22/08/2019
This is worth reading. With hard work, anything is possible 😁
My name is Jessica. I am 28 years old and am a person in long term recovery. What that means for me is I have been he**in free for 1,741 days, or just over 4 years 9 months. I was in active addiction for 7.5 years. Below is a picture of my last day using drugs. I was empty, lost, alone. I was fighting demons I couldn’t see, little lone understand. I didn’t wake up one day and say I think I’ll be a he**in addict today. It wasn’t my childhood dream. But it happened. Slowly at first. Then boom, I was in so deep, I couldn’t imagine a way out. In 2013 I tried to kill myself. That didn’t work. God had a greater plan for me. I didn’t know what it was, or how I would get there, but I was alive! I served prison time, was homeless at different points of my addiction, untrustworthy, irresponsible and absolutely had become a shell of a person. It took me a few more years to stop using. To fight for life. With a lot of hard work, faith, and determination I’m here to share my story, here to love each day better than the day before. Today I don’t identify as an addict in recovery first. Today I am Jessica. Am I in recovery? Yes! But I get to be me and live my life to the best of my ability each day. I cant forget my past, I can’t act like it isn’t there. I have to stay active and present in where I am and where I want to go. Today I am a college student, I have my associates degree and working on my bachelors, I am a recovery coach, giving back to those still suffering, I am a fiancé, getting married in 20 days! I am a daughter, a loved and TRUSTED one! I am a friend. A reliable person for others. I am an employee, of two jobs. I am productive person in my community. I am able to live life and make goals. Take actions. I guess my point is that addiction has no face. I graduated with a 3.971 gpa and was commencement speaker. Until I opened my mouth and shared my story no one knew. They didn’t think I “looked” like an addict. Addiction has no face, no one way to recover, no simple solutions or problems. If you are struggling ask for help. Reach out. Life is about choices, choose to use your voice to get the help you need before it’s to late.