30/05/2026
SOME ENCOUNTERS BEGIN WITH CONFUSION, NOT CLARITY
Years ago in Portugal, dealing with unpaid money, I sought guidance. Someone pointed me to a meeting in Fatima. I assumed it was business.
My wife—already spiritually inclined—wanted to visit, so we combined the trip.
A large crowd at the hotel made me think we were in the wrong place. Still, we stayed and unexpectedly received priority access. Inside, I realized it was a spiritual gathering, not business. Feeling out of place, I wanted to leave—then Gurudev entered.
The atmosphere changed instantly. During Darshan, He looked directly into my eyes. Uncomfortable, I wished it would stop. I left confused, unable to understand what I experienced.
Later, my wife invited me to a yoga course. I joined, thinking it would be good exercise. Instead, it was Atma Kriya Yoga. I said openly, “I don’t believe in this.” The teacher asked me to practice for a few months before deciding. I agreed. I committed to daily practice at home. A month later, something unexplainable shifted inside me.
Then I had a vivid dream of Guruji. Soon after at the ashram, He called me and repeated my dream word for word, though I’d told no one. I understood then: this was not ordinary. From that point, life changed.
Guruji later told me: “You should come to Germany.” I resisted, but He insisted: “You need to come now.” Within three months, we moved. Eventually, I began serving and became a Hanuman pujarī.
At first, simple seva was challenging. Winters were harsh and conditions difficult, but I never stopped. Over time, service became a deep relationship, not a ritual. Hanuman’s qualities began shaping me: strength, humility, devotion, and simplicity.
I realized service is a blessing, not a duty. When present, it feels alive; when not, it becomes mechanical. Misunderstood moments slowly revealed meaning.
Looking back, nothing was accidental. What began in confusion unfolded into clarity—not by forcing understanding, but by staying, practicing, and going deeper.
