21/07/2024
The more I go on the less I think that we can fix the problems of this passing world.
Yes, sometimes we can make a few things better - more food, more education, more money, more friends... and yet, somehow, the more things get superficially better, the more we are blinded to the deep rottenness under neath it all.
Joseph Conrad's little novel "Heart of Darkness" had a huge impact on me as a teenager.
I vividly remember getting to the end - "The offing was barred by a black bank of clouds, and the tranquil waterway leading to the uttermost ends of the earth flowed sombre under an overcast sky—seemed to lead into the heart of an immense darkness."
It resonated with me.
The thin veneer of civilisation seems so fake - because people, all of us, are capable of such terrible evil and selfishness.
Why are masks, darkness and anonymity so dangerous?
Because then we do the evil that rots within us - when we think that nobody can know what we have done.
I've been a Church minister long enough to see that even the very "nicest" people are capable of crazy selfishness and evil.
People have a "mid-life crisis" and start doing the most selfish, evil things.
We can feel so sorry for ourselves that we will indulge the most cruel and crazy wickedness.
People will kill others when they feel threatened, frightened or just backed into a corner.
We imagine things that we could never share with others - things that would leave us ostracised from all decent society.
People who on the one hand talk about generosity - are the same people who go to great lengths to hoard up for themselves.
(Literally, in my experience, those who ask for the highest taxes are the very ones who know most about how to avoid taxes!)
I guess what I'm saying - at this time when more of us seem to get invested in what politicians might do to help - the Kingdom of God is NOT about the kind of things that politicians can touch.
Whether we live in a mess or a mansion, a hovel or a hotel...
Whether we are desperately hungry or desperately full...
Whether we worry about what to do with all our money & possessions or worry that we have no money or possessions...
Whether we are bitter because of all we missed out on or we are bitter because of all we got involved in...
What do we really need?
There was once a man who found out how to be content in every circumstance - whether at the bottom of a prison or at the top of prestige.
He said this -
"I consider 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 worthless because of the infinite worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.
For Jesus, I have given up on everything else.
All the stuff that I used to think was the point of life, now I consider them sewage - so that I may get hold of Christ>
When I am found out - I want to be found in Jesus.
I don't want to end up with a bunch of achievements and possessions that are from 'doing the right thing".
I've learned that being right with God comes when I simply trust Jesus.
I want to know Christ.
That's it!
I want to know the power of His resurrection - yes... but I've learned that this comes only when I share in the sufferings of Christ.
So, I want to be just like Jesus in His death.
That way, as impossible as it sounds, I will end up being raised from the dead."
Philippians 3:7-11