15/02/2022
Let me be honest. I’m tired.
Before you mistake this for a cry for help or public post that should be private..it’s not.
I just want to be forthright.
I’m tired of my ego.
Lots of days I walk a fine line of wanting to be affirmed by strangers on the internet and inspiring them.
I’m tired of subconsciously believing I have to look put together because I’m a public figure.
I am just a broken human doing the best I can to follow Jesus. On my best days people see the Light in me.
On my worst days I’m the poster child for someone desperately in need of the grace of God.
I have more earthy treasures than I ever imagined, but I don’t want to defined by that. Underneath the designer clothing is the kid who wore knock off shoes to school and felt less than because my father abandoned me.
That insecure boy is fighting everyday to be the man he should be.
I’ve had it all. Grammys, number 1 albums, sold out shows, money, cars, access etc. but at the top of this celebrity mountain I can honestly say having good friends, family, love, laughs, & peace of mind is the REAL treasure.
I need as much help remembering that as anyone.
Thanks to my friennds in LA who keep me grounded.
I can honestly say coffee and tacos with y’all is always better for my soul than any party in the Hollywood hills.
If you made it this far in my rant…thank you. Hopefully something I said will help you. I know typing it helped me.
