meeting [possibly a prayer meeting] at the building which later housed the Estonian Revenue and Customs. [Also, a branch of the Word of Life church held their meetings there.]

My daughter is relatively tiny and hidden behind one of the daughters of the Singaporean minister who came and set up the ministry at the beginning of the nineties [possiby in 1990, for I joined it in September 1991. - I have shared the story of my spiritual beginnings which led me join the abovementioned ministry with my tiny daughter. I started off as a 'tongue' to the said minister, and my daughter accompanied him and me everywhere wherever he went and ministered or ran errands or had business or other appointments. We lived at the premises, first in one of the small wooden structures at a camping place near the TV tower, where his first bible school was located. Then I was housed with his family which rented a room inside. It came with heating and direct access to sanitary facilities. That was the beginning...

I happened to spot the Singaporean minister in the photograph of Richard William https://www.historymakersintl.com/ourteam and I wondered about their possible connection. Later, one of the daughters of the Singaporean minister who set up a good work in my homeland, shared how Richard William "practically lived at their place". After the death of the Singaporean minister who was a known person to me....and many other Estonian and Russian people whom he helped train during his years in my original homeland, the abovementioned Singaporean minister Richard William who considered Crispus [Kirube] Ratnam as his spiritual father wrote a most heartfelt obituary [which I no longer can find in the Internet].

There might have been a previously mentioned court case which took me twice to Norway as a witness at a court case between a covering Christian ministry in the State of California, and....us, but none of this negates the good work which was done in Estonia.

The people who were trained up are his legacy.

So, for a couple of years, I was privileged to be an associate pastor of the central church the Singaporean minister had set up. There were also people from Norway in our midst, and here in this image you can see the family of the Singaporean apostolic minister.

His ministry was earmarked by a strong gift of faith. He shared with us many examples of the supernatural which he experienced in his ministry. E.g. when he was supposed to minister to the Asian tribe, and there was no one to interpret, he decided to go on stage and give it a go....and God made him supernaturally deliver a message in the tongue known to the tribal people. And there were several such occurrences throughout his ministry.

I remembered how we had issued an invitation to the people in the capital of my homeland during my first Christmas in his ministry. A lady from our church owned a cafe and opened it to the people. The interest peaked, and we ran short of food. The Singaporean minister went to the kitchen side and we prayed over the nearly empty pots. As a result, the food never ran out, and everyone who felt led to visit the cafe, was fed.

He might have been accused in a few things which built up the court case against him in Norway. One of these things was related to money. Now, I would like to clarify the matter. He might have withheld critical information regarding the scholarships from his bible school students - but he did not exactly pocket the money, for he used it to pay for the accommodation and food. And yes, there was a special budget also for the above [and the food came mostly from the donations of the Scandinavian churches] but running a ministry took some, and he invested the sums back into the work of ministry. [Which is no excuse, I do admit, but there was at least a semi-decent trail of thought underlying this move of his. So, he wasn't exactly a swindler...the way his opponents in the Norwegian court tried to present him in their court case against him.]

In any way, he touched many during his earthly years of ministry. And yes, there was both good, and not so good. But there is a saying, "God loves the trier". He at least gave it a try and his obituary was written by Dr. Richard William, who is in charge of an internationally known ministry, reaching to the nations [and who, in turn, was one of the two big doors God had opened for a US minister and the friend of my home church Roberts Liardon years ago for his international ministry - the other door had to do with my church]. Richard William was discipled by the Singaporean minister and considered him as his spiritual father. He mourned his loss from the bottom of his heart, for he was inspired by his faith and integrity. So, that certainly adds some to the good side.

02/06/2026

My daughter paid a visit to a Notting Hill church which is near my home church [Kensington Temple].

This particular Anglican church is led by a minister whom I first noticed during the lockdown years [we moved to London due to my daughter's work for the Civil Service on 5 Jun 2020, in the middle of the first lockdown].

We first moved to Kingston Hill area in Kingston Upon Thames.

I had such high hopes of meeting new people. But alas, the streets were empty and it took awhile to meet any new people which created an effective buffer zone between my earlier life in Southampton, and a new phase in London. The old friendships fizzled out, and there was no chance to make any new friends, really.

I visited the nearby churches, but none of them was really a good fit. Now, there was the Chiswick Christian Centre where I had commuted in the past all the way from Southampton [and back]. But alas, they spoke at a rather low volume and while it felt a home for a season, its pastor had left and the church rolled on without a distinct figurehead. They did a good job at it. The sight of familiar faces ministered to me. But a quinine injection administered to me at birth had affected my hearing levels, and their softspoken tone was low enough for me to sit through the meetings without hearing much [or missing half of the things being spoken].

But back to the abovementioned Anglican minister and the lockdown years. I happened to read an article about an Anglican minister who used the silent lockdown years to share the gospel in front of the Charing Cross Hospital in our corner of London, and it made me feel curious and hopeful. For he came across as creative and evangelistic, via finding an outlet to take the gospel to the people.

"Pat Allerton, the vicar of St Peter's, Notting Hill, has decided if people can't go to church during the coronavirus lockdown, the church must go to the people."

https://www.standard.co.uk/news/uk/london-priest-pat-allerton-street-services-coronavirus-lockdown-a4405926.html

"Every day, he drives to a different street and holds a 10-minute service from a loudspeaker in the boot of his car, inviting residents to sing along to the classic hymn Amazing Grace, and join the Lord's Prayer from their doorsteps and windows.

Beyond the residential streets, he hopes to travel to London's hospitals to play the famous song and say a prayer for NHS staff and patients."

The same Anglican church vicar went viral at a latter date when he used similarly creatively the Notting Hill Gate Tube Station access way to share the gospel with the passers-by. He did it in his own low-key way by offering them to paint an ashen cross on their foreheads [which is an Anglican tradition during the Easter and which I, personally, might find a bit excessive when wearing a make-up....but this too, spoke of the meaning of Easter - and helped share the good news of the gospel of Jesus Christ. God does not have just one way to share the Gospel. He is creative and He uses creative approaches to reach the hearts of the people.]

My daughter felt led to go visit his church after the KT Bible Study service. She worked previously at the University of Southampton and it was intriguing to see one of its Lecturing Staff speaking at this particular Notting Hill church this Sunday. Their evening meeting was a special for a more scientific mind. [God does not speak in one language only, He does not necessarily use the mode of preaching at the people, He uses different outlets to reach different kind of people.] And since my daughter's work has to do with science and innovation, it was an interesting experience for her. She could meet new like-minded people and had a memorable evening at the Notting Hill Anglican church with their vicar Pat Allerton [or a portablepriest in Instagram].

P.S. I This Easter there was a Good Friday Walk of Witness - a traditional Easter march in Notting Hill, where local churches processed together through the streets to commemorate the holiday. The march featured participants walking along Portobello Road as a public declaration of faith. - Also, Colin Dye, who used to be a pastor of the Kensington Temple church, took part in this walk with his ministry people. All together, there were 7 churches attending the walk.

P.S. II We attempted to make it on the Good Friday early morning to the Sunrise Service in Kensington Gardens. Unfortunately, we made it there by the end of the service. Most of the time planned for the commute was spent at random bus stops, waiting for the early morning buses. It was too early for the train or the Tube, the station was locked. But we had a nice morning meetup at the stairs of the Kensington Temple where the pastor greeted us with a bacon sandwich.

[The Finnish lady from my daughter's Hillsong group made it there. She woke at 3 a.m. and walked in a Scandinavian style all the way from Bermondsey to the Kensington Gardens and made it there by the right time.]

[A note to the Estonian people who happen to read this post. The Estonian villa or the London Estonian House is only 0.3 mi from this Anglican church. - Now, I have never visited it, but one day I may.]

01/06/2026

I have been thinking how we [as a church] should learn to give people more grace than we have been doing. Church as an institution in the organisational sense has had a tendency to remember the old, without necessarily remembering the foundational idea of repentence, or turning from dead deeds which is indicative of a change.

There have been every now and then voices which shout out the word "Repent!" as if it were their duty to monitor the lives of the others, and in a right context it can be right [when someone needs to be stopped in their tracks]. But if there is no direct relationship, and if we do not really care for the fate of the said individual, then there is a fat chance that we have elevated ourselves above the Spirit of God and we do not really care for a change concerning the other individual.

It is the work of the Holy Spirit to help change us. Repentance is nothing else than an understanding that something we said or did was incorrect, and then any believer is quick to change their mind. We do and say things whether out of ignorance, or sometimes even because the flesh takes over.

[When the spirit is strong, the flesh stays under. When the spirit is not so strong, the flesh takes over. - Happens to everyone. We are all humans, and benefitting of the same grace of God.] [Now when we have been the recipients of grace, and when we measure ourselves based on our motivation and intention....why wouldn't we want to use the same measuring stick in our interactions with the others. And very often there is no interaction at all. Just the idea of superiority, possibly. As if one man's trespass were any worse than ours. And we all trespass the Law. We have all received grace of God, and we all need it constantly to keep going.]

I have no one in particular in mind. Yet, it has been very visibly a habit the church [as an organisational entity] has adamantly held onto.

Our walk is between ourselves and the Spirit of God.

Romans 8:14 states: "For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God" (NIV)

The Spirit knows everything.
He sees into the heart of the man.

We can see how Luke 18:9-14 highlights two contrasting approaches to repentance. While the Pharisee relies on his own good deeds to feel justified, the tax collector demonstrates genuine repentance by humbly asking for God's mercy.

It is the human heart that matters.

When Jesus was on the Cross he said to Father in Luke, chapter 23, verse 34: "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."

It was a sight issue.

Our sight improves a revelation at a time.

Christian walk is all about change.
We are in a constant change.

We are today no longer where we used to be.

We are no longer today the way we used to be.

It is a change for the better.

Holy Spirit is actively working in us to implement a change.

Therefore, it is good if we bear this in mind in our dealings with our fellow people and learn to react in a spirit-led way, instead of a fleshly reaction.

There was a time when Jesus had to tell his disciples not to move in an opposite spirit.

Luke 9:55
New King James Version
55 But He turned and rebuked them, and said, “You do not know what manner of spirit you are of.

Matthew 26:52 ► New King James Version
But Jesus said to him, “Put your sword in its place, for all who take the sword will perish by the sword.

Moses, even when his congregation had tried to stone him to death, went and interceded for them before God. This should be also our intention.

We want to see the change. Let us collaborate with the Spirit of God to bring about the change. We do our part, and He does His.
This is how change happens.

It is easy to point at the faults we can so easily see as an observer. But we have not been in the skin of the other, and we have not walked in their shoes. God who sees everything and knows all, He does not discard the people so easily.

He is in the process of changing the hearts and the minds.

It is easy to assume the high seat of a Judge. But he did not come to judge nor bring condemnation. Instead, Jesus came to bring the change.

A changed heart is the best testament of His teaching and fidelity.

Of course, according to the earthly legal process of judging, there are crimes and offenses of different levels of severity. And of course, we should not entertain evil by not calling it out, if there is a need to address it.

But God's heart is about bringing forth the gold in people and we shouldn't forget it.

E.g. there was a certain minister who did a lot of good work, and operated in a gift of faith and went to places and made the disciples....but he also made some mistakes. His teaching was not always together and correct. And yes, there were some who suffered as a consequence.

Now, there are two extremes. One extreme denies any help to the suffering parties and fails to minister to them, dismissing them as troublemakers who want to cast shade while such people are in need of help and encouragement and strengthening.

The other extreme assumes a position of knowing it all by dismissing the human and seeing it all in dark colour, I was even invited to attend a court case in Norway [by the Norwegian court, Christians versus Christians]. And true, harm had been done.

Yet, to the world....what kind of a testimony it was? Not good. Nothing to attract them to Jesus who is in the heart of our faith.

There were mistakes made along the way.

But the court case pushed it too far with an attempt to first build such case.

Yes, there was mismanagement of funds, and unnecessary harshness which was nothing else than flesh running rampant. There was more. One may even call it a "shepherding doctrine" where it was forbidden to address anything pertaining to the leader, based on the same old "touch not my anointed!" verse.

Psalm 105:15 (KJV): "Saying, Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm."

Interestingly, one of my last interactions with the said minister begun with him telling me into my face that "he knew who I was" and it did not really sound in a good way.

I had given him every grace and kept a good heart towards him. [There were a few mistaken ideas on his part, because when the Bible school split up, I did not follow him across the border of my home country.....and because God used the church which had built the court case against him.....to take me to the States, so it as if threw shade to me in his eyes. But, it was God who did it Sovereignly by showing me a vision, and then manifesting it on His own, with all the odds against me. [As I was the one who came across as a bit suspicious due to my spiritual ministry background in the said ministry. Or, according to one of the pastors, "We do not really know who you are....but the Head of the ministry whom you helped yesterday told us not to send our men over if we are not going to send you!"]

The Singaporean minister changed his mind regarding me by the end of his earthly life, thanks to our private discussions. [And he even consented to provide me a good ministry reference, although the time for that had passed and there was no more need for that.]

Later, a Singaporean ministry friend of a US minister Roberts Liardon in whose ministry conference photograph I saw the Singaporean minister whose right-hand person and mouthpiece I was for a season.... wrote a heartfelt obituary about the departure of his spiritual father and its genuine tone with his expressed appreciation and sadness made me feel rather different about the minister I had known.

God knows his heart. He had a lovely family who accompanied him to my country of origin when he set up a good work of ministry over there. And yes, there was a bit of this and that what went wrong. The US church who agreed to provide cover to him as a minister, had sent every bible school student a monthly scholarship.....which he conveniently forgot to mention, plus there was more where this came from...

But we cannot forget about the good side. And there was a good side. There were the people whom he trained the best he could.

On one hand there were some who ended up needing a pastoral care, some even for years, to get over the negative sides of a ministry under his leadership. And on the other hand, there were some valuable lessons to be learned. [Which does not necessarily sound good, but adds to the good side, and there was plenty of good to learn of him and his ministry.]

Today, I would not step into fulltime ministry the way it happened then.

I had a Lutheran background. Holy Spirit was dealing with me, and then He used a Lutheran minister who shared with me what he had. Thanks to him I met the Person of the Holy Spirit. Thanks to him, I got baptised by the Holy Spirit [although technically it was a German Lutheran pastor who was called over there "the father of the German Awakening Movement"].

So, after this experience.....I was filled by gratitude to God whom I had met.

Next thing, in the foyer of the meeting hall....the Singaporean minister accosted me and spoke prophetically over me, telling me that God was calling me, and telling me to follow him which took me [rather prematurely, but God saw it and knit it into the fabric of my life and walk with Him] into a full-time ministry.

I had a tiny child, and ten days later I felt as if betraying God....but as a consequence I never saw my two-year-old who was asleep when I left home, and asleep when I arrived home.... So, when I made mention of her, the Singaporean minister told me to take her along. So....she grew up in full-time ministry. Until she went to school and then some.....

The point is that we [as a church in its organisational sense] are often too quick to discard people. But God is far more patient. His judgments concerning us are correct and true, He knows us to the core, our past, present and future....and reckons with everything. He is understanding, and at the heart of His intention is....a change in us.

Yes, we make mistakes as we go. And some of these mistakes may reflect poorly on the teaching of Christ, as it happened to the mentioned Singaporean minister. He did not give much grace himself, and that made his teaching often quite harsh. Yet, Holy Spirit was interested in bringing forth the change within him. And also within us, helping us with our infirmities....or the way we might have perceived him as a consequence of his harsh dealings.

He was a faith man and his modus operandi involved in throwing his young followers....into the ocean where the ones who learned to swim at such method [metaphorically speaking] are doing well, and have turned these often painful experiences into learned life lessons, while the others who sunk, needed a lot of pastoral care to recover. [Which was definitely a downside.]

The point is not to throw the baby out with the bathwater, and learn to test everything, and pick up the good bits, and leave the not so good ones.

1 Thessalonians 5:20-21
New King James Version
20 Do not despise prophecies. 21 Test all things; hold fast what is good.

The above is not just for the prophetic utterances. Although, speaking of my beginning in full-time ministry, and the prophetic utterance of the Singaporean minister who found an answer to all my hesitations by telling me to go to my new employer with the words that I had to leave...for God was calling me etc.

[Also, it came out that my new employer was coincidentally a half-brother of the Lutheran pastor whom God had used to introduce me to His Holy Spirit....]. With what I know about prophesying today, and how to follow the leading of the Spirit of God.....I would do otherwise. But I was only a young believer, sincere and filled by gratitude to God who had saved me. So....I was in for some adventures. Until, He intervened and told me to press on Pause. Not a full stop, but a temporary pause during what I did a lot of helping of the others, and grew in my understanding of Him and His ways. Still learning.