03/24/2020
851 words that I had to let out. Be kind, I'm no editor, I just love to write. I felt these words tugging at my heart for a few weeks now. If you'll allow, may they now tug at yours.
Title: Uncertainty
By: Sherrí A. Kaylani
Uncertainty knocked and here’s what I said to it-
“You walk in here without much warning and you just take everything I have known to be normal. Do you think that’s going to tear me up? Actually, It may appear so- I may look torn, confused, anxious and afraid (because your level of uncertainty this time is unprecedented) but you’ve never met me this way uncertainty the same way I’ve never met you this way- So here’s what I’m going to make clear to you:
Uncertainty, you can sit there, in that chair in my home for as long as you’d like!
As a matter fact, I’ll be sure to always have that chair available for you because I know you’ll be back when you realize that not even your uncertainty at this level can break me; you’ve shaken me but you will not break me and here’s why: I’m built for times of uncertainty like these. You see where I come from, my faith is bigger than my fear, my hope has always been deep rooted in depths as deep as the ocean, my vision is set on something stronger than you!
Uncertainty, you may shake and rattle me here and there, but you’ll leave here disappointed when you realize that I will stand through this!
Uncertainty let me teach you something. Although you come visit and knock on my door often, although I invite you in and let you take a seat here, I do so because I need you to learn something. I’m certain that my God knows you.
My God warned me that you’d visit.
My God told me that you’re going to keep trying to come back repeatedly to try and break me.
My God also told me that I have within me everything I will need to invite you in!
He told me that I need not fear you because he and I can take you down!
He told me that even if I shake, he’ll command his angels to show you the way out of my doors!
Uncertainty, I’m not mad at you, I see there’s still many people who need you to shake them up.
Uncertainty know that although you shake people up, in this home, in that chair that I’ve allowed you to sit in, I pray bold prayers for those doors that you knock on but aren’t invited in so warmly.
My God, he lets you set in our doors but, even those that are easier for you to shake up have the chance to take you down the way he and I do and we pray for them profusely- So don’t get to comfy after all, cause eventually uncertainty you will be shaken yourself!”
Uncertainty sat there for a while.
Eventually, uncertainty lifted its face and stared me in the eyes. I stared back and realized that there was something different about this uncertainty. This uncertainty was shaken but remained quiet and calm.
This uncertainty spoke back to me and here’s what it said-
“I’ve met you before and you are right, there are times that I do come to try and shake you, to make you confused and try to break you. But what you don’t know is that because you’ve invited me in to take a seat in your home, I’ve shaken myself. Your calm and your faith have shaken me. I have enjoyed your strength and your will to hope as deep as the depths of the ocean. I leave wanting to hug you this time, needing to tell you that no matter the amount of uncertainty I may bring your faith is admirable.” Uncertainty stood up and walked towards the door but before uncertainty left, it stated, “you child of God, have welcomed me and allowed me to witness the power of God. Although you thought I was here to take you down, this time I was actually here to help you grow, to STRENTGHEN your back bone, to show you what you’re capable of. At times, you may have already lost much and felt dreadful pain but I assure you that in those times of loss, although it was painful for me to watch, I became certain. I became certain that there is God. You showed me that I can certainly believe in that faith that sustained you. I know that I have scared you and for that I won’t apologize because in that fear you grew me and I grew you. Together we survived the -un- in uncertainty! We are both now certain together that there is a God and he will use us all as he commands. I leave a new level of certain and although I must still bring uncertainty to visit others, because of you, I’ll wear that appointment with high hopes that each new person I visit will show me a new level of certain! And if I am appointed to your home again, know this, I'll be certainly shaking before I enter!” The door shut behind uncertainty and there was a great sigh had by both.
Posted to: Own Your Life In Positivity By: S.K.
By: Sherrí A. Kaylani
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