08/30/2026
Reflection- Based on Matthew 16:21-26
When I think back on my love of reading as a pastime, I realize more and more that I owe much of my love of books to my mother. It was she, after all, who used to read to me at all hours until I learned how to do it for myself, and when I got older she would introduce me to some of her favourite stories and authors, allowing me to share in them as well. But, as I get older, I find myself remembering more and more one lesson about the love of books that my mom passed down to me-one that is a more of a cautionary tale than anything else.
Whenever my mom would pick up a new book that she was going to read for her own enjoyment, she always did the same thing. She would pick up the book, flip to the last chapter, and proceed to read it first. And then, if the ending was not one that ended in a happy or satisfactory manner, she would set it aside without turning back to the beginning to read. She did this with practically every one of her books, and one day as I watched her carry out this ritual, I decided to ask her why she would always read her books backward, and not continue with the story once she knew the ending. And I will never forget what she told me, which was “I don’t want to keep going with the story if it doesn’t have a good ending”.
Even as a young person, I had a hard time understanding that particular brand of logic. I might take a peek at the last page or the last chapter of whatever book I might be reading, but something always compelled me to keep reading the story from beginning to end. Some of those stories were even ones that my mother had discarded, because her enthusiasm for the story had turned sour once she knew how it ended. It never really made sense to me, but it was one of many areas of life that my mom and I had to learn to agree to disagree about during my years of growing up.
In our reading from Matthew’s Gospel today, we find none other than Simon Peter, one of Jesus’ most committed followers, fighting the temptation to drop out of the ongoing saga that is the ministry that He and the other disciples have agreed to be a part of as followers of Christ. Remember, it was only a few lines ago where Peter made his daring declaration that he believed beyond a shadow of a doubt that Jesus was none other than the Messiah, the one sent by God to restore the dignity and freedom of the people of God in their lifetime. To be fair,, this admission of faith probably came with a lot of long held expectations about how this larger than life saviour of the people would bring about this new era in the people’s history-many of which probably involved a great deal of fighting and bloodshed, all of which would come to an end when the Messiah emerged victorious and ready to take over God’s kingdom here on earth, with a fully engaged entourage of believers and supporters by his side.
This is what Peter and the others expected would happen, because in their vivid yet limited imaginations, this was the ONLY way that such an outcome could be achieved by the One that God had provided them with in this time and place. This was the only ending that made sense, and this was the only ending that they could accept for a story that they had just recently promised to be “all in” on. To remain open to any other kind of outcome would mean accepting failure and humiliation as being an acceptable result of their faith and dedication, and that was something that this band of believers just could not fathom as having any part in Jesus’ story.
And yet, when Jesus begins to tell His followers what will happen next in their shared story, this is exactly the chain of events that He describes to those who were now part of the journey with Him, as they had promised to be. What Jesus details is not a story of easy victory or foreseeable triumph after so many years of being oppressed at the hands of the state and religious authorities. No, what He regales His disciples with is a story where He will be defeated by those who now had, and would then have the upper hand. He would lose His life, dying like a common criminal who would be made an example of by way of the ultimate method of public execution-crucifixion. Even though there is some mention of a reversal of these fortunes once the dust has settled, Peter and the others are not able to look past the more dramatic and gruesome parts of the story that He has just shared with them, so shocked and appalled as they are by them.
In an effort to salvage the situation, Peter tries to silence Jesus’ attempts to unflinchingly share the whole story with them, telling Him not to delve into such uncomfortable outcomes, because to do so would make this story utterly unpalatable for those who might yet still be attracted to following Christ in the times ahead, let alone those who had recently declared their own commitment to the one they believed to be the Messiah. Jesus responds to this reaction by declaring both Peter and his views on the subject to be unacceptable, because this would be how things would turn out, whether or not those closest to Jesus would approve of it, before going on to declare that now that all of the disciples knew how this particular story would end, they now had to decide for themselves whether or not they would stick with it.
Jesus explains that this way of life would not be an easy or a glorious one, and that those who followed it would just as likely wind up carrying their very own cross someday, as being too closely associated with Jesus would make them a threat to the status quo as well. And as such a life, it would require a deeper sense of commitment from those who chose to engage it than would a life that was a bit less controversial or disruptive to those who would disagree with it and would have the power to s***f its’ influence out. It’s not enough for Jesus to simply have His followers’ word that they were in this with Him-they would have to hold on to their beliefs as this uneasy story unfolded before them, not wavering or flinching from what reactions would be inflicted upon them because they had made this their story as well. It would not be an easy path, but eventually it would lead them to a world and a way of being that would remain true to all that they believed about the power of God to change the world and their lives for the better. If they could uphold their commitment to a story whose ending might be different from what they had expected.
It’s often surprising that after two thousand plus years, the story of Jesus still finds a way to resonate with us, with all of its messiness and complications. It seems like a story that could have been discarded centuries ago, in favour of other, more positive narratives that can offer comfort with happy endings and heroic outcomes. And yet, here we are, along with communities just like ours, gathering on a given day at a given time to hear the story again, even though we know its twists and turns by heart. Perhaps the story is not over yet, and we are still taking it in and making it our own, allowing it to make us more resilient and determined as a people to ensure that the hard parts of the story don’t get the last word, and that a good outcome can still be gained at the end of the day. May it be so. Amen.